{"id":2651,"date":"2019-02-23T15:28:18","date_gmt":"2019-02-23T15:28:18","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/circassiancenter.com\/tr\/?p=2651"},"modified":"2019-02-23T15:28:18","modified_gmt":"2019-02-23T15:28:18","slug":"kulede-yasamak-v","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/kulede-yasamak-v\/","title":{"rendered":"KULEDE YA\u015eAMAK -V"},"content":{"rendered":"

Do\u00e7. Dr. ENGANOY Erol Y\u0131ld\u0131r
\n<\/span><\/b> 24.12.2005<\/span><\/p>\n

Kule insan\u0131 h\u00fcz\u00fcnlendirir.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Kulede ya\u015fayanlar, yaln\u0131z ve i\u00e7ed\u00f6n\u00fck ya\u015fam\u0131n getirdi\u011fi insanc\u0131l bir d\u00fcrt\u00fcyle zamanla olduk\u00e7a duygusal olurlar. \u00c7evrelerini y\u00fczlerce insan da kaplasa sonunda en g\u00fcvenle s\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131klar\u0131 o paha bi\u00e7ilmez, o \u00f6zel ve \u00f6zg\u00fcn yaln\u0131zl\u0131klar\u0131yla ba\u015f ba\u015fa de\u011fi\u015fken duygular i\u00e7inde yo\u011frulmay\u0131 \u00e7ok severler. Bu \u00f6zg\u00fcn yaln\u0131zl\u0131k onlar\u0131, bazen \u00e7\u0131lg\u0131nca detaylar\u0131 olan, yeniliklere ve geli\u015fmelere de daima a\u00e7\u0131k olan fikirler kadar, vesvese ve g\u00fcvensizli\u011fin de \u00e7\u0131kmak i\u00e7in uygun bir an kollad\u0131\u011f\u0131 karma\u015f\u0131k d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce deryas\u0131na dald\u0131r\u0131r. Bu deryada ucu buca\u011f\u0131 olmayan hayaller ve bitmeyen \u00fcmitler hep i\u00e7 i\u00e7edir. Bazen dizginlenemeyen bilinci, o ana kadar yapt\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcp, amans\u0131zca kendisini yarg\u0131lamas\u0131na da yol a\u00e7ar. Eksi\u011fini \u00e7ok iyi bilen kule ya\u015fayan\u0131, ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n kendisini yarg\u0131lamas\u0131na ise hi\u00e7 katlanamaz, bunu hatalar\u0131n\u0131n bir tokat gibi y\u00fcz\u00fcne vurulmas\u0131 gibi alg\u0131lar ve kedisini adeta hakarete u\u011fram\u0131\u015f birisi gibi hisseder. Ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n yapaca\u011f\u0131 k\u00f6t\u00fc bir yarg\u0131lama \u00e7o\u011funlukla kulede ya\u015fayan\u0131n kinlenmesine ve kaba kuvvete ba\u015fvurmas\u0131na da neden olabilir. Kuleliye yap\u0131lacak yeterince d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fclmemi\u015f k\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 bir ele\u015ftiri, sonu ac\u0131 biten uzun kan davalar\u0131na yol a\u00e7abilir. Yas ve ac\u0131lara bulanm\u0131\u015f evlat, karde\u015f, koca hasretlikleriyle ge\u00e7en bir hayat kulede ya\u015fayan kad\u0131nlar\u0131n kaderidir bir anlamda. Swan kulelerinde ya\u015fayan kad\u0131nlar\u0131n k\u0131yafetleri hep kara renklidir bu y\u00fczden.<\/p>\n

Kule ya\u015fam\u0131 ini\u015fli \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015fl\u0131d\u0131r.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Yaln\u0131zl\u0131k ve h\u00fcz\u00fcn, gelece\u011fe duyulan \u00fcmitsizli\u011fi de istenmeyen aksi ve ya\u015fl\u0131 bir konuk gibi hep terkisinde getirir. Kulede ya\u015fayan kendini, bazen evrende k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir zerre tanesi, ya da ya\u011fmur alt\u0131nda kuyru\u011funu bacaklar\u0131 aras\u0131na k\u0131st\u0131rm\u0131\u015f so\u011fuktan titreyen uyuz bir k\u00f6pek yavrusundan farks\u0131z olarak da g\u00f6rebilir. S\u0131kl\u0131kla ama hep ans\u0131z\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131la\u015f\u0131r, i\u00e7ini kaplayan ve onu en ne\u015feli halinde bile bedbahtla\u015ft\u0131ran -do\u011frulu\u011fundan \u015f\u00fcphe olmayan- bu durumla. Ama yine ans\u0131z\u0131n, bir r\u00fczgar\u0131n esimiyle da\u011f\u0131l\u0131p par\u00e7alanan bulutlar gibi ka\u00e7arcas\u0131na uzakla\u015fan bu \u00fcmitsizli\u011fin yerine, ruhunu bir g\u00fcne\u015f gibi ayd\u0131nlatan g\u00fcven \u00f6tesi bir \u00f6zg\u00fcven t\u00fcm benli\u011fini kaplayabilir. Kulede ya\u015fayan\u0131n daimi ve k\u0131sa bir zaman diliminde s\u0131kl\u0131kla ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 duygu patlamalar\u0131n\u0131n sadece birka\u00e7\u0131d\u0131r bunlar.<\/p>\n

