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Erhan Hapae<\/b><\/p>\n
Umar\u0131m edebiyata merakl\u0131 gen\u00e7 ku\u015faklar; kalabal\u0131klar ve yaln\u0131zl\u0131klar i\u00e7indeki bu vazge\u00e7mez iradenin,\u00a0k\u00fcsk\u00fcnl\u00fckler ve ele\u015ftirilerle \u00f6rselenip, bir o kadar \u00f6nemsendi\u011fi, o ya\u015fam bi\u00e7imini se\u00e7mi\u015f bu uslanmaz Reyhaniyelinin, nerelerden s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcp hala b\u00fck\u00fclmedi\u011fini, ihmal etmezler. Bu durum do\u011fru d\u00fczg\u00fcn yaz\u0131labilirse e\u011fer, d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f<\/strong> meselesinin b\u00fct\u00fcn bulan\u0131k halleri, g\u00f6zta\u015f\u0131 at\u0131lm\u0131\u015f su gibi berrakla\u015f\u0131verir birdenbire. Sadece d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fle kalmaz, kendisini b\u00fcy\u00fck davalara adam\u0131\u015f, daha da evrensel her t\u00fcrden hayat\u0131n anla\u015f\u0131lmas\u0131na da yarayabilir. \u00d6zg\u00fcr hissetmeyince insan, g\u00f6r ba\u015f\u0131na neler gelir. <\/i><\/b><\/em><\/strong>\u00d6zg\u00fcr de\u011fildi, bir Frans\u0131zla evlenemezdi, End\u00fcl\u00fcs\u2019e yerle\u015femezdi, i\u00e7ki i\u00e7emez, zamparal\u0131k yapamazd\u0131. Bir sokak kavgas\u0131nda burnunu k\u0131rd\u0131rma \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc yoktu. Pejm\u00fcrde giyinemez, bohem tak\u0131lamazd\u0131.<\/p>\n Su topu tak\u0131m\u0131nda oynayacak kadar sporcu olsa da, bir futbol ma\u00e7\u0131na gitti\u011fini hi\u00e7 sanmam. Bizim \u00c7erkes d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnlerinde oynamay\u0131 da bilmezdi, ama \u00e7ok iyi \u015fark\u0131 s\u00f6ylerdi<\/i><\/b><\/em><\/strong>. \u00c7erkesli\u011fe faydas\u0131 yoksa Dostoyevski okumaz, bir k\u0131r\u0131nt\u0131 bulaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcmit etse, Hegel<\/strong>‘i harmanlard\u0131, erotik film izleyemezdi.<\/p>\n Okudu\u011fu kitaplar\u0131n genel olarak ne dedi\u011finden ziyade, \u00c7erkesler i\u00e7in ne dedi\u011fiydi \u00f6nemli olan.<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Prangas\u0131na a\u015f\u0131k bir ES\u0130Rdi. Bu hala da b\u00f6yledir.<\/p>\n Parlak bir t\u0131p \u00f6\u011frencisi olarak bulundu\u011fu Ankara\u2019da, burnundan k\u0131l ald\u0131rmaz ihtiyarlar i\u00e7in bile geleneklerine ba\u011fl\u0131, her t\u00fcrl\u00fc konuyu konu\u015fabilecekleri kadar zeki, her gencin sevebilece\u011fi kadar ilgili, her annenin rahat\u00e7a ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015fayabilece\u011fi kadar s\u0131cak ve b\u00fct\u00fcn arkada\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 bunaltacak kadar, kusursuz bir Adige delikanl\u0131s\u0131 idi. <\/i><\/b> <\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n Huvaj ve birka\u00e7 arkada\u015f\u0131 ile olu\u015fturduklar\u0131 \u00fctopya<\/strong>, birazda ger\u00e7ek\u00e7i ol, imkans\u0131z\u0131 iste<\/i><\/b><\/em><\/strong> klas\u0131nda idi.<\/p>\n Ecevit\u2019in bile belki de fark\u0131nda olmadan kulland\u0131\u011f\u0131; toprak i\u015fleyenin, su kullanan\u0131n<\/i><\/b><\/em><\/strong> benzeri Marksist jargon, o y\u0131llarda birlikte \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131klar\u0131 Yam\u00e7\u0131<\/strong> dergisine yans\u0131m\u0131\u015f, i\u00e7eri\u011fi hi\u00e7te sol olmayan bu m\u00fctevaz\u0131 \u00c7erkes dergisi, kom\u00fcnist olmakla kalmam\u0131\u015f, d\u00f6n\u00fclecek yerin orada olmas\u0131 nedeniyle, Sovyet i\u015fbirlik\u00e7isi damgas\u0131n\u0131 an\u0131nda yemi\u015fti. Kusursuz bir \u00c7erkes olmas\u0131 yetmemi\u015fti<\/i><\/b><\/em><\/strong> ve bu durum t\u00fcm ya\u015fam\u0131 boyu yakas\u0131n\u0131 b\u0131rakmayacakt\u0131. O da, di\u011fer herkesin.<\/p>\n Bu g\u00fcn geriye d\u00f6n\u00fcp bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda, anayurt, Kenya veya Konya\u2019n\u0131n bir par\u00e7as\u0131 olsayd\u0131 e\u011fer, Rusya onun umurunda bile olmazd\u0131 diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u00fcm. Bu, ne \u00f6v\u00fcn\u00fclecek bir durumdur onun i\u00e7in ne de yerinilecek. Bu, ezber bozan ve stat\u00fckoyu zorlayan, <\/b><\/strong>d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc\u015f tarz\u0131 o ikinci \u00fclkeler s\u00f6z konusu olsayd\u0131 e\u011fer, hangi ele\u015ftirileri yiyecekti Tanr\u0131 bilir.