{"id":2662,"date":"2019-02-23T15:33:02","date_gmt":"2019-02-23T15:33:02","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/circassiancenter.com\/tr\/?p=2662"},"modified":"2019-02-23T15:33:02","modified_gmt":"2019-02-23T15:33:02","slug":"kuleyi-terk-etmek","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/kuleyi-terk-etmek\/","title":{"rendered":"KULEY\u0130 TERK ETMEK"},"content":{"rendered":"

Do\u00e7. Dr. ENGANOY Erol Y\u0131ld\u0131r
\n<\/span><\/b>11.01.2006<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201c\u2026\u0130htiyar adam, a\u011flaman\u0131n ne oldu\u011funu bilmeyen ya\u015fl\u0131 g\u00f6zleriyle ama nemlenmi\u015f bir h\u00fcz\u00fcnle bakt\u0131,\u00a0 bir daha g\u00f6remeyece\u011fini \u00e7ok iyi bildi\u011fi, o her att\u0131\u011f\u0131 ad\u0131mda daha da uzakla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131, geride da\u011flara \u00e7\u00f6ken sislerin aras\u0131ndan g\u00f6\u011fe do\u011fru y\u00fckselen ata yadigar\u0131 kulesine..! Ac\u0131lara ve kedere bo\u011fulmu\u015f ge\u00e7mi\u015finde hi\u00e7bir \u015feye ama hi\u00e7bir \u015feye o\u2019nu geride b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 kadar \u00fcz\u00fclmedi\u011fini de ilk o anda hissetti. Bunu hissetmek i\u00e7indeki h\u00fczn\u00fcn\u00fc daha da art\u0131rd\u0131. At\u0131n\u0131 durdurarak, kuca\u011f\u0131nda kendisine s\u0131k\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131ya sar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f masum yetim torununa da son kez bakt\u0131rd\u0131, \u201cunutma\u201d dercesine! Sonra, at\u0131n\u0131 kafileler halinde s\u00fcrg\u00fcn yoluna d\u00fc\u015fenlere yeti\u015fmek \u00fczere vadiden a\u015fa\u011f\u0131lara do\u011fru s\u00fcrd\u00fc. At\u0131n\u0131n \u0131slak yelelerinden s\u00fcz\u00fclerek u\u00e7u\u015fan damlalar \u00e7arpt\u0131 ihtiyar\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcne<\/em>…\u201d<\/p>\n

Kuleyi terk etmek zordur.<\/p>\n

Kule, d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fc olmayan terk edilmi\u015flikler an\u0131t\u0131d\u0131r. Bir anlamda \u00f6l\u00fcmle anlamda\u015ft\u0131r. Kuleyi terk etmek, y\u0131llarca taparcas\u0131na sevilen bir \u201cyar\u201ddan, bir anda ve bir daha hi\u00e7 hat\u0131rlanmamacas\u0131na \u201cyok olmak gibi\u201d vazge\u00e7mektir. Her ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011fa benzemez, ac\u0131s\u0131 \u00e7ok daha b\u00fcy\u00fckt\u00fcr bu y\u00fczden. Bazen bu ac\u0131 bir lanet gibi nesiller boyu s\u00fcrer. G\u00fcn gelip kavu\u015fsalar da, bulduklar\u0131 ancak bir y\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 olacak o atalar miras\u0131n\u0131n sahibi bi\u00e7are torunlar, sa\u00e7lar\u0131na ak d\u00fc\u015fene kadar, kulesiz diyarlarda kulenin terk edilmi\u015fli\u011finin her daim tazeli\u011fini koruyan kedere ve h\u00fczne bulanm\u0131\u015f ac\u0131s\u0131yla ya\u015farlar. Ne talihsizliktir onlar\u0131n ki!<\/p>\n

Ahhh\u2026!!! \u00a0-zavall\u0131, yaral\u0131 y\u00fcrek-<\/p>\n

Talih, o vazge\u00e7ilmez yareni \u201czaman\u201dla birle\u015ferek, insana \u00e7o\u011fu zaman anla\u015f\u0131lmaz oyunlar oynamaya bay\u0131lan yetenekli yazar!?, Her an\u0131 t\u00fcrl\u00fc hilelerle, g\u00f6z al\u0131c\u0131 aldatmacalarla dolu, dolamba\u00e7l\u0131, ini\u015fli \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015fl\u0131, d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcml\u00fc yollar\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7inde \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc s\u00fcren zavall\u0131 insan ise bu yazar\u0131n oyunlar\u0131nda sadece bir akt\u00f6r olmaktan \u00f6teye ge\u00e7emez. Talih, zorluklar i\u00e7inde kendi rol\u00fcn\u00fc oynayanlarla alay edercesine zorla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131r da bazen ya\u015fam\u0131. Ya\u015fayan talihsizle\u015fir i\u015fte o anlarda.\u00a0 Zorluklardan y\u0131ld\u0131k\u00e7a da k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcl\u00fcr insan. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcld\u00fck\u00e7e rol\u00fcn\u00fc daha da kabullenir. Kabullendik\u00e7e talihini, iradesinden uzakla\u015farak kutsalla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131r, adeta kutsar. Talihi, k\u00f6r bir dilenci gibi kabullenmek \u201ckul\u201d olman\u0131n yan\u0131lt\u0131c\u0131 gere\u011fine d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr i\u015fte o zaman. Kuleyi terk etmek, talihi k\u00f6r\u00fc k\u00f6r\u00fcne kabullenmektir bir anlamda, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcld\u00fck\u00e7e k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fclmektir. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmekten vazge\u00e7mektir. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn sonu yok olmakt\u0131r derler ya! Do\u011frudur. Kuleyi terk etmek yok olmay\u0131 kabullenmektir.<\/p>\n

