{"id":941,"date":"2019-02-20T20:58:07","date_gmt":"2019-02-20T20:58:07","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/circassiancenter.com\/tr\/?p=941"},"modified":"2019-02-20T20:58:07","modified_gmt":"2019-02-20T20:58:07","slug":"ana-dilimiz-ve-halimiz","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/ana-dilimiz-ve-halimiz\/","title":{"rendered":"ANA D\u0130L\u0130M\u0130Z VE HAL\u0130M\u0130Z"},"content":{"rendered":"

YEMUZ Nevzat Tarak\u00e7\u0131 <\/strong>
\n12.02.2011<\/span><\/p>\n

K\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fcn temeli, y\u00fcre\u011fimin g\u00fcr sesi, sevgili ana dilim,<\/p>\n

Sana hep, \u201cSeni seviyorum!\u201d dedim, ne yaz\u0131k ki s\u00f6zde kald\u0131 sevgim.<\/p>\n

Sevgimin gere\u011fini yapamad\u0131m, seni hep ba\u015fkalar\u0131yla aldatt\u0131m.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Fark\u0131nday\u0131m, su\u00e7um b\u00fcy\u00fck. \u00d6nce unuttum seni, sonra da benli\u011fimi.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u015eimdi bak ne hallerdeyim:<\/p>\n

Sustum, konu\u015fam\u0131yorum,<\/p>\n

Unuttum, hat\u0131rlam\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n

Bak\u0131yor, g\u00f6remiyorum.<\/p>\n

Duygular\u0131m k\u00f6reldi, zihnim karmakar\u0131\u015f\u0131k.<\/p>\n

Ne olur affet beni!
\n<\/strong><\/p>\n

E\u011fer affedersen beni,<\/p>\n

Seninle g\u00f6recek yeniden g\u00f6zlerim,<\/p>\n

Seninle \u015fak\u0131yacak dilim,<\/strong><\/p>\n

Y\u00fcre\u011fim, g\u00fczellikleri hissedecek,<\/p>\n

Haf\u0131zam canlanacak,<\/p>\n

Zihnimde g\u00f6kku\u015fa\u011f\u0131 a\u00e7acak.<\/p>\n

K\u00f6relmi\u015f duygular\u0131m \u015faha kalkacak,<\/p>\n

Affet, affet ne olur beni!
\nTitreyen sesin, akan g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131nla yalvar\u0131yordun hep:<\/p>\n

\u201cNe olur unutmay\u0131n, unutturmay\u0131n, sevdirin beni!\u201d diyordun ve ekliyordun: \u201cBeni unutursa bu nesil,<\/strong> i\u015fte o zaman biter t\u00fckenir!\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201c\u00c7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 bu bilin\u00e7le yeti\u015ftirin, siz babas\u0131n\u0131z, annesiniz!\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cDilin, millet hayat\u0131ndaki \u00f6nemini siz \u00e7ok iyi bilirsiniz.\u201d<\/p>\n

Bu yalvar\u0131\u015flar\u0131, bu yakar\u0131\u015flar\u0131 duyamayacak kadar kabala\u015fm\u0131\u015f, senden uzakla\u015fm\u0131\u015f, seni unutmu\u015ftum.
\nNe ac\u0131, y\u0131llarca hayalimi, y\u00fcre\u011fimi ve zihnimi uyuttum.<\/p>\n

Rotam\u0131 karanl\u0131\u011fa, yok olu\u015fa do\u011frulttum.<\/p>\n

Yalvar\u0131\u015flar\u0131n kula\u011f\u0131mda hep: \u201cDil yiterse millet biter!\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u201cBug\u00fcn elinizden geleni yapmazsan\u0131z, yar\u0131n \u00e7ok ge\u00e7 olur!<\/p>\n

Dil, halk\u0131n tarih ile yo\u011furup can katt\u0131\u011f\u0131 hazinedir.<\/strong><\/p>\n

K\u0131z\u0131n, o\u011flun bunu b\u00f6yle bilmelidir.
\n Dil unutulursa<\/em><\/b> kimlik unutulur, benlik unutulur!
\nDil unutulursa e\u011fer, \u015fairin dedi\u011fi gibi:
\n\u201cNe umut kal\u0131r, ne uygarl\u0131k, ne sanat.\u201d
\n\u201cNe ge\u00e7mi\u015f, ne gelecek\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cBir halk \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f demektir,\u201d <\/strong><\/p>\n