<\/p>\n Bir kom\u00fcnist i\u00e7in belki de gurur duyulacak bu durum onun i\u00e7in zuld\u00fc ve ne yapsa \u00fczerinden atamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu su\u00e7lama, neredeyse k\u0131rk y\u0131ld\u0131r y\u00fcre\u011finde bir s\u0131z\u0131 ve s\u0131rt\u0131nda bir y\u00fck olmaya devam etmektedir.<\/p>\n Birle\u015fik ba\u011f\u0131ms\u0131z Kafkasya<\/i><\/b><\/em><\/strong> gibi ne zaman ve niye olaca\u011f\u0131 pek kestirilemeyen ve tam da bu nedenle di\u011fer her t\u00fcrl\u00fc \u00e7abay\u0131 \u00f6nemsizle\u015ftirme i\u015flevini \u00fcstlenmi\u015f<\/i><\/b><\/em><\/strong>, b\u00fcy\u00fck projeler yerine, o zamanlar ve halen memlekete d\u00f6nelim, patronumuzun<\/i><\/b><\/em><\/strong> kim oldu\u011fu \u00e7ok \u00f6nemli de\u011fil<\/b><\/strong><\/i><\/em> demekten \u00f6te bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemeyen; O<\/b><\/strong>, zaman zaman uzaktan izleyenleri ac\u0131yla g\u00fcl\u00fcmseten, b\u00f6l\u00fcc\u00fcl\u00fck ve Rus i\u015fbirlik\u00e7ili\u011fi ile su\u00e7lana gelmi\u015ftir.<\/p>\n B\u00fct\u00fcn bu iti\u015f kak\u0131\u015f\u0131n aras\u0131nda, birazda onun zorlamalar\u0131 ile geli\u015fen\u00a0 ve sonradan KAF-FED ismini alacak olan ilk birlik \u00f6rg\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fcn, kurucu ba\u015fkanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bu her \u015feyde ilk harc\u0131 atma durumu dolay\u0131s\u0131yla, kendinde, o kurumlar\u0131n daha sonraki farkl\u0131 tav\u0131rlar\u0131na, m\u00fcdahaleler yapma hakk\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f ve bazen bu nedenle, kendini haks\u0131z konumlara d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr. Kendi esaretine denk d\u00fc\u015fen, di\u011fer esirler pe\u015finde, bo\u015f yere ko\u015fturup durmu\u015ftur \u00e7o\u011fu zaman.<\/i><\/b><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n Dava arkada\u015flar\u0131 aras\u0131nda, ailesi ile birlikte ilk d\u00f6nen olmas\u0131 nedeniyle, d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f arkada\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n g\u00fcnl\u00fck s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131 da dahil, kendisini her t\u00fcrl\u00fc problemin sorumlusu g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f<\/i><\/b><\/em><\/strong>, olumsuz g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc durumlara yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 atak ve sert m\u00fcdahaleler, gerek yerlilerin, gerekse d\u00f6nenlerin tepkilerini \u00e7ekmesiyle, zaman zaman<\/i><\/b><\/em><\/strong> yaln\u0131zl\u0131klar i\u00e7ine g\u00f6m\u00fclm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr<\/i><\/b><\/em>.<\/strong> \u0130lgi eksikli\u011fi nedeniyle neredeyse \u00e7\u00f6kecek \u00f6rg\u00fctlere aday olarak veya zorlayarak verdi\u011fi destek, bireysel\u00a0 stat\u00fc merak\u0131 olarak yorumlanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r \u00e7o\u011fu kez.<\/p>\n B\u00fct\u00fcn bu su\u00e7lana geldi\u011fi kabahatler silsilesi i\u00e7inden, T\u00fcrkiye\u2019de zengin say\u0131lacak bir doktor iken biriktirdi\u011fi makul servetini t\u00fcketmi\u015f olmas\u0131 bir yana, ayda iki y\u00fcz Dolar maa\u015fla \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan bir memur olmaktan \u00f6te bir varidat \u00e7\u0131karamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. \u00d6nemsedi\u011fini de hi\u00e7 sanmam.<\/p>\n K\u0131rk y\u0131ldan beri vazge\u00e7meyen bu gezgin \u00fctopyac\u0131n\u0131n<\/i><\/b><\/em><\/strong>, kendi se\u00e7ti\u011fi esaretine \u00fcz\u00fclsem de \u00e7o\u011fu zaman, benim, o hi\u00e7 g\u00f6steremeyece\u011fim dirayetine imrenirim ve o \u00e7ok istedi\u011fini sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00e7enti\u011fi, \u00e7oktaaan atm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r bizim defterimize, gibi gelir bana.