{"id":685,"date":"2019-02-20T16:46:46","date_gmt":"2019-02-20T16:46:46","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/circassiancenter.com\/tr\/?p=685"},"modified":"2019-02-20T16:46:46","modified_gmt":"2019-02-20T16:46:46","slug":"kulturumuzun-sah-damari-kaniyor","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/kulturumuzun-sah-damari-kaniyor\/","title":{"rendered":"K\u00dcLT\u00dcR\u00dcM\u00dcZ\u00dcN \u015eAH DAMARI KANIYOR!"},"content":{"rendered":"

YEMUZ Nevzat Tarak\u00e7\u0131
\n<\/strong>30.09.2006<\/span>
\n<\/strong><\/p>\n

Ben bir gencim, mutsuz, umutsuz, idealsiz.
\nSesimi duymuyor, beni anlam\u0131yor galiba b\u00fcy\u00fcklerimiz.
\n\u0130\u015fsizim, paras\u0131z\u0131m, \u00fcmitsizim, \u00e7aresizim!
\nT\u00fckettim sevgiyi, uzak art\u0131k bana, k\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fcm, benli\u011fim.<\/p>\n

Siz b\u00fcy\u00fckler hep \u201cGen\u00e7lik gelecektir!” derdiniz.
\n\u201dEn k\u00e2rl\u0131 yat\u0131r\u0131m gen\u00e7li\u011fe yap\u0131lan yat\u0131r\u0131md\u0131r!\u201d dediniz.
\nGiydirdiniz, beslediniz, titizlikle okuttunuz, b\u00fcy\u00fctt\u00fcn\u00fcz (!)
\nNerde yanl\u0131\u015fl\u0131k bilmiyorum ama beni bu hale getirdiniz.<\/p>\n

Anne babalar, dernekler laf olsun diye mi s\u0131k s\u0131k beni konu\u015fuyor.
\nFeryad\u0131m duyulmuyor, ruh halim bilinmiyor, yol g\u00f6sterilmiyor.
\n\u00dcmitsizim, inan\u00e7s\u0131z\u0131m, \u00e7aresizim, \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcms\u00fcz\u00fcm, bilinmiyor!
\nBayramlar, seyranlar anlams\u0131z geliyor, tat vermiyor art\u0131k bana.
\nYorgun, bezgin, \u00fcmitsiz halimi anlars\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcme bir baksana.\u00a0<\/p>\n

Benim bayram\u0131m, i\u015fime kavu\u015ftu\u011fum, dilimi konu\u015ftu\u011fum,
\nk\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fcmle bar\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcn m\u00fc olacak?
\n<\/b>
\nDe\u011filse k\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fcm tamamen unutulacak, benli\u011fim yok olacak!<\/p>\n

O kadar \u00e7ok ki, su\u00e7layan, k\u0131nayan, ak\u0131l veren ele\u015ftiren.
\nB\u00f6yle \u00c7erkeslik, b\u00f6yle gen\u00e7lik, b\u00f6yle insanl\u0131k, olmaz diyen!
\nNe yapsam, ne desem ya yemuk<\/b> ya da g\u00fcnah<\/b> oluyor.
\nS\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, bunald\u0131m, art\u0131k ya\u015faman\u0131n bir anlam\u0131 kalm\u0131yor.
\nUmurumda de\u011fil \u00c7erkesli\u011finiz, inanc\u0131n\u0131z, insanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z.
\n\u0130nan\u00e7, yemuk, g\u00fcnah, xhabze, sevgi, sayg\u0131, dostluk, \u00f6zg\u00fcven.
\n\u00c7ok az aram\u0131zda bunlara inanan, bunlar\u0131 bilen.<\/p>\n

Kimimiz lisede elendik, kimimiz \u00fcniversitede.<\/p>\n

Kimimiz erken evlendik, kimimiz bunal\u0131mda intihara yeltendik.
\nKan a\u011fl\u0131yor y\u00fcre\u011fimiz, tutmaz oldu bile\u011fimiz.<\/p>\n

Bir \u0131\u015f\u0131k, bir \u00fcmit bekliyor ufukta gen\u00e7li\u011fimiz.<\/p>\n

K\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc anlatan kitaplar\u0131n varl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan bile de\u011filim haberdar.
\nBo\u015fluktay\u0131m, her an f\u0131rsat kolluyor, alkol, uyu\u015fturucu ve di\u011fer al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131klar.<\/p>\n

Hangi b\u00fcy\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm, oturtmu\u015f dizinin dibine de anlatm\u0131\u015f ger\u00e7ekleri?
\nNerden almal\u0131, kimden \u00f6\u011frenmeli, nerde uygulamal\u0131yd\u0131m ben bu adetleri?<\/p>\n