Kule, ger\u00e7ekte bir \u00f6zg\u00fcr irade arac\u0131 olarak ayakta tutar insan\u0131. Kule, ya\u015fayan\u0131na kendisinin ve \u201cVar\u201d\u0131n var oldu\u011funu, ya\u015fam\u0131n getirdiklerine kar\u015f\u0131 daima diren\u00e7 g\u00f6stermesini, zorluklar kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda y\u0131k\u0131lmamas\u0131n\u0131 hat\u0131rlat\u0131r.<\/p>\n

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\u0130nsan ancak kaybetti\u011finde anlar ne kaybetti\u011fini.<\/p>\n

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\u201c\u2026\u0130htiyar adam kulesinden \u00e7ok uzaklara gitti.. Geride, masal diyar\u0131 kadar gizemli da\u011flar arkas\u0131nda b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 kulesini unutmad\u0131 hi\u00e7. Kuleyi hat\u0131rlamak uzaklarda da olsa asla \u201cvar\u201d oldu\u011funu unutturmad\u0131 ona.. Ac\u0131 ve h\u00fczne bulanm\u0131\u015f yaral\u0131 y\u00fcre\u011fi att\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u00fcddet\u00e7e kule gibi dik durdu, onuruyla ya\u015fad\u0131. Ne kaybetti\u011fini bilerek hasret i\u00e7inde \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde, yetim torunu o\u011fullara sahip bir ihtiyard\u0131 art\u0131k. Babilden kalan o me\u015fum laneti yeniden ya\u015farm\u0131\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na, talihsiz yeni torunlar t\u00fcredi o\u2019ndan da \u201cNe\u201d kaybetti\u011finin fark\u0131nda olan\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n

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\u201c\u2026Gen\u00e7 adam, vadinin y\u00fckseklerinde sisler aras\u0131nda y\u00fckselen kuleye, daha birka\u00e7 dakika \u00f6nce \u00e7\u0131lg\u0131nca ya\u011fan ya\u011fmurun \u0131slatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 azg\u0131n \u0131s\u0131rgan otlar\u0131n\u0131 aralayarak, \u00e7i\u011fneyerek ula\u015ft\u0131. Kulenin alt\u0131nda, yosun tutmu\u015f nemli odaya kendisini att\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ancak hissetti ne kadar \u0131sland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131. Da\u011fl\u0131 \u00e7obanlar\u0131n sevdikleri yavuklular\u0131n\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 kaz\u0131d\u0131klar\u0131 nemli duvarlar\u0131 inceledi bir s\u00fcre, \u00e7atlak beyaz toprak s\u0131van\u0131n i\u00e7inden sevin\u00e7 g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 gibi usulca s\u0131zan damlalara parmak ucuyla ok\u015far gibi dokundu. Sonra, kal\u0131n duvar\u0131n i\u00e7ine yap\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, a\u015fa\u011f\u0131larda \u00e7a\u011flayarak akan dereye bakan pencerenin kenar\u0131na oturarak, son sigaras\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7en bir tiryaki gibi i\u00e7ine derin bir nefes \u00e7ekti. Ci\u011ferlerinin en u\u00e7 k\u00f6\u015fesine kadar serin havan\u0131n girdi\u011fini hissetti. K\u00f6rpe y\u00fcre\u011finde, ilk kez geldi\u011fi bu yaban\u0131l ortama kar\u015f\u0131 ne bir korku, ne de yakla\u015fan ak\u015fam karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ile orada kalacak olmas\u0131ndan do\u011fan bir endi\u015fe hissetmeden, d\u0131\u015far\u0131da yeniden ba\u015flayan ya\u011fmur dinene kadar orada oturdu. \u00dczerinde y\u00fckselen kulenin y\u0131k\u0131k duvarlar\u0131, sevdi\u011fi yavrusuna kavu\u015fan bir anan\u0131n tanr\u0131s\u0131na \u015f\u00fckran i\u00e7in a\u00e7\u0131lan elleri gibi g\u00f6\u011fe y\u00fckseliyor, gen\u00e7 adam o anda kendisini \u00e7ok talihli hissediyordu\u2026\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Doç. Dr. ENGANOY Erol Yıldır 11.01.2006 “…İhtiyar adam, ağlamanın ne olduğunu bilmeyen yaşlı gözleriyle ama nemlenmiş bir hüzünle baktı,  bir daha göremeyeceğini çok iyi bildiği, o her attığı adımda daha da uzaklaştığı, geride dağlara çöken sislerin arasından göğe doğru yükselen ata yadigarı kulesine..! Acılara ve kedere boğulmuş geçmişinde hiçbir şeye ama hiçbir şeye o’nu geride 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