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YEMUZ Nevzat Tarak\u00e7\u0131 Temmuz s\u0131ca\u011f\u0131. G\u00fcnbat\u0131m\u0131nda k\u0131z\u0131ll\u0131\u011f\u0131n olu\u015fturdu\u011fu g\u00f6z al\u0131c\u0131 dekor<\/strong>, seyre de\u011fer.<\/p>\n G\u00f6lgeli\u011fi, kuru asma yapraklar\u0131yla kapat\u0131lm\u0131\u015f k\u00f6y\u00fcn kahvesi<\/strong>, yava\u015f yava\u015f m\u00fc\u015fterilerle doluyor.<\/p>\n \u00c7ay\u0131n\u0131 yudumlay\u0131p tavla oynayarak g\u00fcn\u00fcn yorgunlu\u011funu<\/strong> atmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan kahve e\u015fraf\u0131, ak\u015fam r\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131yla biraz olsun nefes alm\u0131\u015f gibi.<\/p>\n Yaz aylar\u0131nda k\u00f6y\u00fcn g\u00fcnbat\u0131m\u0131 hep b\u00f6yle olur.<\/p>\n Canl\u0131 ve hayat dolu.<\/p>\n Remzi, bu\u011fday yan\u0131\u011f\u0131 teni, kocaman kasketiyle tela\u015fla kahveye girdi.<\/strong><\/p>\n \u00c7avu\u015flar\u0131n Remzi, 45 ya\u015flar\u0131nda, <\/strong>sakin yap\u0131l\u0131 biriydi.<\/p>\n \u00c7\u0131nar\u0131n yan\u0131ndaki masada tek ba\u015f\u0131na oturan ya\u015fl\u0131 adama selam verip<\/strong> yan\u0131na oturdu.<\/p>\n Kamil Amca, sen beni tan\u0131mazs\u0131n, babam\u0131 iyi tan\u0131rs\u0131n.<\/p>\n Ben, Kaz\u0131m \u00c7avu\u015f\u2019un o\u011flu Remzi.<\/strong><\/p>\n Kamil, uzak k\u00f6yden gelmi\u015f, beli b\u00fck\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f, bir pir-i fani.<\/p>\n Bir geceli\u011fine k\u00f6y\u00fcn misafiri.<\/strong><\/p>\n Yar\u0131n k\u00f6yl\u00fclerle kasabaya inecek.<\/p>\n Remzi, ya\u015fl\u0131 Kamil Amca\u2019ya heyecanla bir \u015feyler anlat\u0131yor.<\/p>\n \u201cKamil Amca, ben babama \u00e7ok k\u0131zd\u0131m, onu affetmeyece\u011fim<\/strong>!\u201d diyor.<\/p>\n \u0130htiyar \u201cHele sakin ol bakal\u0131m evlat, nedir seni bu kadar k\u0131zd\u0131ran mesele?<\/strong>\u201d<\/p>\n Remzi, konu\u015fmas\u0131na devam ediyor:<\/p>\n Bilirsin, babam, k\u00f6y\u00fcn e\u015fraf\u0131ndan.<\/strong><\/p>\n Sevilen, say\u0131lan, ak\u0131l dan\u0131\u015f\u0131lan biri.<\/p>\n Y\u0131llar \u00f6nce ba\u015f\u0131mdan bir olay ge\u00e7ti, babam beni \u00e7\u0131ld\u0131rtt\u0131.<\/strong><\/p>\n Neymi\u015f bakal\u0131m bu seni bu kadar \u00fczen olay, anlat da dinleyelim!<\/p>\n Remzi, anlatmaya ba\u015flad\u0131:<\/p>\n Y\u0131llar \u00f6nce, 35 ya\u015flar\u0131nday\u0131m.<\/strong><\/p>\n Babam, bir i\u015f i\u00e7in beni \u201cKozalakl\u0131\u201d k\u00f6y\u00fcne<\/strong>, \u00e7ok sevdi\u011fi dostu K\u00fcrt R\u00fcstem A\u011fa<\/strong>\u2019n\u0131n yan\u0131na g\u00f6ndermi\u015fti.<\/p>\n R\u00fcstem A\u011fa\u2019yla ilk defa g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyordum.<\/p>\n G\u00fcng\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f, ho\u015f sohbet bir insand\u0131.<\/p>\n En a\u011f\u0131r misafir gibi a\u011f\u0131rlad\u0131 beni.<\/p>\n A\u011fa, K\u00fcrt\u00e7eyi<\/strong> \u00e7ok g\u00fczel ve ak\u0131c\u0131 konu\u015fuyordu.<\/p>\n \u0130mrenerek dinledim.<\/p>\n Hani benim K\u00fcrt\u00e7em de fena de\u011fil<\/strong> yani!<\/p>\n Tarla mevzusunu, su konusunu uzun uzun konu\u015ftuk.<\/p>\n S\u00f6z s\u0131ras\u0131nda, \u201cO\u011flum bak, sen \u00c7erkes Kaz\u0131m \u00c7avu\u015f\u2019un o\u011flusun<\/strong>, daha cesur olmal\u0131s\u0131n!\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n Ne demek istedi\u011fini anlamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n Ne \u00c7erkes\u2019i, kim \u00c7erkes? <\/strong>dedim.