{"id":971,"date":"2019-02-20T21:14:19","date_gmt":"2019-02-20T21:14:19","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/circassiancenter.com\/tr\/?p=971"},"modified":"2019-02-20T21:14:19","modified_gmt":"2019-02-20T21:14:19","slug":"ana-dilim-affet-beni-ne-olur","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/ana-dilim-affet-beni-ne-olur\/","title":{"rendered":"ANA D\u0130L\u0130M, AFFET BEN\u0130 NE OLUR?"},"content":{"rendered":"

YEMUZ Nevzat Tarak\u00e7\u0131
\n<\/span><\/strong>26<\/span><\/span>.02<\/span>.201<\/span>2<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cEy benim ana dilim, k\u00fclt\u00fcr dokur dilim dilim.\u201d<\/p>\n

Sevgili ana dilim,
\nFark\u0131nday\u0131m, \u00e7ok mahcubum, sevginin gere\u011fini yapamad\u0131m, seni ba\u015fkalar\u0131yla aldatt\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Ke\u015fke aldatan sadece ben olsayd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Biliyorum sevenlerin(!) taraf\u0131ndan hep aldat\u0131ld\u0131n.<\/strong><\/p>\n

K\u0131rg\u0131ns\u0131n, k\u00fcsk\u00fcns\u00fcn, yorgun ve bitkinsin.<\/p>\n

G\u00fczel dilim, beni affedebilecek misin?<\/strong><\/p>\n

Ge\u00e7 de olsa anlad\u0131m ger\u00e7e\u011fi, peri\u015fan\u0131m \u015fimdi.<\/p>\n

Hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum, annem tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 beni seninle.<\/p>\n

\u0130lkokul \u00e7a\u011f\u0131nda seni sevdim, seninle oldum hep.
\nNe olduysa sonra oldu, bilmiyorum nas\u0131l oldu, yeni sevgililer aram\u0131za girdi, seni unutturdular bana.<\/p>\n

Oysa sen, atam\u0131n, dedemin yadig\u00e2r\u0131yd\u0131n.<\/p>\n

Ge\u00e7 anlad\u0131m seni, hatal\u0131y\u0131m, su\u00e7luyum, ne olur affet beni!<\/p>\n

Sensiz de olabilecek sand\u0131m.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Me\u011fer ne \u00e7ok aldand\u0131m.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u015eimdi akl\u0131m kar\u0131\u015f\u0131k, duygular\u0131m tarumar.<\/p>\n

Anlarsa beni sa\u011f\u0131r, dilsiz, \u00e2m\u00e2lar anlar.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Darald\u0131 d\u00fcnyam, yitirdim benli\u011fimi, konu\u015fam\u0131yor, anlayam\u0131yor, duyam\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n

Kaybetti\u011fim hazinenin de\u011ferini \u015fimdi daha iyi anl\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n

Kar\u015f\u0131m\u0131zdaki tablo bir felaket, belki de bir k\u0131yamet!<\/p>\n

Bunu derinden hissediyor, herkes anlas\u0131n istiyorum.<\/p>\n

Uzun zamand\u0131r yorgun, \u00fcmitsiz ve bitkindin.<\/p>\n

Ey dilim, ses ver \u015fimdi nerelerdesin?<\/p>\n

Seni anlayamad\u0131m, derin manan\u0131 kavrayamad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Oysa sen, benli\u011fimin temeli, k\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fcn g\u00fcr sesiydin.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Sen, tarihime k\u00f6pr\u00fc, atamdan arma\u011fans\u0131n.<\/p>\n

Sen, ruhum, \u00f6z\u00fcm, tutan elim, g\u00f6ren g\u00f6z\u00fcms\u00fcn.<\/p>\n

Sen her \u015feyimsin.<\/p>\n

Seninle olamad\u0131m, seninle konu\u015fmad\u0131m, seni anlayamad\u0131m, ne olur beni affet!<\/p>\n

Ge\u00e7 fark ettim: Seni sevmek, ecdad\u0131 sevmek, Elbruz\u2019 da gezinmekmi\u015f.<\/p>\n

Renk renk yaban g\u00fclleri kokmazken burnuma,\u00a0 sende \u015fak\u0131r dururdu b\u00fct\u00fcn b\u00fclb\u00fcller, bunu unutma!<\/p>\n

