{"id":27603,"date":"2022-07-20T19:22:19","date_gmt":"2022-07-21T00:22:19","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/?p=27603"},"modified":"2022-07-20T19:22:19","modified_gmt":"2022-07-21T00:22:19","slug":"papba-sezai-babakusun-ardindan","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/papba-sezai-babakusun-ardindan\/","title":{"rendered":"PAPBA SEZA\u0130 BABAKU\u015e&#8217;UN ARDINDAN&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img fetchpriority=\"high\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-27606\" src=\"http:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/PAPBA-SEZAI-BABAKUSUN-ARDINDAN...-b.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"571\" height=\"297\" \/><\/p>\n<p><strong><span style=\"font-family: 'Helvetica','sans-serif';\">Handan Demir\u00f6z<\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n<blockquote><p><strong><span style=\"font-family: 'Helvetica','sans-serif';\">Papba Sezai, \u201c<\/span><\/strong><em><b><span style=\"font-family: 'Helvetica','sans-serif';\">eskitilmemi\u015f sevgiler ve bitirilmemi\u015f g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemeler\u201d b\u0131rakarak gitti.<\/span><\/b><\/em><\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: 'Helvetica','sans-serif';\">8 \u015eubat\u2019ta elimize tutu\u015fturan tomografi raporu ile hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 dramatik bir \u015fekilde de\u011fi\u015ftirecek korkun\u00e7 ger\u00e7ekle y\u00fczle\u015ftik; Sezai, kimsenin ad\u0131n\u0131 anmak istemedi\u011fi illete yakalanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: 'Helvetica','sans-serif';\">Sol b\u00f6brekten ba\u015flayan kanser, yayg\u0131n olarak kemiklere ve sol akci\u011fere de s\u0131\u00e7ram\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u00c7ocukluk ya\u015flar\u0131ndan beri hi\u00e7 aral\u0131ks\u0131z sigara i\u00e7en biriydi. 2019\u2019da tesad\u00fcfen konulan Kronik Obstr\u00fcktif Akci\u011fer Hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131 (KOAH) te\u015fhisi bile onu sigaradan vazge\u00e7irememi\u015fti. Ve i\u015fte t\u00fcm nikotin ba\u011f\u0131ml\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi \u0131srarla s\u00fcrd\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc \u201cbana bir \u015fey olmaz\u201d yan\u0131lg\u0131s\u0131, hi\u00e7 beklemedi\u011fi bir h\u0131zla ya\u015fam\u0131n\u0131 elinden almaya gelmi\u015fti. \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: 'Helvetica','sans-serif';\">Derhal \u201ckanser konusunda T\u00fcrkiye\u2019nin en iyisi\u201d denen hastaneye ve \u201cen iyileri\u201d denen doktor ekibine ula\u015ft\u0131k. \u0130leri tetkikler yap\u0131ld\u0131 ve 24 \u015eubat\u2019ta hastaneye yatt\u0131. Femur ba\u015f\u0131 o kadar incelmi\u015fti ki her an k\u0131r\u0131labilirdi. O y\u00fczden kanser tedavisine ba\u015flanmadan \u00f6nce h\u0131zla bir operasyon planland\u0131 ve femur ba\u015f\u0131na protez kondu.