{"id":2674,"date":"2019-02-23T15:37:57","date_gmt":"2019-02-23T15:37:57","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/circassiancenter.com\/tr\/?p=2674"},"modified":"2019-02-23T15:37:57","modified_gmt":"2019-02-23T15:37:57","slug":"hic-sevmedigim","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/hic-sevmedigim\/","title":{"rendered":"H\u0130\u00c7 SEVMED\u0130\u011e\u0130M!"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><b><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Do\u00e7. Dr. ENGANOY Erol Y\u0131ld\u0131r<br \/>\n<\/span><\/b><span style=\"font-family: Arial;\"> 25.03.2006<\/span><\/p>\n<p><em>\u201c \u2026 Kuleden a\u015fa\u011f\u0131lara bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck karart\u0131lar ve silik renkler olarak g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm insanlar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm bug\u00fcn, bir an kendimi onlar\u0131n yerine koyarak onlar\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcyle bakt\u0131m kendime, beni kulenin tepesindeki bir belirsiz leke olarak g\u00f6rd\u00fcklerini i\u015fte o anda irkilerek fark ettim.\u201d <\/em><\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/cc-turkiye\/yorum\/parag-ara.gif\" width=\"45\" height=\"18\" border=\"0\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Hi\u00e7 sevmedi\u011fim bir huyum var!<\/p>\n<p>Ne yaz\u0131k ki y\u0131llarca t\u00fcm gen\u00e7lik y\u0131llar\u0131m boyunca hi\u00e7 fark\u0131na varmad\u0131m ya da yeterince duyumsayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan, yok etmek i\u00e7in bende bir bilin\u00e7 olu\u015fmad\u0131. Her fark etti\u011fimde ise \u2013ki \u00e7o\u011fu kez ayn\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerin \u201cfark\u0131nda\u201dl\u0131\u011f\u0131na ayr\u0131 zamanlar da ula\u015fabiliyoruz- a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131 alt\u0131nda ezilerek i\u00e7imde daima bir \u015feylerin k\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, ruhumun incindi\u011fini hissetti\u011fim bir huy bu..?!<\/p>\n<p>Ge\u00e7mi\u015fte, bir davran\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde, bir yaz\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 okudu\u011fumda veya bir konu\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 dinledi\u011fimde fikirlerine kat\u0131lmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m, kendimce yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m farkl\u0131 yorumlamalar-yarg\u0131lamalar \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda olumsuz bir kal\u0131ba soktu\u011fum baz\u0131 insanlar\u0131, aradan y\u0131llar ge\u00e7mesine ra\u011fmen hi\u00e7 de\u011fi\u015fmemi\u015f gibi alg\u0131layarak onlara bak\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u0131n hala ayn\u0131 \u015fekilde sabit kald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 fark etmek zoruma gidiyor.<\/p>\n<p>Y\u0131llar\u0131n kendi \u00fczerimde yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 her t\u00fcrl\u00fc de\u011fi\u015fimi g\u00f6rmeme ra\u011fmen, sempati ve g\u00fcven duymad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bu insanlarda da bu de\u011fi\u015fimin olabilece\u011fini akl\u0131ma getirmeyi\u015fim, ne kadar b\u00fcy\u00fck bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesizlik. Hem de\u011fi\u015fmemi\u015f olsalar bile ne olur ki? Bu beni niye ilgilendiriyor ki? Ayn\u0131 zamanda, y\u0131llar \u00f6nce kar\u015f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131m benimsemedi\u011fim yabanc\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerin, aynen olmasa da benzer \u015fekillerde \u015fu anda bende de olu\u015fmas\u0131 normal de\u011fil mi?