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ATSHAN Ruslan Kap\u0131dan i\u00e7eri girer girmez k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck o\u011flu kar\u015f\u0131lam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 onu. Ko\u015farak yan\u0131na gelen \u00e7ocuk, babas\u0131n\u0131n bacaklar\u0131na sar\u0131l\u0131p oyna\u015farak neden \u00fczg\u00fcn oldu\u011funu soruyordu. Ancak i\u00e7eriden f\u0131rlay\u0131p gelen annesi, \u00e7ocu\u011fu yeniden di\u011fer odaya g\u00f6nderiyor \u00f6fke ile.<\/p>\n K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u00e7ocuk babas\u0131na gitmek i\u00e7in t\u00fcm sesini koyvermi\u015f y\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131rcas\u0131na a\u011fl\u0131yor, annesi ise h\u0131\u015f\u0131mla \u00fczerine y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcp onu odan\u0131n bir k\u00f6\u015fesine oturtuyor s\u00f6ylenerek\u00a0 \u201cyerinden kalkmayacaks\u0131n\u201d diye ba\u011f\u0131rarak uyar\u0131yor bir kez daha.<\/p>\n Adam kendi odas\u0131ndan i\u00e7eri giriyor ve yorgunluktan bitkin bir \u015fekilde \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcveriyor oldu\u011fu yere. Di\u011fer odada ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131p \u00e7a\u011f\u0131ran kad\u0131n\u0131n sesini duymamak, \u015fikayetlerini s\u00f6ylenmelerini i\u015fitmemek i\u00e7in son zamanlarda s\u00fcrekli yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi kulaklar\u0131n\u0131 pamukla t\u0131k\u0131yor. Bir yandan da e\u015fi ile aralar\u0131ndaki bu anla\u015fmazl\u0131klar\u0131n nedenini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyor, son zamanlarda ni\u00e7in her\u015feyin b\u00f6ylesine k\u00f6t\u00fcye gitti\u011fini bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc anlayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131, bu mutsuzlu\u011fa neyin neden oldu\u011funu bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc bulamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in can\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131l\u0131yor \u00f6fkeleniyor kendi kendine.<\/p>\n -Ne kadar bahts\u0131zm\u0131\u015f\u0131m, ne kadar kara yaz\u0131l\u0131 bir insanm\u0131\u015f\u0131m, me\u011fer tanr\u0131 seni bana e\u015f olarak g\u00f6nderdi\u011finde oca\u011f\u0131m s\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015fte fark\u0131nda de\u011filmi\u015fim.<\/p>\n Kad\u0131n durmaks\u0131z\u0131n s\u00f6yleniyor \u00f6fke ile<\/p>\n -Seninle evlendi\u011fimden beri ayn\u0131 elbise ile dola\u015f\u0131yorum, o elbise de geldi\u011fimde zaten \u00fcst\u00fcmde olan k\u0131yafet, hi\u00e7 mi s\u0131k\u0131lm\u0131yorsun, di\u011fer insanlar\u0131n nas\u0131l giyindiklerini g\u00f6r\u00fcp hi\u00e7mi utanm\u0131yorsun?<\/p>\n Adam bir an dal\u0131p gidiyor \u00e7ok uzaklara. \u00c7ocuklu\u011funda kolunu k\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcn\u00fc an\u0131ms\u0131yor, o g\u00fcn arkada\u015flar\u0131yla ormanda y\u00fcksek\u00e7e bir yama\u00e7taki \u00fcz\u00fcm a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n asmalar\u0131na tutunup sal\u0131ncak niyetine sallan\u0131yorlard\u0131 bo\u015flu\u011fa do\u011fru.<\/p>\n O g\u00fcn sallan\u0131rken tutundu\u011fu asman\u0131n koptu\u011funu ve d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcp kolunu k\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 an\u0131ms\u0131yor. Ancak tutundu\u011fu dal tam yama\u00e7tan bo\u015flu\u011fa sallan\u0131p geriye d\u00f6nerken koptu\u011fu i\u00e7in \u015fans eseri a\u011fac\u0131n dibine d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc, e\u011fer ileriye do\u011fru sallan\u0131rken d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f olsa o keskin yama\u00e7ta par\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131n bile kalmayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyor ve sanki o an\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131yor yeniden.<\/p>\n Bunca y\u0131l sonra bir an \u00fcrperiyor oturdu\u011fu yerde \u201cyinede allah korumu\u015f\u201d diye ge\u00e7iriyor i\u00e7inden.