{"id":776,"date":"2019-02-20T17:35:01","date_gmt":"2019-02-20T17:35:01","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/circassiancenter.com\/tr\/?p=776"},"modified":"2019-02-20T17:35:01","modified_gmt":"2019-02-20T17:35:01","slug":"cerkesten-pazarci-olur-mu","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/cerkesten-pazarci-olur-mu\/","title":{"rendered":"\u00c7ERKES&#8217;TEN PAZARCI OLUR MU?"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>YEMUZ Nevzat Tarak\u00e7\u0131<br \/>\n<\/strong><span style=\"font-family: Arial;\">22.09.2007<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Yutkundu, sesi titremeye ba\u015flad\u0131. <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki \u00e7ile ve \u0131st\u0131rab\u0131n olu\u015fturdu\u011fu \u00e7izgiler belirginle\u015fmi\u015fti. <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Derinden nefes alarak:<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">\u201cSormay\u0131n karde\u015fim! \u201c dedi.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\"><b>\u201c\u00dc\u00e7 \u00e7ocu\u011fum da fak\u00fclteyi kazand\u0131 fakat okutamad\u0131m.<\/b> Hatta iki b\u00fcy\u00fck k\u0131z dereceyle bitirmi\u015fti liseyi. \u015eimdi kimi a\u00e7\u0131k \u00f6\u011fretimde kimi i\u015f ar\u0131yor.\u201d <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Neden, diye sordum.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">\u0130\u00e7ini \u00e7ekti, garip bir tebess\u00fcmle y\u00fcz\u00fcme bakt\u0131:<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">\u201cYokluk, yokluk i\u015fte! \u201c dedi.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Y\u00fcz ifadesi iyice de\u011fi\u015fmi\u015fti.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Eski g\u00fcnlere dalm\u0131\u015f, g\u00f6zleri kay\u0131p gitmi\u015fti. <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Belli ki y\u00fcre\u011fine g\u00f6md\u00fc\u011f\u00fc \u00e7ok ac\u0131s\u0131 vard\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Belli ki paras\u0131z \u00e7ok s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131l\u0131 g\u00fcn ve uykusuz \u00e7ok gece ya\u015fam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Devam etti:<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">\u201c\u00c7ok az \u00fccretle \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u015f yerinden gen\u00e7 ya\u015fta emekli oldum. Kalabal\u0131k bir aileyiz. Bu parayla evi ge\u00e7indirebilmenin imk\u00e2n\u0131 yok. \u00c7ocuklar b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fck\u00e7e masraflar art\u0131yor. \u0130kinci bir i\u015fte \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmak zorundayd\u0131m. Aylarca i\u015f arad\u0131m, ne olsa yapacakt\u0131m.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">\u201cY\u0131\u011f\u0131nla gencin i\u015f arad\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u00f6nemde i\u015f bulmak kolay m\u0131yd\u0131? Bulamad\u0131m.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\"><b>\u201c\u00c7ocuklar a\u00e7 kalmas\u0131n diye, sofradan doymadan \u00e7ok kalkt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 hat\u0131rlar\u0131m.\u201d <\/b><\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">\u201cGeceleri uykular\u0131m\u0131 ka\u00e7\u0131ran paras\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n yan\u0131nda k\u0131zlar\u0131m\u0131n gelecek endi\u015fesiydi. \u201c<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">\u201cOkul masraflar\u0131, har\u00e7l\u0131klar\u0131 ne olacakt\u0131? \u201c<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">\u201c\u00c7ocuklar\u0131m bu s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131 hissetmeden b\u00fcy\u00fcmeliydi. Tek derdim buydu\u201d. <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">\u201cBen \u00e7ektim, \u00e7ekiyorum bari onlar \u00e7ekmesin.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/cc-turkiye\/yorum\/parag-ara.gif\" width=\"45\" height=\"18\" border=\"0\" \/><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">\u201cSonunda mahalle pazarlar\u0131nda sebze satmaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. Yani pazarc\u0131l\u0131k yap\u0131yorum. Sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m yerinde, \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmal\u0131y\u0131m tabii. K\u0131sa s\u00fcrede ailemi iyi k\u00f6t\u00fc ge\u00e7indirmeye ba\u015flad\u0131m. \u201c<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">\u201c\u00c7ocuklar a\u00e7 de\u011filler a\u00e7\u0131kta de\u011filler. \u201c<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">\u201cFakat rahat de\u011filim. E\u015fimle dostumla kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmaktan korkuyorum, onlardan ka\u00e7\u0131yorum\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">\u201cBu i\u015fi nas\u0131l yapars\u0131n, sen \u00c7erkes de\u011fil misin? Demelerinden korkuyorum!