\u00a0 12 g\u00fcn sonra yaralar\u0131 iyile\u015fir iyile\u015fmez radyoterapiye ba\u015fland\u0131. Her \u015fey iyi gidiyor gibiyken mart ba\u015f\u0131nda akci\u011ferindeki kitleyi \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131klar\u0131 bir operasyon daha yap\u0131ld\u0131. Zaten \u00e7ok naif olan b\u00fcnyesi, bu kadar k\u0131sa s\u00fcrede art arda iki b\u00fcy\u00fck operasyona dayanamad\u0131; t\u00fcm v\u00fccut dengesi bozuldu. \u0130\u00e7 kanama ba\u015flad\u0131, kanda oksijen seviyesi d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc, t\u00fcm hayati de\u011ferler yerle bir oldu. Defalarca tam kan, plazma, trombosit, alb\u00fcmin vs. verildi. Her taraf\u0131 i\u011fne, dren vs. y\u00fcz\u00fcnden delik de\u015fik olmu\u015ftu. Hi\u00e7 \u015fik\u00e2yet etmiyor olmas\u0131, hi\u00e7 soru sormamas\u0131, sessizce olan biteni kabulleni\u015fi ve direnmeden kendisini b\u0131rakmas\u0131 beni derinden yaralad\u0131. \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: 'Helvetica','sans-serif';\">V\u00fccut dengesi tam d\u00fczelmemi\u015f olsa da kanser tedavisinde daha fazla gecikmemek i\u00e7in ak\u0131ll\u0131 ilaca ba\u015fland\u0131. Ama t\u00fcm \u00e7abalar sonu\u00e7suz kal\u0131yor durumu k\u00f6t\u00fcle\u015fiyordu. Kimseye haber vermemizi istemiyordu Tablo giderek a\u011f\u0131rla\u015f\u0131nca 28 Mart sabah\u0131 yo\u011fun bak\u0131ma kald\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131, ent\u00fcbe edildi ve uyutuldu.\u00a0 \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: 'Helvetica','sans-serif';\">Bir doktor olarak, ka\u00e7\u0131n\u0131lmaz sonun geldi\u011fini g\u00f6r\u00fcyor, etraf\u0131m\u0131zdaki herkese \u2018onu her an bir kalp krizi vs. sonucu kaybedebiliriz\u2019 diyor ama yine de bir mucize olur belki diye umut etmekten asla vazge\u00e7miyordum. \u00a0\u00a0Corona tedbirleri kapsam\u0131nda yo\u011fun bak\u0131mda ziyaret yasa\u011f\u0131 vard\u0131. 1 Nisan sabah\u0131, Sezai\u2019yi yo\u011fun bak\u0131mda \u00e7ok k\u0131sa ziyaret etmek ve sevdi\u011fi m\u00fcziklerden doldurdu\u011fumuz USB\u2019yi g\u00f6t\u00fcrmek \u00fczere doktorundan izin kopard\u0131m. \u00a0Saat tam 10 da yo\u011fun bak\u0131m\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ald\u0131\u011f\u0131mda kalbim yerinden \u00e7\u0131kacak gibi at\u0131yordu. Bana \u2018biraz dola\u015f\u0131p 1 saat sonra gel\u2019 dediler. \u201cVizit uzad\u0131\u201d dedikleri i\u00e7in akl\u0131ma k\u00f6t\u00fc bir \u015fey gelmedi. 11.00 de tekrar gitti\u011fimde, \u201cBiraz daha beklemen gerekiyor.\u201d uyar\u0131s\u0131 ile i\u00e7ime bir kurt d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. 10 dk sonra tekrar gittim.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: 'Helvetica','sans-serif';\">\u201cKalbi durdu. Hayata d\u00f6nd\u00fcrmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yoruz.\u201d a\u00e7\u0131klamas\u0131n\u0131 \u00a0\u00a0alg\u0131lamakta zorland\u0131m \u00f6nce; O an benim i\u00e7in de d\u00fcnya durdu sanki; hemen abisine haber verdim ama bizi i\u00e7eri ald\u0131klar\u0131nda art\u0131k her \u015fey i\u00e7in \u00e7ok ge\u00e7ti. Sezai gitmi\u015fti. Yava\u015f\u00e7a aln\u0131na dokundum. Hala s\u0131cakt\u0131. Y\u00fcz\u00fcnden hi\u00e7 eksilmeyen g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc dudaklar\u0131nda donup kalm\u0131\u015f gibiydi. H\u0131zl\u0131ca ve sessizce ellerimizden kay\u0131p gitmi\u015fti. \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: 'Helvetica','sans-serif';\">Sezai\u2019nin Hendek\u2019te, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir Abaza k\u00f6y\u00fcnde, t\u00fct\u00fcnc\u00fcl\u00fckle ge\u00e7inmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan yoksul bir ailenin 5 erkek \u00e7ocu\u011fundan birisi olarak 31 Ekim 1959 da ba\u015flayan hayat\u0131, asl\u0131nda b\u00fcy\u00fck zorluklar yan\u0131nda, \u00e7ok az insana nasip olacak \u00e7ok renkli ve \u00a0\u00a0farkl\u0131 deneyimler ve ba\u015far\u0131larla dolu.