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YEMUZ Nevzat Tarak\u00e7\u0131<\/strong><\/p>\n Sevgili ana dilim,<\/p>\n Mahcubum size kar\u015f\u0131, sevginin gere\u011fini yapamad\u0131m, vefal\u0131 davranamad\u0131m<\/strong>, aldatt\u0131m sizi.<\/p>\n Sevgili ana dilim, s\u00f6zde kald\u0131 sevgim.<\/strong><\/p>\n Seni seviyorum, dedim durdum, sevginin gere\u011fini yapamad\u0131m, ba\u015fkalar\u0131yla aldatt\u0131m sizi.<\/p>\n Ke\u015fke aldatan sadece ben olsayd\u0131m.<\/p>\n Biliyorum sevenlerin(!)<\/strong> \u00e7o\u011fu aldatt\u0131, aldat\u0131yor seni.<\/p>\n Biliyorum, <\/strong>k\u0131rg\u0131ns\u0131n, k\u00fcsk\u00fcns\u00fcn, yorgunsun, bitkinsin!<\/p>\n G\u00fczel dilim, beni affedebilecek misin?<\/strong><\/p>\n Ge\u00e7 de olsa anlad\u0131m ger\u00e7e\u011fi.<\/p>\n Hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum, seninle annem tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131 beni.<\/p>\n \u0130lkokul \u00e7a\u011f\u0131nda seni sevdim, seninle oldum hep. Oysa sen, atalar\u0131m\u0131n yadig\u00e2r\u0131s\u0131n<\/strong>, \u00f6z\u00fcms\u00fcn, ruhumsun\u2026<\/p>\n Hatal\u0131y\u0131m, su\u00e7luyum, ne olur affet beni!<\/p>\n Sensiz de olabilecek sand\u0131m.<\/strong><\/p>\n Me\u011fer ne \u00e7ok aldand\u0131m.<\/p>\n \u015eimdi akl\u0131m kar\u0131\u015f\u0131k, duygular\u0131m tarumar.<\/p>\n Anlarsa beni sa\u011f\u0131r, dilsiz, \u00e2m\u00e2lar anlar.<\/strong><\/p>\n Darald\u0131 d\u00fcnyam, yitirdim benli\u011fimi, konu\u015fam\u0131yor, anlayam\u0131yor, duyam\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n Kaybetti\u011fim hazinenin de\u011ferini \u015fimdi daha iyi anl\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n Dilsizlik bir felaket, belki de bir k\u0131yamet!<\/p>\n Bunu derinden hissediyor, herkes anlas\u0131n istiyorum.<\/p>\n Uzun zamand\u0131r yorgun, \u00fcmitsiz ve bitkindin.<\/p>\n Ey dilim, ses ver \u015fimdi nerelerdesin?<\/p>\n Seni anlayamad\u0131m, derin manan\u0131 kavrayamad\u0131m.<\/p>\n Oysa sen, benli\u011fimin temeli,\u00a0k\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fcn g\u00fcr sesiydin.<\/strong><\/p>\n Sen, tarihime k\u00f6pr\u00fc, atamdan arma\u011fans\u0131n.<\/p>\n Sen, ruhum, \u00f6z\u00fcm, tutan elim, g\u00f6ren g\u00f6z\u00fcms\u00fcn.<\/p>\n Sen her \u015feyimsin.<\/p>\n Seninle olamad\u0131m, seninle konu\u015fmad\u0131m, seni anlayamad\u0131m, ne olur affet beni!<\/p>\n Ge\u00e7 fark ettim: Seni sevmek, ecdad\u0131 sevmek, Elbruz\u2019 da gezinmekmi\u015f.<\/p>\n Me\u011fer dilimizin g\u00fczelli\u011fince g\u00fczel ve g\u00fcvenlikteymi\u015fiz!<\/p>\n Do\u011fdum seni duydum,\u00a0seninle b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fcm.<\/strong><\/p>\n Sonras\u0131nda de\u011fi\u015ftim ve seni unuttum.<\/p>\n Seninle seslenirdi anam<\/strong>, seni hayk\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131 babam!<\/p>\n Sensizlik karartt\u0131 d\u00fcnyam\u0131 inan.<\/p>\n \u201cG\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fcz k\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fczd\u00fcr!\u201d der dururdum.<\/p>\n Me\u011fer k\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fc ya\u015fatan, onu ta\u015f\u0131yan \u201cdil\u201d mi\u015f, bunu nas\u0131l unuttum?<\/p>\n Dilsiz k\u00fclt\u00fcr ya\u015famaz, k\u00fclt\u00fcrs\u00fcz millet olmazm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n \u015e\u00fck\u00fcrler olsun ki ge\u00e7 de olsa sensiz olamayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 anlad\u0131m!<\/p>\n S\u00f6z veriyorum \u00f6nder\u00a0Sosrukua<\/strong>\u2019ya, bilge\u00a0Setenay<\/strong>\u2019a!<\/p>\n Art\u0131k seninle ya\u015fayaca\u011f\u0131m, seninle konu\u015faca\u011f\u0131m, seni anlataca\u011f\u0131m, senden ayr\u0131lmayaca\u011f\u0131m.<\/p>\n Art\u0131k \u015fark\u0131m, \u00fcmitsizlik; bestem, \u00e7aresizlik olmayacak!<\/p>\n Ruhum ve benli\u011fim seni kucaklayacak.<\/p>\n \u015eimdi nerelerdesin bilmiyorum.<\/p>\n Ses ver ne olur, ses ver!<\/p>\n \u201cAffettim seni!\u201d<\/strong>\u00a0de.<\/p>\n Bu s\u00f6z\u00fc duysam bir, bu bana yeter!<\/p>\n Biliyorum, \u00e7ok yorgun ve hastayd\u0131n.<\/strong><\/p>\n S\u00f6yle nas\u0131ls\u0131n?<\/p>\n Ne olur \u00e7ok yorgunlu\u011fum, hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcn be g\u00fcn art\u0131yor<\/strong>, deme!<\/p>\n \u00c7ocuklar ve gen\u00e7ler g\u00fcc\u00fcme g\u00fc\u00e7, can\u0131ma can kat\u0131yor, de!<\/p>\n Evet, evet duyuyorum k\u0131s\u0131k sesini.<\/p>\n Diyorsun ki:<\/p>\n Dostlar\u0131m, yorgunum, hastay\u0131m ama ne mutlu ki sevenlerim g\u00fcn ge\u00e7tik\u00e7e art\u0131yor,<\/strong> enerjim katlan\u0131yor.<\/p>\n Bana olan a\u015fk\u0131n\u0131z, bu t\u00fckenmez sevginiz<\/strong> eminim sonsuza kadar ya\u015fatacak beni.<\/p>\n Ne olur beni unutmay\u0131n!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" YEMUZ Nevzat Tarakçı Sevgili ana dilim, Mahcubum size karşı, sevginin gereğini yapamadım, vefalı davranamadım, aldattım sizi. Sevgili ana dilim, sözde kaldı sevgim. Seni seviyorum, dedim durdum, sevginin gereğini yapamadım, başkalarıyla aldattım sizi. Keşke aldatan sadece ben olsaydım. Biliyorum sevenlerin(!) çoğu aldattı, aldatıyor seni. Biliyorum, kırgınsın, küskünsün, yorgunsun, bitkinsin! Güzel dilim, beni affedebilecek misin? 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\nNe oldu, nas\u0131l oldu, yeni sevgililer girdi aram\u0131za, unutturdular seni.<\/p>\n