<\/p>\n CAARI…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Erhan Hapae Umarım edebiyata meraklı genç kuşaklar; kalabalıklar ve yalnızlıklar içindeki bu vazgeçmez iradenin, küskünlükler ve eleştirilerle örselenip, bir o kadar önemsendiği, o yaşam biçimini seçmiş bu uslanmaz Reyhaniyelinin, nerelerden süzülüp hala bükülmediğini, ihmal etmezler. Bu durum doğru düzgün yazılabilirse eğer, dönüş meselesinin bütün bulanık halleri, göztaşı atılmış su gibi berraklaşıverir birdenbire. Sadece dönüşle kalmaz, kendisini […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_bbp_topic_count":0,"_bbp_reply_count":0,"_bbp_total_topic_count":0,"_bbp_total_reply_count":0,"_bbp_voice_count":0,"_bbp_anonymous_reply_count":0,"_bbp_topic_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_reply_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_forum_subforum_count":0,"ocean_post_layout":"","ocean_both_sidebars_style":"","ocean_both_sidebars_content_width":0,"ocean_both_sidebars_sidebars_width":0,"ocean_sidebar":"0","ocean_second_sidebar":"0","ocean_disable_margins":"enable","ocean_add_body_class":"","ocean_shortcode_before_top_bar":"","ocean_shortcode_after_top_bar":"","ocean_shortcode_before_header":"","ocean_shortcode_after_header":"","ocean_has_shortcode":"","ocean_shortcode_after_title":"","ocean_shortcode_before_footer_widgets":"","ocean_shortcode_after_footer_widgets":"","ocean_shortcode_before_footer_bottom":"","ocean_shortcode_after_footer_bottom":"","ocean_display_top_bar":"default","ocean_display_header":"default","ocean_header_style":"","ocean_center_header_left_menu":"0","ocean_custom_header_template":"0","ocean_custom_logo":0,"ocean_custom_retina_logo":0,"ocean_custom_logo_max_width":0,"ocean_custom_logo_tablet_max_width":0,"ocean_custom_logo_mobile_max_width":0,"ocean_custom_logo_max_height":0,"ocean_custom_logo_tablet_max_height":0,"ocean_custom_logo_mobile_max_height":0,"ocean_header_custom_menu":"0","ocean_menu_typo_font_family":"0","ocean_menu_typo_font_subset":"","ocean_menu_typo_font_size":0,"ocean_menu_typo_font_size_tablet":0,"ocean_menu_typo_font_size_mobile":0,"ocean_menu_typo_font_size_unit":"px","ocean_menu_typo_font_weight":"","ocean_menu_typo_font_weight_tablet":"","ocean_menu_typo_font_weight_mobile":"","ocean_menu_typo_transform":"","ocean_menu_typo_transform_tablet":"","ocean_menu_typo_transform_mobile":"","ocean_menu_typo_line_height":0,"ocean_menu_typo_line_height_tablet":0,"ocean_menu_typo_line_height_mobile":0,"ocean_menu_typo_line_height_unit":"","ocean_menu_typo_spacing":0,"ocean_menu_typo_spacing_tablet":0,"ocean_menu_typo_spacing_mobile":0,"ocean_menu_typo_spacing_unit":"","ocean_menu_link_color":"","ocean_menu_link_color_hover":"","ocean_menu_link_color_active":"","ocean_menu_link_background":"","ocean_menu_link_hover_background":"","ocean_menu_link_active_background":"","ocean_menu_social_links_bg":"","ocean_menu_social_hover_links_bg":"","ocean_menu_social_links_color":"","ocean_menu_social_hover_links_color":"","ocean_disable_title":"default","ocean_disable_heading":"default","ocean_post_title":"","ocean_post_subheading":"","ocean_post_title_style":"","ocean_post_title_background_color":"","ocean_post_title_background":0,"ocean_post_title_bg_image_position":"","ocean_post_title_bg_image_attachment":"","ocean_post_title_bg_image_repeat":"","ocean_post_title_bg_image_size":"","ocean_post_title_height":0,"ocean_post_title_bg_overlay":0.5,"ocean_post_title_bg_overlay_color":"","ocean_disable_breadcrumbs":"default","ocean_breadcrumbs_color":"","ocean_breadcrumbs_separator_color":"","ocean_breadcrumbs_links_color":"","ocean_breadcrumbs_links_hover_color":"","ocean_display_footer_widgets":"default","ocean_display_footer_bottom":"default","ocean_custom_footer_template":"0","ocean_post_oembed":"","ocean_post_self_hosted_media":"","ocean_post_video_embed":"","ocean_link_format":"","ocean_link_format_target":"self","ocean_quote_format":"","ocean_quote_format_link":"post","ocean_gallery_link_images":"off","ocean_gallery_id":[],"footnotes":""},"categories":[47],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-7303","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-portreler","entry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7303","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=7303"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7303\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":17073,"href":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7303\/revisions\/17073"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=7303"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=7303"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=7303"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}