{"id":8333,"date":"2022-07-27T14:57:38","date_gmt":"2022-07-27T19:57:38","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/circassiancenter.com\/tr\/?p=8333"},"modified":"2022-07-28T16:29:42","modified_gmt":"2022-07-28T21:29:42","slug":"beyhan-yildirim","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/beyhan-yildirim\/","title":{"rendered":"BEYHAN YILDIRIM \u015e\u0130\u0130RLER\u0130"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong> <img fetchpriority=\"high\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-27748\" src=\"http:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/03\/BEYHAN-YILDIRIM-SIIRLERI-b.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"571\" height=\"297\" \/><\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>Ac\u0131 S\u00fcrg\u00fcn (Kaf&#8217;a D\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f)<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Engin denizlerde gizli maceran\u0131n<br \/>\nSahipsiz atlar\u0131n ge\u00e7ti\u011fi patikada<br \/>\nA\u011f\u0131r, a\u011f\u0131r bat\u0131yordu ayd\u0131nl\u0131k denize<br \/>\nSabotaja u\u011fram\u0131\u015f ekinlerin<br \/>\nDuman\u0131 aras\u0131nda<br \/>\nN\u00f6betle y\u0131ld\u0131zlar\u0131 seyrederek<br \/>\nKaf da\u011f\u0131n\u0131 asan solgun y\u00fczl\u00fc adam<br \/>\nAte\u015f yakt\u0131 \u015fu kar\u015f\u0131 ki tepede soyuyla<br \/>\n\u00d6z yurdunun anl\u0131k \u00f6zlemini \u00e7ekerken<br \/>\nBakt\u0131 kartallar yuvas\u0131na<br \/>\nKan kustu t\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fcn i\u00e7ine<br \/>\nY\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcler<br \/>\nS\u00fcr\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f bu topraklarda \u00fcmitlerini<br \/>\nSulayarak y\u00fcr\u00fcrken yar\u0131nlar<br \/>\nArkada b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 yaralar\u0131 s\u0131zlarken<br \/>\nB\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 yaralar\u0131n mezarlar\u0131n\u0131 kazarak<br \/>\nvarabilmek buralara<br \/>\nNe ac\u0131d\u0131r d\u00fcrg\u00fcn yemek<br \/>\n\u0130ntikam\u0131n g\u00f6lgesinde<br \/>\nFilizlenmenin mutlulu\u011funa ula\u015fmak<br \/>\nD\u00f6nece\u011finin hesabini vakit kaybetmeden yapmak<br \/>\nS\u00fcrg\u00fcnde yapmak<br \/>\nDaha derinden hissetmek bu ac\u0131y\u0131 Onla yasamak<br \/>\nKaf ovas\u0131nda kesece\u011fi hesab\u0131n<br \/>\nBilan\u00e7osunu g\u00f6rmek<br \/>\nSeviniyordu onlar<br \/>\n\u0130lerlediler<br \/>\nArkalar\u0131nda d\u00f6nece\u011fiz izleri b\u0131rakmak<br \/>\nZaferdi onlar i\u00e7in<br \/>\nY\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcler<br \/>\nYeni d\u00fcnyalara kayan y\u0131ld\u0131z misali akt\u0131lar<\/p>\n<p><strong>S<\/strong><strong>iyah Beyazd\u0131 Foto\u011fraflar<br \/>\n<\/strong><br \/>\nsiyah beyazd\u0131 foto\u011fraflar<br \/>\ndokunu\u015flar-yokolu\u015flar<br \/>\ng\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde meryem<br \/>\na\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda z\u00fcleyha<\/p>\n<p>sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 att\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u00f6te yana<br \/>\ns\u00f6n\u00fcyorsa kentin t\u00fcm \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131<br \/>\nbirazda s\u00fcleymaniye al yan\u0131na<br \/>\notur k\u0131y\u0131s\u0131na k\u00f6\u015fesine istanbulun<br \/>\nsaltanat kay\u0131klar\u0131ndan bak bir de d\u00fcnyaya<\/p>\n<p>\u00e7ocuk yan\u0131n kals\u0131n