\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">\u201c\u00c7ocuklar\u0131m\u0131n yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u015ften memnun kalmayacaklar\u0131n\u0131 san\u0131yor, bunun i\u00e7in \u00e7ok \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyorum.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">\u201cPazar\u0131n kalabal\u0131k oldu\u011fu bir g\u00fcn, \u00fcrkek \u00e7ekingen tav\u0131rlarla yan\u0131ma yakla\u015fan, benim ya\u015flar\u0131mda, kal\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u00fckl\u00fc, hafif sakall\u0131 adam: \u201c Siz \u00c7erkes misiniz?\u201d diye sordu. <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Zor bir soruydu.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Sa\u011f\u0131ma soluma bakarak yava\u015f\u00e7a evet buyurun dedim.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Buran\u0131n yabanc\u0131s\u0131 oldu\u011funu, k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcniversiteye kaydettirmek i\u00e7in buralara geldi\u011fini, yard\u0131mc\u0131 olabilirsem \u00e7ok sevinece\u011fini s\u00f6yledi. Mahcup bir tavr\u0131 vard\u0131. <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Tezg\u00e2h\u0131 biti\u015fikteki arkada\u015fa b\u0131rak\u0131p pazaryerinden uzakla\u015ft\u0131k.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Buradaki derne\u011fin adresini ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, tek g\u00fcvencesinin buradaki duyarl\u0131 \u00c7erkesler oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yledi. <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Maddi imk\u00e2nlar\u0131 olduk\u00e7a s\u0131n\u0131rl\u0131ym\u0131\u015f. <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\"><b>\u201cK\u0131z, illa okumak istiyor, g\u00fczel de puan ald\u0131 ama\u2026 \u201c<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Bizi birka\u00e7 ad\u0131m geriden izleyen \u00fcrkek, sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n, uzun sa\u00e7l\u0131 k\u0131za d\u00f6nd\u00fcm. <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Ad\u0131n\u0131n Janset oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yledi. Kendi imk\u00e2nlar\u0131yla s\u0131nava haz\u0131rland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, hayalindeki bu okulu kazand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, ama kay\u0131t i\u015flemleri, kalacak yer ve masraflar konusunda \u00e7ok s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131l\u0131 olduklar\u0131n\u0131 mahcubiyet i\u00e7inde anlatt\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Sarho\u015f gibi olmu\u015ftum. Bu anlat\u0131lanlara, bu ruh haline hi\u00e7 de yabanc\u0131 de\u011fildim asl\u0131nda.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Y\u0131llard\u0131r y\u00fcre\u011fime g\u00f6md\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm ac\u0131lar \u00fczerime gelmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/cc-turkiye\/yorum\/parag-ara.gif\" width=\"45\" height=\"18\" border=\"0\" \/><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Derne\u011fin merdivenlerini yava\u015f\u00e7a \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131k. Y\u00f6netim odas\u0131nda birka\u00e7 y\u00f6neticiyle birlikte yedi sekiz ki\u015fi \u00e7aylar\u0131n\u0131 yudumluyordu. <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Sevindim, galiba bu \u00e7elimsiz k\u0131z\u0131n \u015fans\u0131 yaver gidecek, diye ge\u00e7irdim i\u00e7imden.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Rasim Bey, kimsenin y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakamayan \u00fcrkek, titrek sesiyle anlatt\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">\u0130\u015fsiz oldu\u011funu, sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n bozuk oldu\u011funu, i\u015f bulabilirse \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, kalabal\u0131k bir aile olduklar\u0131n\u0131, yol paras\u0131n\u0131 bile bor\u00e7 alarak k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n zoruyla buralara geldi\u011fini, k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n okumak istedi\u011fini, anlatt\u0131.