<\/p>\n O\u011flum baban \u00c7erkes de\u011fil mi senin?<\/p>\n \u015ea\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, ne diyece\u011fimi bilemedim.<\/p>\n O\u011flum sen \u00c7erkessin! <\/strong><\/p>\n \u00c7erkeso\u011flu \u00c7erkessin sen! dedi.<\/p>\n Ve benimle \u00c7erkes\u00e7e konu\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/strong><\/p>\n Bak ben \u201cK\u00fcrt\u201d oldu\u011fum halde \u00c7erkes\u00e7e konu\u015fabiliyorum <\/strong>ama sen \u00c7erkes oldu\u011fun halde ana dilini konu\u015fam\u0131yor, \u00c7erkes\u00e7e anlam\u0131yorsun.<\/p>\n Hatta sen \u00c7erkes oldu\u011funu bile bilmiyorsun!<\/p>\n Rahmetli dedenden \u00f6\u011frendim ben bu dili.<\/p>\n \u015eu hali rahmetli g\u00f6rse\u2026<\/p>\n Nutkum tutuldu, \u015fa\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m\u2026<\/p>\n \u201cBen \u015fimdi K\u00fcrt de\u011fil miyim yani?\u201d<\/strong> diye ge\u00e7irdim i\u00e7imden.<\/p>\n Bir anda garip duygular\u0131n girdab\u0131nda buldum kendimi.<\/p>\n Sohbetin geri kalan k\u0131sm\u0131nda s\u00f6ylenen s\u00f6zlerin \u00e7o\u011funu duymad\u0131m, anlamad\u0131m, hep kafa sallad\u0131m.<\/p>\n Nihayet sohbet ve ikram fasl\u0131 bitti.<\/p>\n Vedala\u015f\u0131p ayr\u0131ld\u0131m.<\/strong><\/p>\n Kafam, karma kar\u0131\u015f\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n \u00c7erkes, K\u00fcrt, \u00c7erkes\u00e7e, K\u00fcrt\u00e7e\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n K\u00f6ye, nas\u0131l ve ne kadar s\u00fcrede geldi\u011fimi hat\u0131rlam\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n Evimizin avlusuna girdi\u011fimde kan ter i\u00e7erisindeydim.<\/strong><\/p>\n G\u00fcn batmak \u00fczereydi.<\/p>\n Babam, i\u015ften d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f, her zamanki gibi trakt\u00f6r\u00fc avludaki b\u00fcy\u00fck ceviz a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131na<\/strong> b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015f \u00e7e\u015fmede elini y\u0131k\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n Sayg\u0131yla yakla\u015ft\u0131m, selam verdim.<\/p>\n Gayet sakin bir edayla selam\u0131m\u0131 ald\u0131, R\u00fcstem A\u011fa\u2019y\u0131 sordu.<\/strong><\/p>\n Babam konu\u015fuyordu fakat babam\u0131 duymuyordum.<\/p>\n Ben, kafamdaki sorulara cevap ar\u0131yordum.<\/strong><\/p>\n S\u00f6ze nereden ba\u015flayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131, ne diyece\u011fimi hesapl\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n Babam, o\u011flum, sen beni dinlemiyorsun, sende bir hal var<\/strong>, iyi misin sen? dedi.<\/p>\n Baba, \u00e7ok \u00f6nemli bir konu var birlikte konu\u015fabilir miyiz, dedim.<\/p>\n Tela\u015fland\u0131, y\u00fcz\u00fcme dik dik bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n Hayrola! dedi.<\/p>\n Cesaretimi toplayarak s\u00f6ze tam ortas\u0131ndan ba\u015flad\u0131m:<\/p>\n Baba, ne olur bana do\u011fruyu s\u00f6yle, sen \u00c7erkes misin?<\/strong><\/p>\n Babam \u015fa\u015f\u0131rd\u0131, yutkundu, derin bir nefes ald\u0131.<\/p>\n Onu hi\u00e7 b\u00f6yle g\u00f6rmemi\u015ftim.<\/p>\n Endi\u015feli bir halde, titreyen sesiyle:<\/strong><\/p>\n \u201cGel benimle!\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n Uzun merdivenden balkona \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131k.<\/p>\n Balkondaki tahta sandalyeye ili\u015fti:<\/p>\n Derin bir i\u00e7 \u00e7ekerek \u201cOtur bakal\u0131m o\u011flum, dinle o halde beni!\u201d dedi ve ba\u015flad\u0131 anlatmaya:<\/p>\n O\u011flum, deden iyi bir \u00c7erkesti.