foto\u011fraflara<\/p>\n<p>g\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde meryem<br \/>\na\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda z\u00fcleyha<\/p>\n<p>sen mi kar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131n seferinden d\u00f6nen atl\u0131lar\u0131<br \/>\nkanayan bir yan\u0131n kalm\u0131\u015f m\u0131yd\u0131 da\u011flarda<br \/>\nya\u015fl\u0131lara mezar \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fcteden deniz<br \/>\nhangi iklimden miras sana<\/p>\n<p>\u00e7ocuk yan\u0131n kals\u0131n sadece foto\u011fraflara<br \/>\nbiraz da s\u00fcleymaniye al yan\u0131na<br \/>\notur k\u0131y\u0131s\u0131na k\u00f6\u015fesine istanbulun<br \/>\nsaltanat kay\u0131klar\u0131ndan bak bir de d\u00fcnyaya<\/p>\n<p>g\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde meryem<br \/>\na\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda z\u00fcleyha<\/p>\n<p><strong>Ka\u00e7 Vatan S\u00fcp\u00fcrse de Deli R\u00fczgar<\/strong><br \/>\nka\u00e7 vatan s\u00fcp\u00fcrse de deli r\u00fczgar<br \/>\ny\u00fcz\u00fcnde seni an\u0131msatacak<br \/>\nhep bir\u00a0 i\u015faret olacakt\u0131r&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>kopup gelmek ac\u0131lar\u0131n i\u00e7inden. bir hayale tak\u0131l\u0131p terk etmek yada<br \/>\nvarolman\u0131n di\u011fer bir ad\u0131&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>nelerin eksikli\u011fini hissedersen o, ac\u0131yan olur&#8230;<br \/>\ntutu\u015fan sen de\u011filsindir asl\u0131nda&#8230;<br \/>\nne kadar uza\u011fa d\u00fc\u015fse de \u00f6l\u00fcs\u00fc ku\u015fun, yang\u0131n her yerde yang\u0131nd\u0131r.<br \/>\nama \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fctmez\u00a0 ve ya\u015fl\u0131lara mezar de\u011fildir deniz&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>toparlanm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n&#8230;<br \/>\niri g\u00f6vdeni saklayacak bir me\u015fe a\u011fac\u0131 bulamayacaks\u0131n.<br \/>\nsen kendinden yabanc\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fcteceksin kendini.<br \/>\numudunun di\u011fer bir ad\u0131 olmayacak.<br \/>\nve g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi\u011finde bir ad\u0131n\u0131n de\u011fil aynalarda,\u00e7ocuklu\u011funun da<br \/>\ngidiyor olu\u015funu g\u00f6receksin.<\/p>\n<p>giderken sand\u0131klar dolusu vatan al yan\u0131na.<br \/>\nhani senin olsun demi\u015f ya<br \/>\nku\u015fu. sen de pay\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fen kadar al.<br \/>\nmezarlar b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n her co\u011frafyada<br \/>\nkokusu kals\u0131n \u00fclkenin.<\/p>\n<p>sen bir dilencisin. kendini dileniyorsun. bilmiyorsun nerelisin.<br \/>\nad\u0131n\u0131 kaybetmi\u015fsin. y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc&#8230;<br \/>\nbelki de a\u015fk\u0131n\u0131&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>burada b\u0131rak\u0131p gitmi\u015ftin. o dik ba\u015f\u0131n e\u011fikti.<br \/>\ng\u00f6zlerini sana dikmi\u015f seyrediyordu kaderini.<br \/>\nSen burada b\u0131rak\u0131p gitmi\u015ftin.<br \/>\nbu limanda \u00f6l\u00fcyordu ge\u00e7mi\u015fin.<br \/>\ngemiler hi\u00e7 durmaks\u0131z\u0131n ta\u015f\u0131yorlard\u0131 seni.<br \/>\nye\u015file d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f y\u0131ld\u0131zlar gibi gidiyordun&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>burada b\u0131rak\u0131p gitmi\u015ftin. g\u00f6zleri hep denizi g\u00f6zledi.