Ne zaman yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck hatalar affedilmi\u015f ho\u015fg\u00f6r\u00fcyle.
\nHer daim yemuk<\/b> denmi\u015f, g\u00fcnah<\/b> denmi\u015f her yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u015fe.<\/p>\n

S\u00f6yleyin Allah a\u015fk\u0131na bu durumda ben nas\u0131l iyi insan olay\u0131m?
\nNas\u0131l duyarl\u0131, nas\u0131l ho\u015fg\u00f6r\u00fcl\u00fc kalay\u0131m?<\/p>\n

Nerde, nas\u0131l \u00e7al\u0131\u015fay\u0131m, ne \u00fcreteyim, ne giyeyim, ne yiyip ne i\u00e7eyim?<\/p>\n

Yok bilgi birikimim, hani nerde k\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fcme, dilime ilgim!
\nYok \u00f6zg\u00fcvenim, yeterli de\u011fil \u00d6SS puan\u0131m, KPSS\u2019m.\u00a0<\/p>\n

Ne olur bir \u015feyler yap\u0131n b\u00fcy\u00fckler, kurtar\u0131n bizi!
\nYoksa felaketler gelecek inan\u0131n dizi dizi.<\/b><\/p>\n

Ac\u0131m\u0131 y\u00fcre\u011fime g\u00f6md\u00fcm, tuttum nefesimi.
\nAilemin, b\u00fcy\u00fcklerimin bekliyorum \u015fefkatini, ilgisini.
\nYalvar\u0131r\u0131m, anlay\u0131n, bizleri, i\u015fsizleri, idealsizleri, sevgisizleri.
\n\u0130tmeyin bizi, a\u015fa\u011f\u0131lamay\u0131n gelece\u011finizi.<\/p>\n

Ne zaman samimiyetle beni anlayacak, beni konu\u015facak, beni \u00e7\u00f6zeceksiniz.
\nE\u011fer bu halimle ben \u201cgeleceksem\u201d.
\nGe\u00e7mi\u015finizi bilmem ama yok demektir gelece\u011finiz!<\/b><\/p>\n

Kumar, at yar\u0131\u015flar\u0131, toto, iddia\u2019 tek \u00fcmidim<\/p>\n

Medyadaki ar\u2019s\u0131zlardan, h\u0131rs\u0131zlardan, hay\u00e2s\u0131zlardan hep etkilendim.
\nHani bahsetti\u011finiz sanat etkinlikleri, hani sosyal faaliyetler?
\nNi\u00e7in gideyim mabede, k\u00fct\u00fcphaneye varken kahvehaneler.<\/p>\n

B\u00fcy\u00fckler, yetkililer, nas\u0131l uyuyabiliyorsunuz bu durumda?
\nNas\u0131l g\u00fcl\u00fcp e\u011fleniyor, nas\u0131l hayal kuruyorsunuz?
\nYoksa, sizler g\u00f6rm\u00fcyor, duymuyor, hissetmiyor musunuz?
\nSiz, elinizi uzatt\u0131n\u0131z, kuca\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131n\u0131z sevgi dilini konu\u015ftunuz da,
\nbiz mi bilmiyoruz?<\/p>\n

Ben bir gencim, g\u00f6n\u00fcls\u00fcz, ruhsuz, kimliksiz, k\u00fclt\u00fcrs\u00fcz!
\nKesildi \u015fah damar\u0131m, kanamakta ruhum, t\u00fckenmekte enerjim.
\nAc\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 y\u00fcre\u011fine g\u00f6men, kan\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7ine ak\u0131tan \u00e7oktur emsalim.\u00a0<\/p>\n

\u0130\u015fime kavu\u015ftu\u011fum, dilimi konu\u015ftu\u011fum,\u00a0 k\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fcmle tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcn bayram\u0131m olacak.<\/p>\n

Kim, ne zaman, samimiyetle beni konu\u015facak, beni \u00e7\u00f6zecek, beni anlayacak?<\/b>\u00a0<\/p>\n

Ne olur bir \u015feyler yap\u0131n, kurtar\u0131n bizi!<\/p>\n

Yoksa felaketler gelecek inan\u0131n dizi dizi.<\/b>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

YEMUZ Nevzat Tarakçı 30.09.2006 Ben bir gencim, mutsuz, umutsuz, idealsiz. Sesimi duymuyor, beni anlamıyor galiba büyüklerimiz. İşsizim, parasızım, ümitsizim, çaresizim! Tükettim sevgiyi, uzak artık bana, kültürüm, benliğim. Siz büyükler hep “Gençlik gelecektir!” derdiniz. ”En kârlı yatırım gençliğe yapılan yatırımdır!” dediniz. Giydirdiniz, beslediniz, titizlikle okuttunuz, büyüttünüz (!) Nerde yanlışlık bilmiyorum ama beni bu hale getirdiniz. 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