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Zor anlar ya\u015f\u0131yordu. Belli ki her \u015feye ra\u011fmen gururlu bir insand\u0131. Yard\u0131m istemek, maddi katk\u0131 beklemek \u00e7ok a\u011f\u0131r geliyordu ona.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\"><b>Aman Allah\u2019\u0131m, bu paras\u0131zl\u0131k, imk\u00e2ns\u0131zl\u0131k ne zor \u015feydi!<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">\u201c E\u011fer kalacak yeri ayarlayamaz, burs deste\u011fi sa\u011flayamazsak ben okutamam k\u0131z\u0131. \u201cdiyordu. <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Rasim Bey konu\u015ftuk\u00e7a kan\u0131m\u0131n \u00e7ekildi\u011fini hissediyordum. Odadakilerin bak\u0131\u015f\u0131, kap\u0131 kenar\u0131nda sandalyeye ili\u015fen, ba\u015f\u0131 e\u011fik, ezik bir halde konu\u015fulanlar\u0131 dinleyen k\u0131za \u00e7evrildi. <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Derin bir sessizlik ya\u015fand\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">\u201cHay\u0131rl\u0131s\u0131 olsun, zor i\u015f bunlar!\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fc toplant\u0131n\u0131n son s\u00f6zleri olmu\u015f, \u00fcmitlerse t\u00fckenmi\u015fti.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Titriyordum, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 yerden kald\u0131ram\u0131yordum.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Da\u011f\u0131l\u0131yordu herkes. <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Ama bu nas\u0131l olurdu?<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Ne olacakt\u0131 \u015fimdi?<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Ya Kafkas K\u00fclt\u00fcr Yard\u0131mla\u015fma Dayan\u0131\u015fma Derne\u011fi\u2026<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Ya her g\u00fcn bu odada konu\u015fulanlar, devletler kurmalar, \u00fclkeleri kurtarmalar\u2026<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Ya her g\u00fcn namaz sonras\u0131 cami avlusundaki g\u00fczel konu\u015fmalar\u2026<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Ya emekli e\u011fitimcilerin mangalda k\u00fcl b\u0131rakmayan tav\u0131rlar\u0131\u2026 <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Neden laf\u0131n ilerisi yok bizde?<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Neden ama, neden?<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Ne olacak \u015fimdi bu k\u0131z\u0131n durumu, bu ak\u015fam nerde kalacaks\u0131n diye ni\u00e7in kimse sormad\u0131?<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Dernek\u00e7ilik bu kadar basit mi?<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">\u00c7erkeslik bu kadar kolay m\u0131?<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Ya insanl\u0131k?\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Merdivenlerden inmi\u015f sokakta y\u00fcz metre kadar ilerlemi\u015ftik. <b>\u00dcmitler bitmi\u015f, s\u00f6z t\u00fckenmi\u015fti.<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Ne sefil k\u0131z, ne yaral\u0131 baba ne de ben tek kelime s\u00f6yleyemiyorduk.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Ayak seslerimizde gizliydi adeta ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z her \u015fey.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">G\u00f6lgeler uzam\u0131\u015f g\u00fcn batmaya haz\u0131rlan\u0131yordu ki <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">\u201cEve gidece\u011fiz!\u201d dedim<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">\u00c7aresiz adam yutkundu, derin nefes alarak: <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">\u201cRahats\u0131z etmeyelim, seni de i\u015finden ettik zaten, hay\u0131rl\u0131s\u0131 olsun\u2026 \u201c<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">O da benim gibi hala titriyor, anlams\u0131z \u015feyler m\u0131r\u0131ldan\u0131yordu.