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YEMUZ Nevzat Tarak\u00e7\u0131<\/strong><\/p>\n Seni sevdim. SENS\u0130Z DE OLUR SANDIM! S\u00d6ZDE KALDI SEVG\u0130M\u0130Z KE\u015eKE… Beni affedebilirsen; SEN\u0130 ANLAYAMADIM! Bu yalvar\u0131\u015flar\u0131, bu yakar\u0131\u015flar\u0131 duyamayacak kadar kabala\u015fm\u0131\u015f, senden uzakla\u015fm\u0131\u015f<\/strong>, seni unutmu\u015fum.<\/p>\n Ne ac\u0131, y\u0131llarca hayalimi, y\u00fcre\u011fimi ve zihnimi uyutmu\u015fum. Yalvar\u0131\u015flar\u0131n kula\u011f\u0131mda hep: ANA D\u0130L\u0130M, AFFET BEN\u0130 NE OLUR! \u0130LK TANI\u015eMAMIZ Sensiz de olabilecek sand\u0131m. \u015eimdi akl\u0131m kar\u0131\u015f\u0131k, duygular\u0131m tarumar. Darald\u0131 d\u00fcnyam, yitirdim benli\u011fimi. Uzun zamand\u0131r yorgun, \u00fcmitsiz ve bitkindin. Sen, tarihime k\u00f6pr\u00fc, atamdan arma\u011fans\u0131n. Do\u011fdum seni duydum, seninle b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fcm. S\u00d6Z VER\u0130YORUM YEMUZ Nevzat Tarakçı Seni sevdim. Seninle gurur duydum. Sevgimizi herkese duyurdum. Aşkımız yerindeydi, mutluyduk. Ama olmadı. Sözde kaldı sevgimiz. Demek ki sensiz de olur, sandım. Aldandım! Seven, sevdiği için her zorluğa katlanırmış, bunu da anladım. SENSİZ DE OLUR SANDIM! Sensiz de olur sandım. Sevginin gereğini yapamadım. Aldandım! Seninle olamadım. Galiba seni aldattım! SÖZDE KALDI SEVGİMİZ 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\nSeninle gurur duydum.
\n<\/strong>Sevgimizi herkese duyurdum.
\nA\u015fk\u0131m\u0131z yerindeydi, mutluyduk.
\n<\/strong>Ama olmad\u0131.
\nS\u00f6zde kald\u0131<\/strong> sevgimiz.
\nDemek ki sensiz de olur, sand\u0131m.
\nAldand\u0131m!
\nSeven, sevdi\u011fi i\u00e7in her zorlu\u011fa katlan\u0131rm\u0131\u015f, bunu da anlad\u0131m.<\/p>\n
\n<\/strong>Sensiz de olur sand\u0131m.
\nSevginin gere\u011fini yapamad\u0131m.
\n<\/strong>Aldand\u0131m!
\nSeninle olamad\u0131m.
\nGaliba seni aldatt\u0131m!<\/p>\n
\n<\/strong>S\u00f6zde kald\u0131 sevgimiz.
\nSensiz yapamad\u0131m.
\nOlmuyor, olmuyor sensiz!
\n<\/strong>Bak sustum, konu\u015fam\u0131yorum.
\nUnuttum, hat\u0131rlam\u0131yorum.
\n<\/strong>Bak\u0131yor, g\u00f6remiyorum.
\n<\/strong>Duygular\u0131m k\u00f6reldi, zihnim karmakar\u0131\u015f\u0131k!
\nUnuttum kendimi, yitirdim benli\u011fimi!<\/p>\n
\n<\/strong>Ke\u015fke, seni lay\u0131k\u0131yla sevebilseydim!
\nKe\u015fke, sevginin gere\u011fini yapabilseydim!
\nNe olur affet beni!
\n<\/strong>Sen affedebilirsin beni, seninle g\u00f6recek g\u00f6zlerim,
\nSeninle \u015fak\u0131yacak dilim.
\n<\/strong>Seninle parlayacak benli\u011fim\u2026<\/p>\n
\n<\/strong>Art\u0131k y\u00fcre\u011fim, g\u00fczellikleri hissedecek,
\nHaf\u0131zam canlanacak,
\nZihnimde g\u00f6kku\u015fa\u011f\u0131 a\u00e7acak.
\n<\/strong>K\u00f6relmi\u015f duygular\u0131m \u015faha kalkacak.
\n<\/strong>Affet!
\nNe olur beni affet sevgili ana dilim!<\/p>\n
\n<\/strong>Bitkin halin, titreyen sesin, yorgun nefesinle yalvar\u0131yordun hep:
\n<\/strong>\u201cNe olur unutmay\u0131n, unutturmay\u0131n, beni!\u201d<\/strong> diyordun ve ekliyordun:
\n\u201cBeni unutursa bu nesil, sonras\u0131nda yok olu\u015f gelir!\u201d
\n\u201c\u00c7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 bu bilin\u00e7le yeti\u015ftirin, siz annesiniz, siz babas\u0131n\u0131z!\u201d
\n<\/strong>\u201cDilin, millet hayat\u0131ndaki \u00f6nemini siz \u00e7ok iyi bilirsiniz.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n<\/strong>Rotam\u0131 karanl\u0131\u011fa, yok olu\u015fa do\u011frultmu\u015fum.<\/p>\n
\nDil yiterse millet biter!