<br \/>\nher geri d\u00f6nen gemide bekledi seni.<br \/>\nyitirmeden s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00fclkesi gibi seni&#8230;<br \/>\nsavrulan sa\u00e7lar\u0131yd\u0131 \u00fclkesi.<br \/>\ng\u00f6zlerinin rengiydi tabiat.<br \/>\nnehirlerin yanaklar\u0131ndan akmas\u0131yd\u0131 h\u00fcz\u00fcn&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>sonra \u00e7ok vatanlar dola\u015ft\u0131 cans\u0131z bedenin.<br \/>\ns\u00fcrg\u00fcnler \u00fcst\u00fcne s\u00fcrg\u00fcnd\u00fc ge\u00e7mi\u015fin.<br \/>\nyeni adlar yeni kimliklerle an\u0131ld\u0131n.<br \/>\nne kendin oldun ne de kendini anlatabildin.<br \/>\n\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn rengi de\u011fmi\u015fse de y\u00fcz\u00fcne,<br \/>\nge\u00e7mi\u015finden gelen hep bir i\u015faretle direndin&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>dip not: o bir sabah sessizce denizden geldi. ve denizle konu\u015ftuklar\u0131n\u0131ysa<br \/>\nkimse \u00f6\u011frenemedi.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Sessizce Gelirsin Son Sayfas\u0131na Hayat\u0131n.<br \/>\n<\/strong><br \/>\nsessizce gelirsin son sayfas\u0131na hayat\u0131n.<br \/>\nh\u00fcz\u00fcn korkular\u0131n\u0131 da yan\u0131nda getirir.<br \/>\ngece\u00a0 bir ba\u015fkad\u0131r art\u0131k sen,bir ba\u015fka&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>tarif edilecek k\u0131sa anlar d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda her \u015fey bo\u015ftur.<br \/>\na\u00e7ars\u0131n sonsuzlu\u011fun kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131,<br \/>\nson limanda inecek son yolcunun da<br \/>\nsen oldu\u011funun fark\u0131na var\u0131rs\u0131n.<\/p>\n<p>kopmu\u015fsundur art\u0131k.<br \/>\nbir ucundan yakalayabilece\u011fin y\u0131ld\u0131zlar<br \/>\n\u00e7oktan bu \u015fehri terk etmi\u015flerdir.<\/p>\n<p>korkular\u0131n biriktirdi\u011fi irkilmelerse bu saatlere \u00f6zg\u00fcd\u00fcr.<br \/>\nkalp at\u0131\u015flar\u0131 h\u0131zlan\u0131r,<br \/>\nadrenalin\u00a0 y\u00fckselir<br \/>\nve v\u00fccudun her yan\u0131na s\u0131zan,<br \/>\nnereden ve nas\u0131l geldi\u011fi \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fclemeyen garipsi \u0131\u015f\u0131klar,<br \/>\nbeynin derinliklerinde havalan\u0131p sava\u015fmaya ba\u015flarlar.<br \/>\noysa benim sava\u015f\u0131m senle de\u011fil,<br \/>\ng\u00fcnd\u00fcz maskesi takm\u0131\u015f karanl\u0131larlad\u0131r&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>yang\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcrecek iklimler kay\u0131ts\u0131z kal\u0131r \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klara.<br \/>\nko\u015fup giden kum taneleri ise \u00e7aresiz seyreder ya\u015fan\u0131lanlar\u0131.<br \/>\navutmak b\u00fcy\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc tam burada yitirir.<br \/>\nkanatlar\u0131 k\u0131r\u0131k ku\u015flar son bir gayretle havalanmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rlar.<br \/>\nne o \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011fa dokunabilir mavi,<br \/>\nne de sessizce \u00e7ok uzaklardan akan beyaz&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u00e7ok sene \u00f6nce s\u00f6ylenen masallardan ka\u00e7ar atl\u0131lar.<br \/>\nonlar\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131lamak i\u00e7in d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr\u00fcz yollara.<br \/>\nher yan\u0131 sarar g\u00fcl\u00fcc\u00fckler.