\u201cBir g\u00fcn, dili \u00f6l\u00fcnce.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cDilimizin s\u0131n\u0131rlar\u0131, d\u00fcnyam\u0131z\u0131n s\u0131n\u0131rlar\u0131d\u0131r.\u201d diyordu b\u00fcy\u00fck d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

Do\u011fruysa bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck d\u00fcnyam\u0131zda<\/strong> \u201ck\u00e2fe\u201d ile ba\u015f ba\u015fa kald\u0131k demektir.<\/p>\n

Bak ne diyor dil a\u015fk\u0131yla yanan ozan:<\/p>\n

S\u00f6z deriz<\/p>\n

S\u00f6zle d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr<\/strong><\/p>\n

S\u00f6zle s\u00f6yleriz.<\/p>\n

S\u00f6zd\u00fcr bizim silah\u0131m\u0131z<\/p>\n

S\u00f6zle dost anar<\/p>\n

S\u00f6zle g\u00f6n\u00fcl k\u0131rar<\/p>\n

Ve s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fczle an\u0131l\u0131r\u0131z<\/p>\n

Bir s\u00f6zle unutulur gider<\/p>\n

Bir s\u00f6zle \u00f6l\u00fcms\u00fcz kal\u0131r\u0131z.<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Dil deriz, dille d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr dille s\u00f6yleriz.<\/p>\n

Onunla dost kazan\u0131r, onunla g\u00f6n\u00fcl k\u0131rar\u0131z.<\/p>\n

S\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fczle an\u0131l\u0131r, s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fczle unutulur gideriz.
\n<\/strong><\/p>\n

ANA D\u0130L\u0130M, AFFET BEN\u0130 NE OLUR? \u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u201cEy benim ana dilim, k\u00fclt\u00fcr dokur dilim dilim.<\/p>\n

Sevgili ana dilim, mahcubum, sevgimin gere\u011fini yapamad\u0131m, seni hep ba\u015fkalar\u0131yla aldatt\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Aldatan ke\u015fke sadece ben olsayd\u0131m, biliyorum sevenlerin(!) taraf\u0131ndan hep aldat\u0131ld\u0131n.<\/strong><\/p>\n

K\u0131rg\u0131ns\u0131n, k\u00fcsk\u00fcns\u00fcn, yorgun ve bitkinsin.<\/p>\n

G\u00fczel dilim, beni affedebilecek misin?<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Ge\u00e7 de olsa anlad\u0131m ger\u00e7e\u011fi, \u015fimdi ben peri\u015fan\u0131m\u2026<\/p>\n

Hat\u0131rlar\u0131m, annem tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 seni bana. \u0130lkokul \u00e7a\u011f\u0131nda seninle oldum hep.<\/p>\n

Ne olduysa sonra oldu, bilmiyorum nas\u0131l oldu, aram\u0131za girdiler, yeni sevgililer<\/p>\n

\u00e7\u0131kartt\u0131lar kar\u015f\u0131ma, seni unutturdular bana.<\/p>\n

Oysa sen, atam\u0131n, dedemin yadig\u00e2r\u0131yd\u0131n.<\/p>\n

Ge\u00e7 anlad\u0131m seni, hatal\u0131y\u0131m, su\u00e7luyum, affet beni!<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Sensiz de olabilecek sand\u0131m.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Me\u011fer ne \u00e7ok aldand\u0131m.<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u015eimdi akl\u0131m kar\u0131\u015f\u0131k, duygular\u0131m tarumar.<\/p>\n

Anlarsa beni sa\u011f\u0131r, dilsiz, \u00e2m\u00e2lar anlar.<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Darald\u0131 d\u00fcnyam, yitirdim benli\u011fimi, konu\u015fam\u0131yor, anlayam\u0131yor, duyam\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n

Kaybetti\u011fim hazinenin de\u011ferini \u015fimdi daha iyi anl\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n

Kar\u015f\u0131m\u0131zdaki tablo bir felaket, belki de bir k\u0131yamet!
\nBunu derinden hissediyor, herkes anlas\u0131n istiyorum.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Uzun zamand\u0131r yorgun, \u00fcmitsiz ve bitkindin. S\u00f6yle \u015fimdi nerelerdesin?<\/p>\n

Ey dilim, ses ver \u015fimdi nerelerdesin?<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Seni anlayamad\u0131m, derin manan\u0131 kavrayamad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Oysa sen, benli\u011fimin temeli, k\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fcn g\u00fcr sesiydin.<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Sen, tarihime k\u00f6pr\u00fc, atamdan arma\u011fans\u0131n.<\/p>\n