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: 'Helvetica','sans-serif';\">\u0130stanbul\u2019da lise y\u0131llar\u0131nda kat\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 siyasi hareketin kazand\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 sol d\u00fcnya g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fc daha sonra t\u00fcm ya\u015fam\u0131n\u0131 \u015fekillendiriyor. Burada edindi\u011fi arkada\u015fl\u0131klar onu, 60\u2019l\u0131- 70&#8217;li y\u0131llar\u0131n \u201cayd\u0131nlanmac\u0131, ilerici modernist\u201d sanat ak\u0131m\u0131n\u0131n dans alan\u0131ndaki\u00a0\u00a0 temsilcilerinden biri olarak 1976 da Dostlar Tiyatrosu b\u00fcnyesinde Genco Erkal ve bir grup sanat\u00e7\u0131 \u00a0\u00a0taraf\u0131ndan kurulan dans ekibi HASAD\u2019a girmeye, D\u0130SK, T\u0130P, Bar\u0131\u015f Derne\u011fi gibi kurumlar\u0131n etkinliklerine, grevlere ve y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015flere kat\u0131lmaya kadar g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcyor. T\u0130P\u2019in gen\u00e7lik te\u015fkilat\u0131 olan \u0130\u015f\u00e7i K\u00fclt\u00fcr Derne\u011fi\u2019nin bir d\u00f6nem y\u00f6neticili\u011fini yap\u0131yor ve \u00e7ok gen\u00e7 ya\u015fta bir partili olarak Behice Boran ile yak\u0131n \u00e7al\u0131\u015fma f\u0131rsat\u0131 yakal\u0131yor. \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: 'Helvetica','sans-serif';\">Gazetecilik Y\u00fcksek Okulunu bittikten sonra 1978\u2019de kurucusu oldu\u011fu \u0130stanbul K\u00fclt\u00fcr ve Sanat Ajans\u0131\u2019nda (\u0130KSA) ba\u015flayan bas\u0131n meslek ya\u015fam\u0131, s\u0131ras\u0131yla T\u00fcrk Haberler Ajans\u0131 (THA), D\u00fcnya Gazetesi, Rapor Gazetesi, Ekonomide Diyalog Dergisi ve H\u00fcrriyet Gazetesi\u2019nde gazeteci ve y\u00f6netici olarak s\u00fcr\u00fcyor. Bu d\u00f6nemde Ay\u015fe Ey\u00fcbo\u011flu ile yakla\u015f\u0131k 10 y\u0131l s\u00fcrecek bir evlilik yap\u0131yor.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: 'Helvetica','sans-serif';\">1983\u2019te \u00c7a\u011fda\u015f Gazeteciler Derne\u011fi (\u00c7GD), 1988\u2019de ise T\u00dcS\u0130AD taraf\u0131ndan \u201c<em>Y\u0131l\u0131n Gazetecisi\u201d<\/em> se\u00e7ilecek kadar ba\u015far\u0131l\u0131 bir gazeteci oluyor. Her iki \u00a0\u00a0ara\u015ft\u0131rmas\u0131 da kitap olarak bas\u0131l\u0131yor.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: 'Helvetica','sans-serif';\">1989 da Moskova\u2019ya H\u00fcrriyet Gazetesi\u2019nin temsilcisi olarak yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u015f gezisine kendi talebi \u00fczerine Abhazya seyahati eklendi\u011finde t\u00fcm hayat\u0131 de\u011fi\u015fiyor. Daha sonra Abhazya\u2019n\u0131n kurucu devlet ba\u015fkan\u0131 olacak olan Ardz\u0131nba ile yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmede Ardz\u0131nba\u2019n\u0131n Abhazya\u2019ya kal\u0131c\u0131 olarak gelip g\u00f6rev almas\u0131n\u0131 istemesi onu \u00e7ok etkiliyor. \u00d6nceden planlanm\u0131\u015f\u00a0 \u00a0ABD\u2019deki \u0130ngilizce \u00f6\u011frenme program\u0131 biter bitmez, hi\u00e7 akl\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131karamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131ya kulak verip Abhazya\u2019ya d\u00f6n\u00fcyor.