{"id":2676,"date":"2019-02-23T15:38:43","date_gmt":"2019-02-23T15:38:43","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/circassiancenter.com\/tr\/?p=2676"},"modified":"2019-02-23T15:38:43","modified_gmt":"2019-02-23T15:38:43","slug":"degisimin-kiyisinda","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/degisimin-kiyisinda\/","title":{"rendered":"DE\u011e\u0130\u015e\u0130M\u0130N KIYISINDA"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><b><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Do\u00e7. Dr. ENGANOY Erol Y\u0131ld\u0131r<br \/>\n<\/span><\/b><span style=\"font-family: Arial;\">01.04.2006<\/span><\/p>\n<p>\u201c<em>Kulede ya\u015faman\u0131n en zor taraf\u0131, bir g\u00fcn gelip de kuleyi terk etmek zorunda kalma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesi ve bunun ger\u00e7ekle\u015fmesidir<\/em>.\u201d<\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/cc-turkiye\/yorum\/parag-ara.gif\" width=\"45\" height=\"18\" border=\"0\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131klar\u0131mdan kolayca kurtulamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 hissetti\u011fimde, asl\u0131nda de\u011fi\u015fimin ne kadar k\u0131y\u0131s\u0131nda oldu\u011fumun da fark\u0131na var\u0131yorum. Bazen bir fikir etraf\u0131na in\u015fa etti\u011fim hayaller, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceler, tasar\u0131 ve uygulamalar\u0131m\u0131n g\u00fcn gelip bana anlams\u0131z ve nafile u\u011fra\u015f\u0131larm\u0131\u015f gibi gelmesi, ayaklar\u0131m\u0131n art\u0131k \u0131slak de\u011fi\u015fim kumsallar\u0131nda topu\u011funa sular biriken bir nefeslik izler b\u0131rakmaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n da habercisi oluyor.<\/p>\n<p>Engin deniz k\u0131y\u0131s\u0131nda tuzlu k\u00f6p\u00fckl\u00fc dalgalar\u0131n y\u0131kad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu k\u0131y\u0131da dola\u015f\u0131rken, ufkun derinli\u011fi bana ne kadar taze umutlarla dolu bir gelecek vaad etse de, bilinmeyenlerle dolu ya\u015fanacak g\u00fcnlere kar\u015f\u0131 duydu\u011fum g\u00fcvensizlik serin bir esinti gibi t\u00fcm benli\u011fimi kaplay\u0131p, irkilmeme, \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcp titrememe sebep oluyor. \u0130\u015fte o anlarda, gelece\u011fin bilinmeyenlerine dair i\u00e7imde olu\u015fan bu korkunun ger\u00e7ekte beni nas\u0131l uyu\u015fturup bir korunakl\u0131 k\u0131y\u0131da kimsesiz, tek ba\u015f\u0131na ya\u015fama fikrine ikna etti\u011fini de anl\u0131yorum. Bu idrak beni, y\u0131llarca s\u00fcren bir s\u00fcre\u00e7le olu\u015farak kimli\u011fimle b\u00fct\u00fcnle\u015fen t\u00fcm yapt\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131 k\u00f6kten reddiye noktas\u0131na getirmese de, gereksiz yap\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir \u00e7abaya kar\u015f\u0131 olu\u015fan kuruntularla dolu ve baz\u0131 hallerde \u201c<em>ah ke\u015fke yapmasayd\u0131m<\/em>\u201d noktas\u0131na kadar ula\u015fan pi\u015fmanl\u0131k yeislerine kap\u0131lmama neden oluyor. Kendime kar\u015f\u0131 yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m bu yarg\u0131lama, bazen zor ve yanl\u0131\u015f karar almalara, i\u00e7imde olu\u015fturdu\u011fum g\u00fcven ve bar\u0131\u015f\u0131n kaybolma tehlikelerine de a\u00e7\u0131k keskin h\u00fck\u00fcmler vermeme yol a\u00e7\u0131yor. Haks\u0131zl\u0131k yapmamak i\u00e7in bu y\u00fczden, ayn\u0131 yarg\u0131lama s\u00fcre\u00e7leri i\u00e7imde tekrarlanarak kendi tekba\u015f\u0131nal\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n bo\u015fluklar\u0131n\u0131 dolduruyor.<\/p>\n<p>Al\u0131\u015f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f\u0131n tatl\u0131 rehavetini reddetmenin ve bilin\u00e7li de\u011fi\u015fimin asl\u0131nda ne kadar g\u00fc\u00e7 bir i\u015f oldu\u011funu bir kez daha d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum.<\/p>\n<p>Sonra bu de\u011fi\u015fimlerin ger\u00e7ekle\u015fme \u015fartlar\u0131n\u0131n insan\u0131n birlikte ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ki\u015filerle de ayr\u0131ca farkl\u0131 organik ba\u011flant\u0131lar\u0131 oldu\u011funu fark ediyorum. \u0130\u015fte o anda, de\u011fi\u015fimin en b\u00fcy\u00fck d\u00fc\u015fman\u0131n\u0131n birlikteliklerle dolu \u00e7o\u011ful ya\u015famlar oldu\u011funu kavr\u0131yorum. Tekba\u015f\u0131nal\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n olu\u015fturdu\u011fu ender bir sevin\u00e7 i\u00e7imi kapl\u0131yor. Zoraki de olsa bir g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme beliriyor y\u00fcz\u00fcmde.