<\/strong><\/p>\n Ama ben\u2026<\/p>\n Kelimeler bo\u011faz\u0131nda d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmlendi.<\/p>\n Yutkundu, yutkundu\u2026<\/p>\n Bir \u00c7erkes\u2019le de evlenemedi\u011fim i\u00e7in\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n Bilirsin, k\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fcz de \u00c7erkes k\u00f6y\u00fc de\u011fil.<\/p>\n Topluma uymak<\/strong> gerekiyordu.<\/p>\n Uyum ve ge\u00e7im derdi\u2026<\/p>\n Biz tamamen unuttuk \u00c7erkesli\u011fi.<\/p>\n Size, \u00c7erkes oldu\u011fumuzu bile s\u00f6yleyemedim.<\/strong><\/p>\n Kaybolduk gittik, sen de unut art\u0131k \u00c7erkesli\u011fi.<\/p>\n Ama nas\u0131l olur baba,<\/strong> dedim.<\/p>\n K\u00fcrt R\u00fcstem A\u011fa \u00c7erkes\u00e7e biliyor, ben bilmiyorum!<\/p>\n Bunu nas\u0131l izah edersin baba?<\/strong><\/p>\n Ben, \u00c7erkes oldu\u011fumu 35 ya\u015f\u0131nda bug\u00fcn \u00f6\u011frendim!<\/p>\n Babam, boynunu b\u00fckt\u00fc, dakikalarca \u00f6yle kald\u0131, g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 sildi.<\/strong><\/p>\n A\u011fl\u0131yordu, h\u0131zla kalk\u0131p odas\u0131na girdi.<\/strong><\/p>\n Babam\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 b\u0131\u00e7ak a\u00e7m\u0131yordu.<\/strong><\/p>\n Onunla iki g\u00fcn boyunca bu konuda tek kelime konu\u015fmad\u0131k.<\/p>\n Benimle g\u00f6z g\u00f6ze gelmemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n Sorular\u0131m cevap bulmuyor, kafam her ge\u00e7en g\u00fcn biraz daha kar\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n Aradan birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn ge\u00e7mi\u015fti.<\/p>\n Deponun \u00f6n\u00fcndeki da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f elma kasalar\u0131n\u0131<\/strong> d\u00fczeltmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken o\u011flum yan\u0131ma yakla\u015farak: Baba biz \u00c7erkes miyiz,<\/strong> neden bunu daha \u00f6nce s\u00f6ylemedin? dedi.<\/p>\n Neye u\u011frad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 \u015fa\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m.<\/p>\n Yutkundum, o\u011flumun y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakm\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n Konu\u015fmay\u0131 denedim<\/strong>, olmad\u0131.<\/p>\n G\u00f6zlerim babam\u0131 arad\u0131, ortal\u0131kta yoktu.<\/p>\n \u201cBabaaaa!\u201d diye ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131m.<\/strong><\/p>\n Titriyordum, orac\u0131\u011fa y\u0131\u011f\u0131ld\u0131m kald\u0131m.<\/strong><\/p>\n O\u011flum, \u201cBabaaa!\u201d diye ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n \u0130\u00e7imde b\u00fcy\u00fck bir bo\u015fluk olu\u015fmu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n Bu derin bo\u015flukta <\/strong>bir ses yank\u0131lan\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n \u201cBabaaaa biz \u00c7erkes miyiz?\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" YEMUZ Nevzat Tarakçı 20.08.2016 Temmuz sıcağı. Güneş, günlük “elveda” sahnesini oynuyor. Günbatımında kızıllığın oluşturduğu göz alıcı dekor, seyre değer. Gölgeliği, kuru asma yapraklarıyla kapatılmış köyün kahvesi, yavaş yavaş müşterilerle doluyor. Çayını yudumlayıp tavla oynayarak günün yorgunluğunu atmaya çalışan kahve eşrafı, akşam rüzgârıyla biraz olsun nefes almış gibi. Yaz aylarında köyün günbatımı hep böyle olur. 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\n<\/strong>20<\/span>.08.2016<\/span><\/p>\n
\nG\u00fcne\u015f, g\u00fcnl\u00fck \u201celveda\u201d<\/strong> sahnesini oynuyor.<\/p>\n