Kulede ya\u015famak u\u00e7larda ya\u015famakt\u0131r.<\/p>\n

<\/strong>Kartallar bazen kulelerin tepesine t\u00fcnerler.<\/p>\n

Kuleler kartallar\u0131n da yuvalar\u0131d\u0131r bir anlamda. Da\u011fl\u0131 \u00c7e\u00e7enler kim bilir belki de bu y\u00fczden en g\u00fczel yap\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 in\u015fa ettikleri \u201ckuleler diyar\u0131\u201d bir orta\u00e7a\u011f kentine \u2013ki ger\u00e7ekten kent bu deyimi hak ediyordu, 16 adet kule birlikte y\u00fckseliyordu kulevari evler aras\u0131ndan- \u201cAerzi<\/em>: kartal\u201d ad\u0131n\u0131 vermi\u015flerdi. Kimi yazarlar ise Aerzi<\/em>\u2019nin ad\u0131n\u0131n o b\u00f6lgede bulunmu\u015f eski bir kartal heykelci\u011finden dolay\u0131 kondu\u011funu ileri s\u00fcrerler. Ama ne ama\u00e7lanm\u0131\u015f olursa olsun anla\u015f\u0131lan bir anlamda kartal o b\u00f6lgede ya\u015fayan insanlar\u0131n idol\u00fc olmu\u015ftu. Kulede ya\u015fayan, neredeyse birlikte ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kartallar\u0131n, \u00fcrkerek veya bir av pe\u015finden bo\u015flu\u011fa do\u011fru kanat a\u00e7mas\u0131n\u0131 hayranl\u0131kla seyreder. O, y\u00fcksek yap\u0131dan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131lara bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda bir d\u00fc\u015fte ya\u015farm\u0131\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na, bazen bir kartal gibi uzaklara u\u00e7tu\u011funu, bo\u015fluktan kayarcas\u0131na ufka do\u011fru s\u00fcz\u00fclerek gitti\u011fini hep hayal eder. Ama mant\u0131\u011f\u0131 onu uyand\u0131r\u0131r hemen, akl\u0131 ise \u201cbir ta\u015f gibi yere \u00e7ak\u0131laca\u011f\u0131n\u0131\u201d s\u00f6yledi\u011finde vazge\u00e7er kolayl\u0131kla bu hevesinden. \u0130\u00e7sel d\u00fcnyas\u0131nda s\u0131n\u0131rs\u0131z bir hayal ve imge zenginli\u011finin de sahibi olan kule ya\u015fayan\u0131, bu nedenle herkesten daha fazla intihar e\u011filimlidir.<\/p>\n

Kule, ya\u015fayan\u0131na y\u00fcr\u00fcmekle bitmeyen s\u0131ratvari,<\/em> b\u0131\u00e7ak s\u0131rt\u0131 bir ya\u015fam sunar.<\/p>\n