<\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/cc-turkiye\/yorum\/parag-ara.gif\" width=\"45\" height=\"18\" border=\"0\" \/><\/p>\n<p>\u201c\u2026<em>Kuleden inip, d\u0131\u015far\u0131daki bahar g\u00fcne\u015finin eritti\u011fi kar sular\u0131yla beslenen \u00e7imenlik d\u00fczl\u00fc\u011fe ula\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131nda serin bir esinti y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc yalad\u0131. Kulede, daha birka\u00e7 dakika \u00f6nce kalkt\u0131\u011f\u0131 ke\u00e7e yata\u011f\u0131 ve y\u00fcn yorgan\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda rehavet i\u00e7inde k\u0131vr\u0131larak uyudu\u011fu s\u0131cakl\u0131ktan art\u0131k eser yoktu.\u201d \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/cc-turkiye\/yorum\/parag-ara.gif\" width=\"45\" height=\"18\" border=\"0\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Galiba, ya\u015fam\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 bi\u00e7imlendiren ve k\u00f6kl\u00fc de\u011fi\u015fimlere bizleri ula\u015ft\u0131ran t\u00fcm etkenler \u00f6yle her zaman ya da sadece biz istedi\u011fimizde kar\u015f\u0131m\u0131za \u00e7\u0131km\u0131yor. De\u011fi\u015fimleri tetikleyen, ya\u015fam\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 usta bir sanat\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n y\u0131llar s\u00fcren \u00e7abalarla olu\u015fmu\u015f k\u0131vrak el becerilerinden at\u0131lan son f\u0131r\u00e7a darbeleri gibi etkili bir \u015fekilde bi\u00e7imlendiren t\u00fcm etkenler en umutsuz ve umulmad\u0131k bir anda kar\u015f\u0131m\u0131za \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yor. Aniden kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z da ise yapaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u00e7abalar, refleksler ya da bir anl\u0131k geri \u00e7ekilmeler, bu etkenlerin ortadan kalkt\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u00fcre\u00e7lere ula\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda bir sirk cambaz\u0131 k\u0131vrakl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla pi\u015fmanl\u0131klara veya do\u011fru verilmi\u015f kararlara d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015febiliyor. \u0130\u015fte o anlarda beklentilerimizin b\u00fcy\u00fckl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc ya\u015fayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z ruhsal k\u0131r\u0131lmalar\u0131n boyutunun da ba\u015fl\u0131ca belirleyicisi oluveriyor.<\/p>\n<p>Verilmi\u015f bir karar\u0131n kesin yanl\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ortaya \u00e7\u0131kmadan, sadece al\u0131\u015f\u0131lm\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131n rehavetiyle t\u00fcmden yok edilmesi, kendi ya\u015fam\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n ayak basaca\u011f\u0131 de\u011fi\u015fim k\u0131y\u0131lar\u0131ndan da uzak tutuyor bizleri. De\u011fi\u015fim ise ger\u00e7ekle\u015febilmek i\u00e7in i\u00e7imizi kaplayan t\u00fcm korku ve endi\u015felerin esaretinden kurtularak, kararl\u0131 \u00e7abalar\u0131m\u0131za mutlak gereksinim duyuyor.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Do&ccedil;. Dr. ENGANOY Erol Y&#305;ld&#305;r 01.04.2006 &ldquo;Kulede ya&#351;aman&#305;n en zor taraf&#305;, bir g&uuml;n gelip de kuleyi terk etmek zorunda kalma d&uuml;&#351;&uuml;ncesi ve bunun ger&ccedil;ekle&#351;mesidir.&rdquo; Al&#305;&#351;kanl&#305;klar&#305;mdan kolayca kurtulamad&#305;&#287;&#305;m&#305; hissetti&#287;imde, asl&#305;nda de&#287;i&#351;imin ne kadar k&#305;y&#305;s&#305;nda oldu&#287;umun da fark&#305;na var&#305;yorum. Bazen bir fikir etraf&#305;na in&#351;a etti&#287;im hayaller, d&uuml;&#351;&uuml;nceler, tasar&#305; ve uygulamalar&#305;m&#305;n g&uuml;n gelip bana anlams&#305;z ve nafile u&#287;ra&#351;&#305;larm&#305;&#351; 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