{"id":8514,"date":"2024-07-31T01:48:02","date_gmt":"2024-07-31T06:48:02","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/circassiancenter.com\/tr\/?p=8514"},"modified":"2024-07-31T16:31:25","modified_gmt":"2024-07-31T21:31:25","slug":"semsiye","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/semsiye\/","title":{"rendered":"\u015eEMS\u0130YE"},"content":{"rendered":"

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\u0422olga Kaya<\/strong><\/p>\n

Ac\u0131 ac\u0131 \u00e7alan \u00e7alar saatin sesiyle uyand\u0131m. Uyku sersemi ellerimle yoklayarak, hain saati bulup ona kendi ellerimle gereken dersi verdim. Sefil fakirhanemde lo\u015f \u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131, g\u00fcne\u015f y\u00fcz\u00fc g\u00f6rmeyen odam\u0131n lavabosunda, t\u0131ra\u015f olmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken bir yandan da kolumdaki saate bakarak servisi ka\u00e7\u0131rmamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum. D\u0131\u015far\u0131da Ramazan ay\u0131 var ve ya\u011fmur ya\u011f\u0131yor. Benimse cebimde be\u015f para yok gecikmi\u015f bir kira ve \u00f6denmesi gereken faturalar var.<\/p>\n

H\u0131zla f\u0131rl\u0131yorum evden. Servise yeti\u015fmem i\u00e7in on be\u015f dakikal\u0131k bir yolum var. Hala ve ortal\u0131k zifiri karanl\u0131k.<\/p>\n

Hayat\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6zden ge\u00e7iriyorum yoku\u015fu \u00e7\u0131karken, T\u00fcrkiye’nin en belal\u0131 \u015fehrinin, en belal\u0131 mahallelerinden birinde, zifiri karanl\u0131kta sokak k\u00f6pekleriyle, sabah namaz\u0131na gitmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan ya\u015fl\u0131 thamadeler ve benim gibi yar\u0131 \u00fccretli \u00fc\u00e7 be\u015f parya ile birlikte y\u00fcr\u00fcyorum. Birde \u00fcst\u00fcne \u00fcstl\u00fck ya\u011fmur ya\u011f\u0131yor, tam yolunda gitmeyen her \u015feye, hayata, karanl\u0131\u011fa, \u015fu \u015fehri Konstantiniye\u00b4ye k\u00fcfr\u00fc basacakken elimdeki \u015femsiye g\u00f6z\u00fcme ili\u015fiyor. Sanki onu fark etmemi\u015fim de fark edince \u015fa\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f\u0131m gibi ona yeniden bak\u0131yorum. \u015eemsiyeye daha bir s\u0131k\u0131 sar\u0131l\u0131yorum, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc o hayat\u0131mda o anda yolunda giden tek \u015feymi\u015f gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyor bana, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc beni, yolunda gitmeyen her \u015fey yetmezmi\u015f gibi birde ya\u011fmurda \u0131slanm\u0131\u015f olmaktan koruyor.<\/p>\n

Y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fc h\u0131zland\u0131r\u0131yorum. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc bu lanet servis \u015fof\u00f6r\u00fc asla beklemiyor, yava\u015flatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 arabadan sizi olman\u0131z gereken yerde g\u00f6rmezse gaza bas\u0131p g\u00f6zden kayboluveriyor ve benimde cebimde servisi ka\u00e7\u0131r\u0131rsam otob\u00fcse verecek tek kuru\u015f param yok.<\/p>\n

