{"id":3611,"date":"2019-02-25T18:40:44","date_gmt":"2019-02-25T18:40:44","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/circassiancenter.com\/tr\/?p=3611"},"modified":"2019-02-25T18:40:44","modified_gmt":"2019-02-25T18:40:44","slug":"tarif-edilemez-bir-huzun","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/tarif-edilemez-bir-huzun\/","title":{"rendered":"TAR\u0130F ED\u0130LEMEZ B\u0130R H\u00dcZ\u00dcN"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\"><strong>Semra Ademey<span lang=\"en-us\"> G<\/span>\u00fcrel<\/strong><br \/>\n<\/span><span style=\"font-family: Arial;\"> 24.12.2005<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Her ge\u00e7en g\u00fcn, insandan fark\u0131nda bile olmadan \u00e7ok \u015feyler al\u0131p g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr. Ge\u00e7mi\u015fe d\u00f6n\u00fcp bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda baz\u0131 an\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131z ac\u0131 verir bize, tarif edemedi\u011fimiz bir h\u00fcz\u00fcn.<\/p>\n<p>\u00c7ok k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckt\u00fcm, annesinden ayr\u0131 nas\u0131l kalabilir dedirtecek kadar k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck. Ancak her f\u0131rsatta k\u00f6ye; ya halamlara ya da amcamlara gitmek i\u00e7in can atard\u0131m. Hayal gibi an\u0131msar\u0131m, k\u00f6ye amcamlara misafir gitti\u011fim g\u00fcnleri. Ak\u015fam yemekten sonra, ya\u015fl\u0131lar bir evde toplan\u0131rd\u0131, gen\u00e7lerde kendi aralar\u0131nda ba\u015fka yerde. Gaz lambas\u0131n\u0131n \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda tad\u0131na doyum olmayan sohbetler ba\u015flard\u0131. Biz \u00e7ocuklar ise nedendir bilmem ya\u015fl\u0131lar\u0131n sohbetini tercih ederdik. Belki \u00e7ok sevdi\u011fimiz dedemiz, amcam\u0131z ya da day\u0131m\u0131z o sohbetin i\u00e7inde oldu\u011fu i\u00e7indi, bekli de onlar\u0131n anlatt\u0131klar\u0131yd\u0131 bizi oraya \u00e7eken.<\/p>\n<p>Geni\u015f\u00e7e bir oda, bir k\u00f6\u015fede yanan gaz lambas\u0131 ve gen\u00e7lik y\u0131llar\u0131nda ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f olduklar\u0131 maceralar\u0131 anlatan, kahkahalar ile g\u00fclen o d\u00fcnya tatl\u0131s\u0131 ya\u015fl\u0131lar.<\/p>\n<p>Ya\u015fl\u0131lar\u0131n sohbeti ne\u015fe i\u00e7inde s\u00fcrerken, k\u00f6\u015fede birisinin g\u00f6revlendirilmi\u015f olarak ba\u015f\u0131nda bekledi\u011fi radyo k\u0131s\u0131k bir ses ile yay\u0131n\u0131n\u0131 yapard\u0131. Radyonun ba\u015f\u0131nda bekleyen ki\u015finin ba\u015fl\u0131yor demesi ile ortal\u0131k sus pus olurdu. Biz \u00e7ocuklar tek kelime s\u00f6ylemeden merakla kula\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 radyoya do\u011fru kabart\u0131rd\u0131k. Radyoda Kafkasya\u2019dan \u00c7erkesce yay\u0131n yapan bir kanal i\u00e7indi ya\u015fanan bu sessizlik. Yay\u0131n bitene kadar hi\u00e7 kimse konu\u015fmazd\u0131. Nas\u0131lda merakla dinlenirdi Kafkasya\u2019n\u0131n Sesi.<\/p>\n<p>Yay\u0131n\u0131n bitmesi ile sohbete kal\u0131nan yerden devam edilirdi. Her zaman kula\u011f\u0131m\u0131z b\u00fcy\u00fcklerin anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00f6yk\u00fcler de olurdu. Bir taraftan da g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fc yapmay\u0131n ikaz\u0131n\u0131 alacak durumu yaratmadan \u201cabacu cu cu p\u0131rrr\u201d diye ba\u015flayan oyunumuzu oynar ya da \u00c7erkesce masallar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 anlat\u0131rd\u0131k. Evde annem ile babam s\u00fcrekli \u00c7erkesce