<br \/>\nHala, ge\u00e7mi\u015fte kalan bir al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131kla fark\u0131nda olmasam de onlara ezilecek ha\u015farat gibi bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 hissetmek do\u011frusu i\u00e7imi burkuyor. Hatta, niye sevmedi\u011fimi bile neredeyse unuttu\u011fum, ho\u015flanmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bu insanlara kar\u015f\u0131 hissetti\u011fim olumsuz duygular\u0131n fark\u0131na vard\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan beri -ne kadar \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsam da, \u00e7abalasam da- baz\u0131 anlarda elinde oyuncak oldu\u011fumu g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm bu k\u00f6t\u00fc huyumdan kurtulam\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n<p>\u015eimdi biliyorum ki, e\u011fer bir g\u00fcn onlarla bir araya gelsem, kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131kl\u0131 konu\u015fsam farkl\u0131 fikirlerde de olsak aram\u0131zda mutlaka samimi bir yak\u0131nl\u0131k kurulacakt\u0131r. Nitekim oluyor da b\u00f6ylesi birliktelikler. Bir tesad\u00fcfi f\u0131rsat sonucunda yak\u0131ndan tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, ge\u00e7mi\u015fte tats\u0131z an\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131z olan bir \u00e7ok ki\u015fi, bu son tan\u0131\u015fmada bana o kadar yak\u0131n geliyor ki. Hayret ediyorum aram\u0131zdaki benzerliklere, bunlar\u0131 y\u0131llarca bakar k\u00f6r gibi g\u00f6remeyi\u015fime hay\u0131flan\u0131yorum. Ama ayn\u0131 hatalar\u0131 elimde olmadan farkl\u0131 ki\u015filere kar\u015f\u0131 \u2013oran\u0131 \u00e7ok d\u00fc\u015fse de- yine de yaparken veya yapm\u0131\u015f buluyorum kendimi.<\/p>\n<p>Bir de, o kadar garip bir \u015fey ki; y\u0131llarca olumsuz duygularla hat\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m o kimi insanlar i\u00e7imde ne kadar canl\u0131 bir halde ya\u015fam\u0131\u015flar. Sevdi\u011fim takdir etti\u011fim bir\u00e7ok ki\u015fiyi neredeyse unutmu\u015fken, bu insanlar\u0131n benimle i\u00e7 i\u00e7e an\u0131lar\u0131mda ya\u015famas\u0131 ne garip bir \u015fey. \u0130nsan d\u00fc\u015fman\u0131n\u0131 kendi palazland\u0131r\u0131yor ve yeniden olu\u015fturuyor galiba. Ya\u015fama nas\u0131l bakarsak \u00f6yle g\u00f6r\u00fcyoruz ve b\u00f6ylece de bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z yer g\u00f6receklerimizi de do\u011frudan etkiliyor.<br \/>\nYa\u015fam\u0131, her insan kendi bi\u00e7imlendiriyor asl\u0131nda.<\/p>\n<p>Art\u0131k \u2013t\u00fcm duygular\u0131mla ve bilincimle- biliyorum ki hi\u00e7 birimizin birbirimizden fark\u0131m\u0131z yok. \u0130nsan\u0131z sonu\u00e7ta, zaaflar\u0131, korkular\u0131, g\u00fc\u00e7, g\u00fczellik, k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fck, g\u00fcven, gizem ve sevgileriyle ayn\u0131 varl\u0131klar\u0131z.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Do&ccedil;. Dr. ENGANOY Erol Y&#305;ld&#305;r 25.03.2006 &ldquo; &hellip; Kuleden a&#351;a&#287;&#305;lara bakt&#305;&#287;&#305;mda k&uuml;&ccedil;&uuml;k karart&#305;lar ve silik renkler olarak g&ouml;rd&uuml;&#287;&uuml;m insanlar&#305; d&uuml;&#351;&uuml;nd&uuml;m bug&uuml;n, bir an kendimi onlar&#305;n yerine koyarak onlar&#305;n g&ouml;z&uuml;yle bakt&#305;m kendime, beni kulenin tepesindeki bir belirsiz leke olarak g&ouml;rd&uuml;klerini i&#351;te o anda irkilerek fark ettim.&rdquo; Hi&ccedil; sevmedi&#287;im bir huyum var! Ne yaz&#305;k ki y&#305;llarca t&uuml;m 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