\u00a0 1991-1997\u00a0\u00a0 aras\u0131nda Abhazya\u2019da ge\u00e7irdi\u011fi y\u0131llar hayat\u0131nda derin izler b\u0131rak\u0131yor; 1996\u2019ya kadar devlet ba\u015fkanl\u0131\u011f\u0131, ba\u015fbakanl\u0131k ve d\u0131\u015fi\u015fleri bakanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 b\u00fcnyesinde ekonomi ve d\u0131\u015f ili\u015fkiler dan\u0131\u015fman\u0131 olarak \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor. \u00a0Bu d\u00f6nem ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 bir\u00e7ok yaz\u0131s\u0131nda ve s\u00f6yle\u015filerinde kendisi uzun uzun anlat\u0131yor ve yaz\u0131yor. Abhazya sava\u015f\u0131 s\u0131ras\u0131nda k\u0131z\u0131 Daria d\u00fcnyaya geliyor.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: 'Helvetica','sans-serif';\">1997-1999 aras\u0131\u00a0 \u00a0Kanal-E televizyonunun temsilcisi olarak Moskova\u2019da bulunduktan sonra\u00a0 \u00a0T\u00fcrkiye\u2019ye d\u00f6n\u00fcyor. \u00a0Birlikte kurdu\u011fumuz CSA Celebrity Speakers Konu\u015fmac\u0131 Ajans\u0131n\u0131n orta\u011f\u0131 olarak ya\u015fam\u0131n\u0131 devam ettirip vefat etti\u011fi tarihe kadar toplumsal konularda yazmaya ve proje \u00fcretmeye devam ediyor.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: 'Helvetica','sans-serif';\">Benden onu anlatan bir yaz\u0131 yazmam istendi\u011finde a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7as\u0131 biraz teredd\u00fct ettim. \u00a0Kendisi \u201c\u00f6zel\u201d oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc hi\u00e7bir \u015feyi payla\u015fmay\u0131 sevmezdi ve \u201cher bildi\u011fini s\u00f6ylemen gerekmez\u201d yakla\u015f\u0131m\u0131nda olan bir s\u0131r k\u00fcp\u00fcyd\u00fc. \u00a022 y\u0131l boyunca g\u00fcnde 14-15 saat birlikte olmu\u015f, hemen her \u015feyi beraber yapm\u0131\u015f, projeler \u00fcretmi\u015f, konu\u015fup, tart\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f, birlikte mutfa\u011fa girip de\u011fi\u015fik yemek denemeleri yapm\u0131\u015f, film izlemi\u015f ya da y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015fe \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f, arkada\u015flar\u0131m\u0131zla \u00e7ok\u00e7a vakit ge\u00e7irmi\u015ftik. Ama d\u00f6n\u00fcp geriye bak\u0131nca bana hi\u00e7bir zaman s\u00f6ylemedi\u011fi baz\u0131 \u015feyler \u00a0\u00a0oldu\u011funu g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum. Mesela sava\u015f s\u0131ras\u0131nda ve sonras\u0131nda Abhazya\u2019da ya\u015fanan olumsuzluklar\u0131 hi\u00e7 anlatmazd\u0131. Amac\u0131 ne olursa olsun t\u00fcm sava\u015flar\u0131n kirli ve korkun\u00e7 bir y\u00fcz\u00fc oldu\u011funu, sava\u015f sonras\u0131nda ya\u015fanan payla\u015f\u0131m sava\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n ise \u00f6zellikle vatansever duygularla sava\u015fa kat\u0131lm\u0131\u015f ya da sava\u015fta e\u015fini, dostunu, arkada\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ya da akrabas\u0131n\u0131 kaybetmi\u015f ki\u015filer i\u00e7in daha da ac\u0131t\u0131c\u0131 oldu\u011funu s\u00f6ylerdi sadece. Ya da Diasporadan Abhazya\u2019ya d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f yapm\u0131\u015f baz\u0131 ki\u015filerin orada ya\u015fayan \u2018\u00e7izgi d\u0131\u015f\u0131\u2019 ki\u015filerle birlikte bula\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 yasad\u0131\u015f\u0131 olaylardan, \u00f6l\u00fcmlerden hi\u00e7 bahsetmez, ba\u015fka yerlerden duydu\u011fum bilgileri sordu\u011fumda \u00fcst\u00fc kapal\u0131, ka\u00e7amak cevaplar verirdi.