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">K\u0131z, s\u0131rt\u0131ndaki \u00e7antan\u0131n a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 daha fazla hissetmi\u015f olmal\u0131 ki iyiden iyiye \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f bir durumdayd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p><\/span><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/cc-turkiye\/yorum\/parag-ara.gif\" width=\"45\" height=\"18\" border=\"0\" \/><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Evdeyiz. Tan\u0131\u015fma fasl\u0131 bitmi\u015f,\u00a0 \u00e7orbalar i\u00e7ilmi\u015f, \u00e7aylar yudumlan\u0131yor.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Ani bir kararla s\u00f6ze ba\u015flad\u0131m.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">D\u00f6rt k\u0131z\u0131m var, Janset be\u015finci k\u0131z\u0131m olacak. <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">\u015euraya bir kanepe daha koyaca\u011f\u0131z, sofraya fazladan bir tabak daha gelecek. R\u0131zk\u0131 veren Allah\u2019t\u0131r.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Sen endi\u015fe etme, yar\u0131n kay\u0131t i\u015flemlerini birlikte hallederiz, sen de memlekete d\u00f6nersin, k\u0131z benim art\u0131k, karde\u015f de\u011fil miyiz biz!\u00a0 Diyebildim. \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Koca adam, a\u011fl\u0131yordu, g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 art\u0131k kontrolden \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Tek kelime edemiyor, dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 kemiriyor, \u00e7aresizli\u011fin k\u0131skac\u0131nda eriyordu.<\/p>\n<p><\/span><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/cc-turkiye\/yorum\/parag-ara.gif\" width=\"45\" height=\"18\" border=\"0\" \/><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Odaya bir yatak ilave edilmi\u015f, sofraya bir tabak daha eklenmi\u015fti.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Ben pazarc\u0131l\u0131\u011fa devam ediyorum, iyi k\u00f6t\u00fc har\u00e7l\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131yorum. Evde meyvemi sebzemi de eksik etmiyordum.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Nadiren de olsa pazarda dernek y\u00f6netimindeki arkada\u015flarla kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131mda heyecanlan\u0131r, acaba \u201cJanset\u2019le ilgili bir katk\u0131 m\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorlar\u201d diye i\u00e7imden ge\u00e7irirdim. <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Oysa her defas\u0131nda \u201cYahu \u00c7erkes\u2019ten pazarc\u0131 olur mu hi\u00e7!\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fcne muhatap olur, benden utand\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 hissederdim.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Bu alt\u0131n kalpli \u00c7erkes k\u0131z\u0131na istikbal haz\u0131rlama konusunda k\u0131l\u0131n\u0131 k\u0131p\u0131rdatmayan afral\u0131 tafral\u0131 karde\u015flerimin g\u00fcc\u00fc hep bana yetiyordu. \u00c7erkes&#8217;ten pazarc\u0131n\u0131n nas\u0131l oldu\u011funu anlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorlard\u0131. Bir g\u00fcnden bir g\u00fcne \u201c Karde\u015fim sen \u00e7ok zor \u015fartlardas\u0131n, zaten aileni zor ge\u00e7indiriyorsun, bir de yabanc\u0131 bir k\u0131z\u0131n sorumlulu\u011funu\u00a0 \u00fcstlendin, bu nas\u0131l olur, biz de bir katk\u0131 sa\u011flayal\u0131m, y\u00fck\u00fcn\u00fc hafifletelim!\u201d diyen olmuyordu.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/cc-turkiye\/yorum\/parag-ara.gif\" width=\"45\" height=\"18\" border=\"0\" \/><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Y\u0131llar eriyip ge\u00e7ti, tam d\u00f6rt y\u0131l geride kald\u0131. Jansetin annesi, babas\u0131 ve biz ailece mezuniyet t\u00f6renindeyiz. \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Mutluluk f\u0131rt\u0131nas\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131yorum. <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Pazarc\u0131n\u0131n be\u015finci k\u0131z\u0131 mezun oluyor.\u00a0 <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Janset, sevin\u00e7ten u\u00e7uyor. Annesinin g\u00f6zlerinde g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131, dudaklar\u0131nda dua. <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Babaysa, konu\u015famayacak kadar duygulu. \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: small;\">Nihayet Janset k\u00fcrs\u00fcde.\u00a0 Gen\u00e7 mezun, yetkilinin elinden al\u0131yor diplomas\u0131n\u0131. K\u00fcrs\u00fcden iner inmez ko\u015farak kuca\u011f\u0131ma at\u0131l\u0131yor. 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