<br \/>\nbirde o sevin\u00e7lerin getirece\u011fi<br \/>\nbelki y\u0131llarca \u00fczerimizden atamayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z,<br \/>\nhep unutmak istedi\u011fimiz ac\u0131lar&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>senin varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n tam burada ge\u00e7er kitap da.<br \/>\nne kadar k\u0131sa da olsa anlat\u0131lanlar,<br \/>\nseni anlamaya da ipu\u00e7lar\u0131 vermeyi ihmal etmez.<br \/>\ny\u0131rtmaya buradan ba\u015flars\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn sakl\u0131 kalan yan\u0131n\u0131.<br \/>\ng\u00fcnah \u00e7\u0131karmak ucuz bir roman de\u011fildir art\u0131k&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>delice esmeye ba\u015flar r\u00fczgar.<br \/>\ndua okumak i\u00e7in \u00e7ok ge\u00e7tir.<br \/>\na\u011fa\u00e7lar yerinden kopar ve y\u0131llar\u0131n ilahisi ans\u0131z\u0131n devrilir topra\u011fa.<\/p>\n<p>i\u015fte o r\u00fczgarlar dolar sa\u00e7lar\u0131na.<br \/>\nve kentin en tenha yerinde \u00f6denecek hesap olur g\u00f6zlerin.<br \/>\nne kadar da\u00a0 g\u00fczel olsa ge\u00e7mi\u015f.<br \/>\nyar\u0131n\u0131 anmayan dudaklardan k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131 i\u015fitilir,<br \/>\n&#8216;o atl\u0131lar\u0131n pe\u015fine tak\u0131l\u0131p gitmek hi\u00e7 g\u00f6r\u00fclmedik vatand\u0131r.&#8217;<\/p>\n<p>meyvesini yitirir a\u011fa\u00e7lar.<br \/>\nta\u015f sokaklardan y\u00fcr\u00fcmeye ba\u015flar ruhlar.<br \/>\nve b\u00f6yle zamanlarda delirir a\u015f\u0131klar&#8230;.<br \/>\nmay\u0131s\u0131 da eklerse yazan<br \/>\nne bu iki sevgiliyi saklayacak tenhal\u0131klar kal\u0131r geride,<br \/>\nne de bu iki sevgilinin kaderini birle\u015ftirecek yollar&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>seninde b\u00f6yle derinden hissedilen ac\u0131lar\u0131n var m\u0131yd\u0131?<br \/>\nyoksa i\u00e7inde biriktirdiklerin birer yalan m\u0131yd\u0131?<br \/>\nne zaman senden duymak istesen<br \/>\nba\u015fka bir anlat\u0131c\u0131 kar\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu hikayeye.<br \/>\no zaman seni bir daha g\u00f6rmez oluyordum.<br \/>\niklimlerim birbirine kar\u0131\u015f\u0131yor hep bildik adamlar oluyordum.<br \/>\no zaman seni \u00f6ld\u00fcrecek gibi oluyordum&#8230;<br \/>\nkorkuyordum.<\/p>\n<p>bana bir daha y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00f6nme ne olur.<br \/>\nseni\u00a0 nereye gitti\u011fi bilinmeyen yollarda\u00a0 aramaktan yoruldum.<br \/>\nbelki bilmiyorsundur ama,<br \/>\ng\u00f6zlerim de\u011fil ayaklar\u0131m\u0131md\u0131r tutu\u015fan.<br \/>\nas\u0131rlard\u0131r bir gezgin gibi ararken seni,<br \/>\nkaybolan ge\u00e7mi\u015fimden geriye kalan<br \/>\nkoynumda as\u0131l\u0131 kalan y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn sakl\u0131 kalan yan\u0131<br \/>\nve seni ele vermeyen r\u00fczgarlar&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>ge\u00e7en onca y\u0131llar boyunca hep bunu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm.<br \/>\ntekrar geriye d\u00f6necek olsam beni bekleyecek biri olur mu diye.<br \/>\no kadar yitirilmi\u015fliklerden sonra<br \/>\ngeride birilerin varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmek cesaret veriyor insana.<\/p>\n<p>oysa ben hi\u00e7 geriye d\u00f6nmedim.<br \/>\nge\u00e7en onca y\u0131llar boyunca tek s\u0131\u011f\u0131nak olarak yolar\u0131 buldum yan\u0131mda.<br \/>\ngeride ne seni b\u0131rak\u0131yor oluyordum<br \/>\nnede \u00e7ocuklu\u011fumun ge\u00e7ti\u011fi k\u00f6y\u00fcm geliyordu akl\u0131ma(!)