\u00a0 \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: 'Helvetica','sans-serif';\">\u00c7ok hassas ve ince ruhlu bir insand\u0131. Herkesin derdini kendine dert edinirdi. Belki de bu kadar duygusal y\u00fck\u00fc v\u00fccudu ta\u015f\u0131yamad\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: 'Helvetica','sans-serif';\">Her zaman \u00e7ok okur ve ara\u015ft\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Bir yaz\u0131y\u0131 kaleme almas\u0131 bazen g\u00fcnler, hatta haftalar s\u00fcrerdi. \u00c7alakalem yaz\u0131 yazmak hi\u00e7 ona g\u00f6re de\u011fildi. Ba\u015flay\u0131p yazd\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 be\u011fenmedi\u011fi i\u00e7in bitirmedi\u011fi onlarca yaz\u0131s\u0131 vard\u0131. \u00d6n\u00fcn\u00fc arkas\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeden konu\u015fmaktan hi\u00e7 ho\u015flanmazd\u0131. Her yazaca\u011f\u0131 kelimeyi, s\u00f6yleyece\u011fi s\u00f6z\u00fc \u00e7ok dikkatle se\u00e7erdi. Buzda\u011f\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcnen y\u00fcz\u00fcne de\u011fil de alt\u0131nda ne oldu\u011funa bak\u0131p analizler yapmay\u0131 severdi. \u00d6ng\u00f6r\u00fcleri \u00e7o\u011fu kez o kadar do\u011fru \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131 ki, bazen bu \u201cgelecek okumalar\u0131\u201d beni hayretler i\u00e7inde b\u0131rak\u0131rd\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: 'Helvetica','sans-serif';\">Onu \u00e7ok k\u0131zd\u0131ran birine bile fevri tepki vermezdi. \u201cHer \u015feyin yeri ve zaman\u0131 var\u201d konusunda herkese \u00f6rnek olacak kadar so\u011fukkanl\u0131yd\u0131. Ama \u201cintikam so\u011fuk yenen bir yemektir.\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc bana s\u0131k s\u0131k d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u00a0Yeri ve zaman\u0131 geldi\u011finde kimseye hak etti\u011fi cevab\u0131 vermekten ka\u00e7\u0131nmazd\u0131. Bazen bunun i\u00e7in uzun bir zaman ge\u00e7mesi gerekse bile.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: 'Helvetica','sans-serif';\">\u00c7ok vefal\u0131 bir insand\u0131. Kendisine yap\u0131lan iyilikleri asla unutmazd\u0131; neredeyse t\u00fcm \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 siyasi nedenlerle s\u0131rayla devletle ba\u015f\u0131 derde giren o\u011fullar\u0131na sahip \u00e7\u0131kan annesi Nebile Han\u0131m\u2019a ve ABD de ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 halde elini ailesinin \u00fczerinden hi\u00e7 eksik etmeyen abisi Emin\u2019e duydu\u011fu sevgiyi ve minneti s\u0131k s\u0131k dile getirirdi. \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: 'Helvetica','sans-serif';\">Karizmatik ki\u015fili\u011fi ve etkili s\u00f6z s\u00f6yleme becerisi onu hep toplumun \u00f6n\u00fcne itse de asl\u0131nda yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 severdi ve ki\u015fisel \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcne d\u00fc\u015fk\u00fcnd\u00fc.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: 'Helvetica','sans-serif';\">Titiz, tertipli ve d\u00fczenli bir insan oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in, kaybetmekten korktu\u011fum her \u015feyi ona emanet ederdim. Kal\u0131pla\u015fm\u0131\u015f kurallara meydan okumay\u0131 severdi. Vasat olan hi\u00e7bir \u015feyden ho\u015flanmazd\u0131. Yarat\u0131c\u0131 ve farkl\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. 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