Kule ya\u015fayan\u0131, doru k\u0131srak \u00fczerinde doludizgin giderken geriye at\u0131lan \u0131sl\u0131kl\u0131 bir \u0130skit oku h\u0131z\u0131nda ge\u00e7en ya\u015fam\u0131n\u0131, bir dervi\u015f tamah\u0131nda, yoklukla, s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 ve ezayla alay edercesine g\u00fcn\u00fcbirlik ge\u00e7irmeyi tercih eder. \u00d6l\u00fcmle i\u00e7 i\u00e7e olan, anl\u0131k bir ya\u015famd\u0131r onun bu tercihi. Ya\u015fam t\u00fcm ac\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 toplayarak kaps\u0131na dayansa da o t\u00fcm zorluklar\u0131n i\u00e7inden en g\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00e7 yanlar\u0131 bularak \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131r g\u00fcn y\u00fcz\u00fcne. Ac\u0131lar\u0131 g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek kar\u015f\u0131lamadaki bu yetene\u011fini, \u00e7ekti\u011fi s\u0131n\u0131rs\u0131z ve her t\u00fcrl\u00fc zorluklarla dolu ge\u00e7mi\u015f deneyimlerinden edinmi\u015ftir. Y\u00fczy\u0131llar\u0131n s\u00fczgecinden ge\u00e7erek kendi nesline ula\u015fm\u0131\u015f en g\u00fczel, \u00f6zg\u00fcn, s\u0131ra d\u0131\u015f\u0131 ve geli\u015fmi\u015f adetleri bu nedenle hep \u201c\u00f6l\u00fcm<\/em>\u201d ve \u201cd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn<\/em>\u201d \u00fczerinedir. \u00d6l\u00fclerine en az dirileri kadar \u00f6nem veren bu insanlar bilirler ki hayat, z\u0131tl\u0131klarla doludur, \u00f6l\u00fcmle ya\u015fam i\u00e7 i\u00e7edir. Onun s\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131 bir mezar ta\u015f\u0131na dayayarak komik \u00f6yk\u00fcler anlatmas\u0131n\u0131n, anlat\u0131rken i\u00e7inde bin bir par\u00e7aya b\u00f6l\u00fcnen duygular\u0131n\u0131n derin ac\u0131s\u0131yla ak\u0131tt\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6zle g\u00f6r\u00fclmeyen g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n nedeni budur. S\u0131rlar\u0131n\u0131 kolayl\u0131kla a\u00e7\u0131\u011fa \u00e7\u0131karmayan kuleli, s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 da ne dostuna ne de d\u00fc\u015fman\u0131na hi\u00e7 belli etmez. Ger\u00e7ekte insano\u011flu, \u00e7evresinde daima g\u00fcvenilecek s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131l\u0131 anlar\u0131nda kendisine destek olacak birilerini ister ya da arar. Ona bakanlar hep g\u0131pta ederler bu y\u00fczden, sa\u011flam ve g\u00fcvenli duru\u015funa hayran olurlar.<\/p>\n

Kulede ya\u015famak zordur, ya\u015fayanlar\u0131 da \u00e7abuk olgunla\u015f\u0131rlar bu y\u00fczen. Gen\u00e7leri zaman\u0131ndan \u00f6nce ya\u015flan\u0131r, ya\u015fl\u0131lar\u0131 da en az gen\u00e7ler kadar delikanl\u0131d\u0131r. H\u0131zl\u0131 bir ya\u015fam tercihi beraberinde farkl\u0131 davran\u0131\u015f bi\u00e7imleri de geli\u015ftirir. Varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n ancak payla\u015ft\u0131k\u00e7a bir anlam kazand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 fark etmi\u015f\u00e7esine, bazen uzaklardan ge\u00e7en yabanc\u0131 bir atl\u0131y\u0131 yolundan \u00e7evirip konuk edecek kadar \u00e7\u0131lg\u0131ncas\u0131na konukseverdirler. Dostlar\u0131yla payla\u015fmad\u0131k\u00e7a bir k\u0131ymeti yoktur en g\u00fczel yiyeceklerin ve i\u00e7eceklerin. Onlara konuk olanlar bilirler ki, sofraya konulanlar o anda kulede olan t\u00fcm yiyeceklerdir. Kuleli yar\u0131na b\u0131rakmak amac\u0131yla dostundan esirgeyip bir kenara ay\u0131rmaz. Bir anlamda m\u00fcsriflik olsa da bu durum \u2013erkeklerden \u00e7ok daha uzak g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fl\u00fc, \u00a0bi\u00e7are ve fedakar kad\u0131nlar\u0131n\u0131n t\u00fcm i\u00e7 \u00e7ekmelerine kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k- asla vazge\u00e7mezler. Kulede, isli \u00e7\u0131ralar\u0131n titrek ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, romantik geceler boyunca s\u00fcren m\u00fctevaz\u0131 \u015f\u00f6len sofralar\u0131nda konuklar s\u0131rayla \u00f6zl\u00fc konu\u015fmalar yaparak kadeh kald\u0131r\u0131rlar. Onlar i\u00e7in geriye b\u0131rakacaklar\u0131 naml\u0131 bir isim, onurlu bir ge\u00e7mi\u015f, bir ya\u015fam sonunda edinmeyi arzulad\u0131klar\u0131 yegane edinimdir.<\/p>\n

Dostlu\u011fa verdikleri de\u011fer, d\u00fc\u015fmanlar\u0131na duyduklar\u0131 h\u0131n\u00e7 kadar s\u0131n\u0131rs\u0131zd\u0131r.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Doç. Dr. ENGANOY Erol Yıldır 24.12.2005 Kule insanı hüzünlendirir. Kulede yaşayanlar, yalnız ve içedönük yaşamın getirdiği insancıl bir dürtüyle zamanla oldukça duygusal olurlar. Çevrelerini yüzlerce insan da kaplasa sonunda en güvenle sığındıkları o paha biçilmez, o özel ve özgün yalnızlıklarıyla baş başa değişken duygular içinde yoğrulmayı çok severler. 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