Sen, ruhum, \u00f6z\u00fcm, tutan elim, g\u00f6ren g\u00f6z\u00fcms\u00fcn.<\/p>\n

Sen her \u015feyimsin.<\/p>\n

Seninle olamad\u0131m, seninle konu\u015fmad\u0131m, seni anlayamad\u0131m, ne olur beni affet!<\/p>\n

Ge\u00e7 fark ettim: Seni sevmek, ecdad\u0131 sevmek, Elbruz\u2019 da gezmekmi\u015f.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Renk renk yaban g\u00fclleri\u00a0 kokmazken burnuma,\u00a0 sende \u015fak\u0131r dururdu b\u00fct\u00fcn<\/p>\n

b\u00fclb\u00fcller, bunu unutma!<\/p>\n

Do\u011fdum seni duydum,\u00a0 seninle b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fcm.
\nSonras\u0131nda de\u011fi\u015ftim ve seni unuttum.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Seninle seslenirdi anam, seni hayk\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131 babam!
\nSensizlik karartt\u0131 d\u00fcnyam\u0131 inan.<\/p>\n

\u015eairin dedi\u011fi gibi:<\/p>\n

\u201cYolu buldum, izi kaybettim,\u201c<\/p>\n

\u201cBen oldum, bizi kaybettim.\u201c<\/p>\n

\u201cEsasta gizi kaybettim, \u00f6yle gezerim\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n

Ne olur affet beni!<\/p>\n

\u201cG\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fcz k\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fczd\u00fcr!\u201d der dururdum.<\/p>\n

Me\u011fer k\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fc ya\u015fatan, onu ta\u015f\u0131yan \u201cdil\u201d mi\u015f, bunu nas\u0131l unuttum?<\/p>\n

Dilsiz k\u00fclt\u00fcr ya\u015famaz, k\u00fclt\u00fcrs\u00fcz millet olmazm\u0131\u015f.
\n\u015e\u00fck\u00fcrler olsun ki ge\u00e7 de olsa sensiz olamayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 anlad\u0131m!
\nS\u00f6z veriyorum \u00f6nder Sosrukua<\/strong>\u2019ya, bilge Setenay<\/strong>\u2019a.<\/p>\n

Art\u0131k seninle ya\u015fayaca\u011f\u0131m, seninle konu\u015faca\u011f\u0131m, seni anlataca\u011f\u0131m, senden ayr\u0131lmayaca\u011f\u0131m.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Art\u0131k \u015fark\u0131m, \u00fcmitsizlik; bestem, \u00e7aresizlik olmayacak!
\nRuhum ve benli\u011fim seni kucaklayacak.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u015eimdi nerelerdesin bilmiyorum.<\/p>\n

Ses ver ne olur, ses ver!<\/p>\n

\u201cAffettim seni!\u201d<\/strong> de.<\/p>\n

Bu s\u00f6z\u00fc duysam bir, bu bana yeter!<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Biliyorum, \u00fcmitsizdin, \u00e7ok yorgun ve hastayd\u0131n.<\/p>\n

Ne olur ses ver!<\/p>\n

\u2026
\nS\u00f6yle, neden sesin \u00e7\u0131km\u0131yor?<\/p>\n

Aman Allah\u2019\u0131m!<\/p>\n

Yoksa \u2026<\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

Not:\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201c21 \u015eubat D\u00fcnya Ana Dil G\u00fcn\u00fc\u201d<\/strong> ve \u201c14 Mart Adige Dil G\u00fcn\u00fc\u201d<\/strong> n\u00fcn \u00a0toplumumuza g\u00fczellikler getirmesi ve bu g\u00fcnlerdeki \u00e7e\u015fitli etkinliklerle toplumumuzun dil bilincinin geli\u015fmesi temennisiyle.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

YEMUZ Nevzat Tarakçı 12.02.2011 Kültürümün temeli, yüreğimin gür sesi, sevgili ana dilim, Sana hep, “Seni seviyorum!” dedim, ne yazık ki sözde kaldı sevgim. Sevgimin gereğini yapamadım, seni hep başkalarıyla aldattım.   Farkındayım, suçum büyük. Önce unuttum seni, sonra da benliğimi. Şimdi bak ne hallerdeyim: Sustum, konuşamıyorum, Unuttum, hatırlamıyorum. Bakıyor, göremiyorum. Duygularım köreldi, zihnim karmakarışık. 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