konu\u015ftu\u011fu i\u00e7in b\u00fct\u00fcn s\u00f6ylenenleri rahat\u00e7a anlard\u0131m fakat konu\u015famazd\u0131m. O y\u00fczden \u00e7ocuklar bana sanki anlayam\u0131yorum gibi yar\u0131m T\u00fcrk\u00e7eleri ile konu\u015fmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rlard\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Ger\u00e7ek \u00c7erkes aile yap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ve kom\u015fuluk ili\u015fkilerini oralarda g\u00f6rd\u00fcm ve halen \u00f6zlem duyar\u0131m. Hat\u0131rlad\u0131k\u00e7a i\u00e7imde ince, tarif edemedi\u011fim bir s\u0131z\u0131 olur. Bir\u00e7ok defa \u201cacaba \u00e7ocuk oldu\u011fum i\u00e7in mi o kadar mutluluk alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m ben o g\u00fcnlerden\u201d diye sorar\u0131m kendime. Fakat hay\u0131r, ayn\u0131 \u00e7ocukluk d\u00f6nemimde i\u00e7imde b\u00f6ylesi tatl\u0131 ve bir o kadar da h\u00fcz\u00fcn veren ba\u015fka \u00f6zlemim hi\u00e7 olmad\u0131. Demek ki, \u00e7ocuklu\u011fumda o insanlar\u0131n\u0131n birbirleri ile olan ili\u015fkileriydi beni as\u0131l mutlu eden, \u00f6zlem duymam\u0131 sa\u011flayan.<\/p>\n<p>Aradan y\u0131llar ge\u00e7ti ve anlam veremedi\u011fim gariplikler ya\u015fad\u0131m. Bu g\u00fcn oldu halen anlam verebilmi\u015f de de\u011filim. Radyonun ba\u015f\u0131nda Kafkasya\u2019dan bir sesi saatlerce bekleyenler gitmi\u015f onlar\u0131n yerine \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 gelmi\u015fti. \u00c7ocuklar\u0131 radyoyu dinlemedi\u011fi gibi, kimine kom\u00fcnist-dinsiz diye k\u0131z\u0131yordu, kimine de aferin M\u00fcsl\u00fcman \u00e7ocuklar diyorlard\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Kom\u00fcnist denenler \u00f6zellikle derneklerde bir araya gelmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan ve \u00c7erkeslik ad\u0131na u\u011fra\u015flar sergileyenlerdi. Dinsizlik ile \u00f6zde\u015fle\u015ftirilip toplumun tepkisini \u00e7eken, yerden yere vurulanlard\u0131. O g\u00fcnlerde d\u0131\u015flanan ama bu g\u00fcn elimizde olanlar\u0131 bize b\u0131rakan y\u00fcrekten \u00c7erkes olanlard\u0131 onlar. Bunun yan\u0131nda \u00f6vg\u00fc ile bahsedilenler kimlerdi dersiniz? Onlarda \u00dclk\u00fc Ocaklar\u0131&#8217;nda faaliyet g\u00f6sterenler.<\/p>\n<p>Ne garip ki, bunlar\u0131n hi\u00e7biri \u00c7erkeslik ad\u0131na hi\u00e7bir \u015fey ortaya koymazd\u0131. Fakat sadece namaz k\u0131ld\u0131klar\u0131 i\u00e7in, derne\u011fe gidenlerden daha \u00e7ok itibar edinirlerdi. Ba\u015fka yerlerde nas\u0131ld\u0131 bilemem ama benim \u00e7ocuklu\u011fumu ve gen\u00e7li\u011fimi ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m yerde durum bu \u015fekildeydi.<\/p>\n<p>Hayat boyu hep bir yerlerden tutturmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131k ama nedense hedefi s\u00fcrekli \u015fa\u015f\u0131rd\u0131k. \u0130\u015fte o y\u00fczden olsa gerek y\u00fcrekten k\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fcne, diline sahip \u00e7\u0131kmak istemeyenler Kafkasya\u2019y\u0131 anlayamaz endi\u015fesini i\u00e7imde hep ta\u015f\u0131m\u0131\u015f\u0131md\u0131r. Elimde olmadan diasporan\u0131n Kafkasya \u00fczerine d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerine \u015f\u00fcphe ile bakm\u0131\u015f\u0131md\u0131r.<\/p>\n<p>Ne yapay\u0131m elimde de\u011fil\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Semra Ademey G&uuml;rel 24.12.2005 Her ge&ccedil;en g&uuml;n, insandan fark&#305;nda bile olmadan &ccedil;ok &#351;eyler al&#305;p g&ouml;t&uuml;r&uuml;r. 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