<\/p>\n A\u011fac\u0131n dibinde bir s\u00fcre bayg\u0131n yatt\u0131ktan sonra g\u00f6zlerini a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131nda arkas\u0131ndan birisinin kendisini sert\u00e7e itti\u011fini an\u0131ms\u0131yordu yaln\u0131z . Ay\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ba\u015fucuna toplanan \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n hepsini uzakla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131p yan\u0131ba\u015f\u0131nda diz \u00e7\u00f6kerek ba\u015fucuna oturan o zay\u0131f narin, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck k\u0131z\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki ac\u0131y\u0131 ve \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcy\u00fc hi\u00e7 bir zaman unutam\u0131yor, bu olay\u0131 her an\u0131msad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda sanki o an\u0131 yeniden ya\u015f\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131z dal\u0131n kopmas\u0131ndan kendisini sorumlu tutar gibi vicdan azab\u0131 i\u00e7erisinde b\u00fcy\u00fck bir kederle g\u00f6zlerinin i\u00e7ine bak\u0131yordu. Kendiside her g\u00fcn birlikte oynad\u0131klar\u0131 ve s\u00fcrekli yan\u0131ba\u015f\u0131nda g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcnde olan bu k\u0131z\u0131 sanki ilk kez g\u00f6r\u00fcyormu\u015f gibi bak\u0131yordu g\u00f6zlerinin i\u00e7ine ve sanki k\u0131r\u0131k kolunun ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 unutmu\u015f \u015fimdi tatl\u0131 bir heyecan duyuyor, o an onun ne kadar g\u00fczel oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131z\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcp tela\u015flanmas\u0131 sanki ruhunu ok\u015fuyor onu mutlu ediyordu.<\/p>\n O andan ba\u015flayarak kendisi i\u00e7in o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131zdan daha de\u011ferli ve \u00f6nemli hi\u00e7 bir \u015fey yoktu yery\u00fcz\u00fcnde.<\/p>\n Art\u0131k zaman i\u00e7inde kolu iyile\u015fmi\u015f, bu kez \u00e7ok daha ac\u0131 veren bir a\u011fr\u0131 belirivermi\u015fti y\u00fcre\u011finde. S\u00fcrekli o k\u0131z\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyor,onu hayal ediyordu. Ya\u011fmur ya\u011fsa onu \u0131slataca\u011f\u0131ndan, g\u00fcne\u015f y\u00fckselse onu yakaca\u011f\u0131ndan endi\u015fe eder duruma gelmi\u015fti. Eline bir \u015feker ge\u00e7se onu acele ile o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131za g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcyor ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 her an\u0131nda onu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcp ona ili\u015fkin d\u00fc\u015fler kuruyordu.<\/p>\n Onun bu durumu di\u011fer arkada\u015flar\u0131na komik geliyor, zaman zaman onunla \u015faka yollu e\u011fleniyorlard\u0131 ancak gen\u00e7 delikanl\u0131n\u0131n hi\u00e7 bir \u015fey umurunda de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n Uzunca bir s\u00fcre ge\u00e7mi\u015fi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnerek dal\u0131p giden adam\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki belli belirsiz g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme ans\u0131z\u0131n yok oluvermi\u015fti y\u00fcz\u00fcnden.<\/p>\n Kendi kendine m\u0131r\u0131ldand\u0131 umutsuzluk i\u00e7erisinde \u201cpeki \u015fimdi ne oldu, ne oldu da bu kadar b\u00fcy\u00fck bir a\u015fk ile \u00e7ocuklu\u011fundan bu yana ba\u011fl\u0131 oldu\u011fu kad\u0131n b\u00f6ylesine de\u011fi\u015fiverdi?\u201d<\/p>\n Bir an i\u00e7 ge\u00e7irerek \u201co eski g\u00fcnlere d\u00f6nebilmek i\u00e7in yeniden kolumun k\u0131r\u0131lmas\u0131na raz\u0131yd\u0131m\u201d diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc.<\/p>\n \u00c7ocukluklar\u0131ndan, gen\u00e7liklerinden bu yana sanki birbirleri i\u00e7in tek bir v\u00fccut, tek bir ruh olarak ya\u015fayagelen ve \u00e7ok g\u00fczel g\u00fcnleri payla\u015fan bu iki insan\u0131n yeniden o g\u00fcnlere d\u00f6nebilmesi i\u00e7in adam pek \u00e7ok \u015feyini feda etmeye haz\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n Ancak kad\u0131n hi\u00e7 bir \u015fekilde uzla\u015fmaya yana\u015fm\u0131yor, olur olmaz her\u015feyden bir neden yaratarak s\u00fcrekli kavga \u00e7\u0131kart\u0131p sorun yarat\u0131yordu. Ne istedi\u011fini,neye katlanamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 oturup do\u011fru d\u00fcr\u00fcst s\u00f6ylese bir \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcm bulunabilirdi belki ama kad\u0131n s\u00fcrekli \u00e7evresindekiler ile yar\u0131\u015f i\u00e7erisinde ve s\u00fcrekli bir k\u0131skan\u00e7l\u0131k krizine tutulmu\u015f gibi sudan nedenlerle sorun yarat\u0131p hem kendini hem adam\u0131 bunalt\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n -En az\u0131ndan \u00e7ocu\u011fu ni\u00e7in d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fcyor? diye s\u00f6ylendi adam.<\/p>\n Di\u011fer odada kad\u0131n hala s\u00f6yleniyor aral\u0131ks\u0131z \u015fikayet ederek ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131p \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131yordu. Adam kula\u011f\u0131na t\u0131kad\u0131\u011f\u0131 pamu\u011fa kar\u015f\u0131n yinede e\u015finin bu zehir gibi ac\u0131 s\u00f6zlerini i\u015fitiyor her s\u00f6zc\u00fck bir han\u00e7er gibi y\u00fcre\u011fine saplan\u0131yordu sanki. Her\u015feye kar\u015f\u0131n sakin olmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor onun kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na ge\u00e7ip yan\u0131t vererek daha fazla b\u00fcy\u00fctmemek i\u00e7in sabrediyordu. Ka\u00e7 kez kendi kendine s\u00f6z vermi\u015fti ald\u0131rmayaca\u011f\u0131m, olabildi\u011finde duymazdan, g\u00f6rmezden gelece\u011fim diye ama olmuyordu i\u015fte. Kad\u0131n hala s\u00f6yleniyordu.<\/p>\n -Elalemin seviyesinde bir tek g\u00fcn ya\u015famad\u0131m, burnunu silmekten aciz adamlar altlar\u0131nda yabanc\u0131 arabalar, e\u015flerinin \u00fcst\u00fcnde son moda giysilerle g\u00fcnlerini g\u00fcn ederken benim e\u015fim elalemin pisli\u011fini ta\u015f\u0131yor onlara u\u015fakl\u0131k ediyor. Herkese ak\u0131l da\u011f\u0131t\u0131l\u0131rken sen neredeydin, elalem okurken e\u011fitim al\u0131p meslek sahibi olurken sen neredeydin. Elbette! Heryerde var b\u00f6ylesi zavall\u0131 adamc\u0131klar biriside sensin i\u015fte\u2026<\/p>\n Adam e\u015finin bu s\u00f6zleri nas\u0131l s\u00f6yleyebildi\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc bir an. \u00c7ocukluklar\u0131 birlikte ge\u00e7mi\u015fti, di\u011ferleri okurken meslek sahibi olurken onun nerede oldu\u011funu ne yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 en iyi e\u015fi biliyordu oysa. Gen\u00e7 ya\u015fta babas\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc ve zorunlu olarak onun yerine ge\u00e7ti\u011fini, s\u00fcrekli hasta olan ya\u015fl\u0131 annesinin hi\u00e7 bir \u015fey yapabilecek g\u00fcc\u00fc olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, dolay\u0131s\u0131yla t\u00fcm y\u00fck\u00fcn daha gencecik ya\u015fta onun \u00fczerine y\u0131k\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 b\u00f6yle oluncada b\u00fct\u00fcn bu sorunlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda e\u011fitimini tamamlayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 oysa o d\u00f6nemde kendi ya\u015f\u0131tlar\u0131 aras\u0131nda en zeki \u00e7ocuk oldu\u011funu. B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 en iyi e\u015fi biliyor ancak buna kar\u015f\u0131n hala bu ac\u0131 s\u00f6zleri s\u00f6ylemekten geri durmuyordu.<\/p>\n Adam b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc yeniden olaylar perde perde g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcne geliyordu bir tiyatro sahnesi gibi. Daha sonras\u0131nda evlenmi\u015fler ancak e\u015finin \u0131srar\u0131 ile k\u00f6y\u00fc terkedip kente ta\u015f\u0131nm\u0131\u015flard\u0131. Evleri yoktu ve ortakla\u015fa ya\u015fanan bir binada tek bir odaya yerle\u015fmi\u015flerdi. Ancak \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 olunca buradan da \u00e7\u0131kmak zorunda kald\u0131lar. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc bu zamanda hi\u00e7 kimse ortakla\u015fa ya\u015fanan bir ortamda bir ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7ocu\u011funun a\u011flamas\u0131na geceyar\u0131lar\u0131 herkesi aya\u011fa kald\u0131rmas\u0131na katlanmak istemiyordu.<\/p>\n Adam salt, bir an \u00f6nce \u00e7al\u0131\u015faca\u011f\u0131 kurumun lojmanlar\u0131ndan birine yerle\u015febilmek i\u00e7in bir yerde hamal olarak \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmay\u0131 kabul etmi\u015fti. Oysa pek \u00f6yle a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fcklerin alt\u0131na girebilecek iriyap\u0131l\u0131 g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc biri de de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n Art\u0131k bir eve yerle\u015fmi\u015flerdi i\u015ften ayr\u0131lsa bile yeni bir ev buluncaya kadar burada kalabilirlerdi, ancak adam evi al\u0131r almaz i\u015ften ayr\u0131lmay\u0131 kendine yak\u0131\u015ft\u0131ramam\u0131\u015f bunun d\u00fcr\u00fcst\u00e7e bir \u015fey olmayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnerek burada bir s\u00fcre \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaya karar vermi\u015fti.<\/p>\n \u0130\u015fte e\u015findeki ani de\u011fi\u015fiklik bu d\u00f6nemde ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n Kente gelmeleri ve bu t\u00fcr v\u00fccutla \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmay\u0131 gerektiren bir i\u015fe girmesi ile birlikte e\u015fi inan\u0131lmaz bir k\u0131skan\u00e7l\u0131k krizine tutulmu\u015f, g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc mal m\u00fclk para ve g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc her\u015feye sahip olma h\u0131rs\u0131 b\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Asl\u0131nda kad\u0131n, e\u015finin \u00e7ok becerikli, toplumda \u00f6ne \u00e7\u0131kan kendisini bir \u015fekilde g\u00f6sterip tan\u0131tan aktif birisi olmamas\u0131na eskiden beri tahamm\u00fcl edemiyordu. Adam bu durumu evlendikten \u00e7ok sonralar\u0131 farketmi\u015fti ancak art\u0131k bu son d\u00f6nemde e\u015fi bunu a\u00e7\u0131k a\u00e7\u0131k ba\u015f\u0131na kakar, her f\u0131rsatta y\u00fcz\u00fcne vurarak a\u015fa\u011f\u0131lar olmu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n Mobilyalar, elektrik s\u00fcp\u00fcrgesi, \u00e7ama\u015f\u0131r makinesi, \u00e7e\u015fit \u00e7e\u015fit giysiler. Kad\u0131n s\u00fcrekli bir \u015feyler al\u0131yor g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc her\u015feyi istiyordu inan\u0131lmaz bir h\u0131rsla ve sahip oldu\u011funda ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 o e\u015fyan\u0131n bir de\u011feri kalm\u0131yor s\u00fcrekli yeni \u015feyler pe\u015finde g\u00fcn boyu \u00e7ar\u015f\u0131 pazar dola\u015f\u0131yor, bazan ald\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 geri sat\u0131p yeni \u015feyler al\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n Elbette b\u00fct\u00fcn bu ko\u015fturmacan\u0131n i\u00e7erisinde art\u0131k \u00e7ocuklada gere\u011fi gibi ilgilenmiyor ve onun gereksinimlerini kar\u015f\u0131lay\u0131p anne sevgisi g\u00f6stermiyor o\u011flunu da s\u00fcrekli ihmal ediyordu.<\/p>\n Adam kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7arp\u0131lmas\u0131 ile s\u0131yr\u0131l\u0131yor dald\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerden, e\u015finin d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlay\u0131nca di\u011fer odaya ge\u00e7iyor. Bir k\u00f6\u015fede yerde k\u0131vr\u0131l\u0131p uyuyakalan o\u011flunu kuca\u011f\u0131na al\u0131p uyand\u0131rmamak i\u00e7in sak\u0131narak divana yat\u0131r\u0131yor. E\u011filip \u00e7ocu\u011funu yanaklar\u0131ndan \u00f6p\u00fcyor sevgi ile, \u00e7ocuk o derin uykusundayken elini at\u0131p babas\u0131n\u0131n boynuna sar\u0131l\u0131yor g\u00f6zlerini a\u00e7maks\u0131z\u0131n.