\n<\/strong>Dil, halk\u0131n tarih ile yo\u011furup can katt\u0131\u011f\u0131 hazinedir.
\nK\u0131z\u0131n, o\u011flun bunu b\u00f6yle bilmelidir.
\nDil unutulursa kimlik unutulur, benlik unutulur!
\n<\/strong>Dil unutulursa ne umut kal\u0131r, ne uygarl\u0131k, ne sanat\u2026
\nNe ge\u00e7mi\u015f, ne gelecek\u2026<\/p>\n
\n<\/strong>Sevgili ana dilim,
\nPi\u015fman\u0131m,
\nPeri\u015fan\u0131m,
\nSevgimin gere\u011fini yapamad\u0131m,
\nSeni ba\u015fkalar\u0131yla aldatt\u0131m.
\n<\/strong>Aldatan ke\u015fke sadece ben olsayd\u0131m.
\nBiliyorum sevenlerin(!)<\/strong> taraf\u0131ndan hep aldat\u0131ld\u0131n.
\nK\u0131rg\u0131ns\u0131n, k\u00fcsk\u00fcns\u00fcn, yorgun ve bitkinsin.
\n<\/strong>G\u00fczel dilim, beni affedebilecek misin?<\/p>\n
\n<\/strong>Hat\u0131rlar\u0131m, hat\u0131rlars\u0131n, annem tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 seni ilkin.
\n\u00c7ocukluk d\u00f6nemim, ilkokul \u00e7a\u011f\u0131m seninle ge\u00e7ti.
\n<\/strong>Ne \u00e7ok severdik birbirimizi, mutluyduk<\/strong>, huzurluyduk.
\nNe olduysa sonra oldu, bilmiyorum nas\u0131l oldu?
\nAram\u0131za girdiler, yeni sevgililer<\/strong> \u00e7\u0131kartt\u0131lar kar\u015f\u0131ma, seni unutturdular bana.
\nOysa sen, atam\u0131n, dedemin yadig\u00e2r\u0131yd\u0131n.
\n<\/strong>Ge\u00e7 anlad\u0131m seni, hatal\u0131y\u0131m, su\u00e7luyum, affet beni!<\/p>\n
\nMe\u011fer ne \u00e7ok aldand\u0131m!<\/p>\n
\nAnlarsa beni sa\u011f\u0131r, dilsiz, \u00e2m\u00e2lar anlar.<\/p>\n
\n<\/strong>Art\u0131k k<\/strong>onu\u015fam\u0131yor, anlayam\u0131yor, duyam\u0131yorum.
\nKaybetti\u011fim hazinenin de\u011ferini \u015fimdi daha iyi anl\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n
\n<\/strong>S\u00f6yle \u015fimdi nerelerdesin?
\n<\/strong>Ey ana dilim, ses ver \u015fimdi nerelerdesin?<\/p>\n
\n<\/strong>Sen; ruhum, \u00f6z\u00fcm, tutan elim, g\u00f6ren g\u00f6z\u00fcms\u00fcn.
\nSen, her \u015feyimsin!
\nSeninle olamad\u0131m, seninle konu\u015fmad\u0131m<\/strong>, seni anlayamad\u0131m, ne olur beni affet!<\/p>\n
\nSonras\u0131nda de\u011fi\u015ftim ve seni unuttum.
\nSeninle seslenirdi anam, seni hayk\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131 babam!
\n<\/strong>Sensizlik karartt\u0131 d\u00fcnyam\u0131 inan!
\n\u201cG\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fcz k\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fczd\u00fcr!\u201d <\/strong>der dururdum.
\nMe\u011fer k\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fc ya\u015fatan, onu ta\u015f\u0131yan \u201cdil\u201d imi\u015f, bunu nas\u0131l unuttum?<\/p>\n
\n<\/strong>S\u00f6z veriyorum \u00f6nder Sosrukua\u2019ya, bilge Setenay\u2019a.
\n<\/strong>Art\u0131k seninle ya\u015fayaca\u011f\u0131m,
\nSeninle konu\u015faca\u011f\u0131m,
\n<\/strong>Seni anlataca\u011f\u0131m,
\nSenden ayr\u0131lmayaca\u011f\u0131m.
\nArt\u0131k \u015fark\u0131m, \u00fcmitsizlik; bestem, \u00e7aresizlik olmayacak!
\n<\/strong>Ruhum ve benli\u011fim seni kucaklayacak!
\nNe olur beni affet!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"