&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>ve bir g\u00fcn yollar\u0131n sonuna vard\u0131m.<br \/>\nmutlu muydum hi\u00e7 bilemiyorum.<br \/>\nsaatlerce orada kald\u0131m.<br \/>\nama geriye d\u00f6n\u00fcp hi\u00e7 bakmad\u0131m.<br \/>\ng\u00fcne\u015fin do\u011fu\u015funu<br \/>\nseninde g\u00f6rmeni \u00e7ok isterdim.<br \/>\nbiliyordum ki \u015fu an buradan \u00e7ok uzaklarda<br \/>\nk\u00fct\u00fcphanenin tozlu raflar\u0131nda okunmay\u0131 bekliyordun.<br \/>\nbende biliyordum ki tekrar geriye d\u00f6necek olsam<br \/>\nbir daha bu yollar olmayacakt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>geceler olmayacak&#8230;<\/p>\n<p><strong>Son Kez G\u00f6rmek \u0130stiyorum<br \/>\n<\/strong><br \/>\nson kez g\u00f6rmek istiyorum<br \/>\n\u0131slak dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 bu gece<br \/>\nakdenizde<\/p>\n<p>ispanyol \u00fcnlemler katmadan<br \/>\nsa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 r\u00fczgara at\u0131yorsun<\/p>\n<p>\u00e7ok yak\u0131n\u0131mdan \u015farap y\u00fckl\u00fc gemiler ge\u00e7iyor<br \/>\nben akdeniz diyorum yunanl\u0131ya<br \/>\nbal\u0131k kokuyor adalar<\/p>\n<p>\u00e7\u00f6l\u00fc tarif ediyor m\u0131s\u0131r<br \/>\n\u00e7ok gemiler batt\u0131<\/p>\n<p>hangi yoldan gitsem<br \/>\nson kez sana var\u0131yorum<br \/>\natlantis olsa gerek akrabal\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z<br \/>\ny\u00fckseldik\u00e7e dalgalar \u00fclkemi g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum<\/p>\n<p>sezarda b\u00f6yle korkun\u00e7 havalarda ge\u00e7mi\u015f akdenizi<br \/>\nispanyol ve ben<br \/>\nbirde yunanl\u0131<br \/>\nortak a\u015f\u0131klar\u0131ym\u0131\u015f\u0131z bilmeden<\/p>\n<p><strong>Suskun<br \/>\n<\/strong><br \/>\n<strong>l<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>suskun<br \/>\ny\u00fcr\u00fcmek hep ayn\u0131 bidi\u011fimiz yollardan<br \/>\navutmak nede rezilce yanmak a\u015fk ate\u015fiyle.<\/p>\n<p>ben ko\u015ftum y\u0131ld\u0131zlarca yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa<br \/>\nbelki delice<br \/>\nve rezilce uzan\u0131p g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcne<br \/>\nsal\u0131verdim kendimi<\/p>\n<p>\u00e7ocuklu\u011fumdan kalma al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131klarla yeniliyordum<br \/>\nseni aynalarda<br \/>\ny\u00fcz\u00fcn d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcyordu hi\u00e7 olmayan ayaklar\u0131ma<br \/>\nbeyazd\u0131 ellerin \u00e7ocukken<br \/>\nve eskiden<br \/>\ntaa eskiden<br \/>\nbayram g\u00fcnlerini an\u0131msat\u0131yordu g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemen<\/p>\n<p>buharada on\u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131nda kelebek toplad\u0131m<br \/>\nmusonlardan mercan kayal\u0131klar\u0131na<br \/>\navu\u00e7lar\u0131mda ceset art\u0131klar\u0131<br \/>\nbir an durup k\u0131v\u0131rc\u0131k sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131nda tepecikler g\u00f6r\u00fcr<br \/>\ng\u00fcne\u015fin bat\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yakalard\u0131m<br \/>\nyakalayabilirsem<\/p>\n<p>sen yoktun<br \/>\nbilmezsin<br \/>\nbu topraklarda orkideler a\u00e7ar her sonbahar<br \/>\nbilinen her ku\u015f beyaz olurdu<br \/>\nk\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131<br \/>\n\u00e7o\u011fu kez mavi<\/p>\n<p>al\u00e7ak bak\u0131\u015flar u\u00e7ururdum 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