<\/p>\n Adam orac\u0131\u011fa divan\u0131n dibine \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcveriyor ve kendiside kolunu at\u0131p \u00e7ocu\u011fa sar\u0131l\u0131yor ve bu \u015fekilde o\u011flunu izlerken uyuyakal\u0131yor yorgunluktan.<\/p>\n Adam e\u015finin ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131p \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rmalar\u0131 ile uyan\u0131yor dald\u0131\u011f\u0131 derin uykudan.<\/p>\n -L\u00fctfen \u00e7ocu\u011fu uyand\u0131rma, diyerek rica ediyor ancak kad\u0131n daha \u00e7ok hiddetlenip sesini daha \u00e7ok y\u00fckseltiyor. Adam \u00e7ocu\u011funu kucaklay\u0131p di\u011fer tarafa ge\u00e7iyor. Kad\u0131n da s\u00f6ylenerek, ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131p \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rarak arkas\u0131ndan geliyor,<\/p>\n -Para de\u011filsin, m\u00fclk de\u011filsin, bilgi de\u011filsin, nesin sen? Kad\u0131n\u0131n ac\u0131 s\u00f6zleri birer \u015famar gibi patl\u0131yor adam\u0131n surat\u0131na ve o an art\u0131k bu i\u015fin y\u00fcr\u00fcmeyece\u011fini bu evlili\u011fin bitti\u011fini kesin olarak anl\u0131yor. Bir an \u00e7ocu\u011fu geliyor akl\u0131na, y\u00fcre\u011fi par\u00e7alan\u0131yor sanki, o an e\u015finin s\u00f6ylediklerini bile duymuyor \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcden. Ne yapal\u0131m diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyor kendi kendine \u201cbelki ileride b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde beni anlar ve yeniden bir araya geliriz. \u015fimdilik yine elimden gelen her\u015feyi yapar\u0131m onun i\u00e7in m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olabildi\u011fince ve kad\u0131n izin verdi\u011fince arada bir de olsa gelir g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u00fcm \u00e7ocu\u011fumu.\u201d<\/p>\n Adam b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnerek d\u0131\u015fkap\u0131ya y\u00f6neliyor ve bir daha d\u00f6nmemek \u00fczere gitmek i\u00e7in kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131yor.<\/p>\n Kad\u0131n \u201cgit git yaman erkek, aman \u00e7ok \u015fey kaybederim sen gidersen\u201d diyerek itiyor s\u0131rt\u0131ndan ve arkas\u0131ndan kap\u0131y\u0131 \u00f6fke ile \u00e7arp\u0131yor .<\/p>\n Adam bir an donmu\u015f gibi k\u0131m\u0131ldamadan kalakal\u0131yor kal\u0131yor kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde. Y\u00fcz\u00fcnde tarif edilemez bir ifade ile d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyor durdu\u011fu yerde ve ac\u0131 ile g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcyor bir an \u00e7ocuklu\u011funda sal\u0131ncaktan d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcp kolunu k\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131nda s\u0131rt\u0131ndan h\u0131zla kendisini iten el ile \u015fu an kap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131karken kendisini iten elin ayn\u0131 oldu\u011funu anl\u0131yor, her ikisinin de ayn\u0131 dokunu\u015f oldu\u011funu duyumsuyor ve kederli bir g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme ile m\u0131r\u0131ldan\u0131yor. \u201c\u015eimdi anlad\u0131m. Evet aradan bunca y\u0131l ge\u00e7ti ama ben \u015fimdi fark\u0131na vard\u0131m ger\u00e7e\u011fin\u201d o g\u00fcn ho\u015fland\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7ocu\u011fu di\u011ferlerinden \u00fcst\u00fcn k\u0131lmak, daha uzaklara, daha y\u00fckseklere \u00e7\u0131karak di\u011ferlerinin \u00f6n\u00fcne ge\u00e7mesini sa\u011flamak i\u00e7in \u00e7ocuksu bir h\u0131rsla kendisini s\u0131rt\u0131ndan iten el az \u00f6nce s\u0131rt\u0131nda hissetti\u011fi el idi.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" ATSHAN Ruslan Çeviri: Ergün Yıldız Şiirler ve Hikayeler Kitabından Kapıdan içeri girer girmez küçük oğlu karşılamıştı onu. Koşarak yanına gelen çocuk, babasının bacaklarına sarılıp oynaşarak neden üzgün olduğunu soruyordu. Ancak içeriden fırlayıp gelen annesi, çocuğu yeniden diğer odaya gönderiyor öfke ile. 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\n<\/strong>\u00c7eviri: Erg\u00fcn Y\u0131ld\u0131z
\n\u015eiirler ve Hikayeler Kitab\u0131ndan<\/p>\n