Bir yandan h\u0131zl\u0131 h\u0131zl\u0131 y\u00fcr\u00fcrken bir yandan da yan\u0131mdan ge\u00e7en insanlara elimdeki \u015femsiyeyle fiyaka at\u0131yorum. \u00d6yle pahal\u0131 bir \u015feyde de\u011fil \u00fcstelik, ya\u011fmur ya\u011fmaya ba\u015flay\u0131nca birden ya\u011fan ya\u011fmur gibi bitiveren seyyar sat\u0131c\u0131lardan al\u0131nm\u0131\u015f ucuz adi bir \u015fey. Ancak benim i\u00e7in keyif nedeni, hayata daha s\u0131k\u0131 sar\u0131lmam i\u00e7in bir neden bulmu\u015fum gibi beni mutlu ediyor. Aniden ya\u011fmurla birlikte birde r\u00fczgar \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yor, bende usta bir d\u00fcmenci gibi r\u00fczgara g\u00f6re y\u00f6n veriyorum ona. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc biliyorum ki, ters bir hareketimde par\u00e7a par\u00e7a olacak. Kald\u0131r\u0131mlarda tek t\u00fck \u015femsiye cesetleri g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum telleri k\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n

Servisin ge\u00e7ti\u011fi noktaya az kald\u0131 \u015fu k\u00f6\u015feyi d\u00f6nd\u00fcm m\u00fc orday\u0131m. Saate bak\u0131yorum tam servis saati, k\u00f6\u015feyi d\u00f6ner d\u00f6nmez u\u011fursuz servisi g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum. Kald\u0131r\u0131ma do\u011fru yava\u015fl\u0131yor ve aniden h\u0131zlan\u0131p yola devam ediyor. Elimde \u015femsiye donup kal\u0131yorum tam kallavi bir k\u00fcf\u00fcr basacakken aniden y\u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fc de\u011fi\u015ftiren r\u00fczgar beni gafil avl\u0131yor \u201culeeeeeeeeennnnnnn\u201d dememe f\u0131rsat kalmadan ters d\u00f6n\u00fcyor ve telleri k\u0131r\u0131l\u0131yor. Ellerimde par\u00e7alanan \u015femsiyeye ac\u0131 ac\u0131 bakarken ya\u011fmur damlalar\u0131 \u201ct\u0131p t\u0131p\u201d kafama d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyor ve ben a\u011flamamak i\u00e7in kendimi zor tutuyorum.<\/p>\n

K\u00f6s k\u00f6s fakirhaneye do\u011fru d\u00f6n\u00fcyorum s\u0131r\u0131ls\u0131klam olmu\u015f vaziyette.<\/p>\n

Eve giriyorum radyoyu a\u00e7\u0131yorum. Yava\u015f yava\u015f \u0131slanan elbiselerimi \u00e7\u0131kart\u0131rken radyodan bir haber sesi geliyor: \u201dDe\u011ferli yazar\u0131m\u0131z Orhan Pamuk Nobel Edebiyat \u00d6d\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00fc kazand\u0131.\u201d<\/p>\n

Birden radyoya d\u00f6n\u00fcyorum i\u00e7imde b\u00fcy\u00fck bir ne\u015feyle \u201dHay ya\u015fa\u201d diyorum. Yata\u011fa uzan\u0131rken birden telefonum \u00e7al\u0131yor.<\/p>\n

– Lan Allah’\u0131n Kabardey’i i\u015fe gittin mi? Gitmediysen kahvalt\u0131 yapal\u0131m. Senin evin oralarday\u0131m. Bizim komiseri bir yere b\u0131rakt\u0131m. Biraz zaman\u0131m var hadi haz\u0131rlan, diyor arkada\u015f\u0131m. Ne\u015fem biraz daha yerine geliyor<\/p>\n

– Tamam lan deli Abaza evdeyim gel diyorum.<\/p>\n

Keyfim eni konu yerine geliyor. Bak i\u015fte diyorum kendi kendime, karamsar olmak i\u00e7in bir neden yok. Orhan Pamuk Nobel’i kazanm\u0131\u015f, arkada\u015f\u0131mla da kahvalt\u0131 yapaca\u011f\u0131m. K\u0131r\u0131lan \u015femsiyemin ac\u0131s\u0131 i\u00e7imde hafifliyor birden.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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