Do\u011fdum seni duydum,\u00a0 seninle b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fcm.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Sonras\u0131nda de\u011fi\u015ftim ve seni unuttum.<\/p>\n

<\/strong> Seninle seslenirdi anam, seni hayk\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131 babam!<\/p>\n

Sensizlik karartt\u0131 d\u00fcnyam\u0131 inan.<\/p>\n

\u015eairin dedi\u011fi gibi:<\/p>\n

\u201cYolu buldum, izi kaybettim,\u201c<\/p>\n

\u201cBen oldum, bizi kaybettim.\u201c<\/p>\n

\u201cEsasta gizi kaybettim<\/strong>, \u00f6yle gezerim\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n

Ne olur affet beni!<\/p>\n

\u201cG\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fcz k\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fczd\u00fcr!\u201d der dururdum.<\/p>\n

Me\u011fer k\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fc ya\u015fatan, onu ta\u015f\u0131yan \u201cdil\u201d mi\u015f, bunu nas\u0131l unuttum?<\/p>\n

Dilsiz k\u00fclt\u00fcr ya\u015famaz, k\u00fclt\u00fcrs\u00fcz millet olmazm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n

\u015e\u00fck\u00fcrler olsun ki ge\u00e7 de olsa sensiz olamayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 anlad\u0131m!<\/p>\n

S\u00f6z veriyorum \u00f6nder Sosrukua<\/strong>\u2019ya, bilge Setenay<\/strong>\u2019a.<\/p>\n

Art\u0131k seninle ya\u015fayaca\u011f\u0131m, seninle konu\u015faca\u011f\u0131m, seni anlataca\u011f\u0131m, senden ayr\u0131lmayaca\u011f\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Art\u0131k \u015fark\u0131m, \u00fcmitsizlik; bestem, \u00e7aresizlik olmayacak!<\/p>\n

Ruhum ve benli\u011fim seni kucaklayacak.<\/p>\n

\u015eimdi nerelerdesin bilmiyorum.<\/p>\n

Ses ver ne olur, ses ver!<\/p>\n

\u201cAffettim seni!\u201d<\/strong> de.<\/p>\n

Bu s\u00f6z\u00fc duysam bir, bu bana yeter!<\/p>\n

Biliyorum, \u00fcmitsizdin, \u00e7ok yorgun ve hastayd\u0131n.<\/p>\n

Yalvar\u0131yorum ne olur ses ver!<\/p>\n

<\/p>\n

S\u00f6yle, neden sesin \u00e7\u0131km\u0131yor?<\/p>\n

Aman Allah\u2019\u0131m!<\/p>\n

Yoksa \u2026
\nNot:<\/strong> \u201c21 \u015eubat D\u00fcnya Ana Dili G\u00fcn\u00fc\u201d ve \u201c14 Mart Adige Dili G\u00fcn\u00fc\u201d n\u00fcn toplumumuzun dil bilincini geli\u015ftirmesi temennisiyle.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

YEMUZ Nevzat Tarakçı 26.02.2012 “Ey benim ana dilim, kültür dokur dilim dilim.” Sevgili ana dilim, Farkındayım, çok mahcubum, sevginin gereğini yapamadım, seni başkalarıyla aldattım. Keşke aldatan sadece ben olsaydım. Biliyorum sevenlerin(!) tarafından hep aldatıldın. Kırgınsın, küskünsün, yorgun ve bitkinsin. Güzel dilim, beni affedebilecek misin? Geç de olsa anladım gerçeği, perişanım şimdi. Hatırlıyorum, annem tanıştırmıştı beni […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_bbp_topic_count":0,"_bbp_reply_count":0,"_bbp_total_topic_count":0,"_bbp_total_reply_count":0,"_bbp_voice_count":0,"_bbp_anonymous_reply_count":0,"_bbp_topic_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_reply_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_forum_subforum_count":0,"ocean_post_layout":"","ocean_both_sidebars_style":"","ocean_both_sidebars_content_width":0,"ocean_both_sidebars_sidebars_width":0,"ocean_sidebar":"0","ocean_second_sidebar":"0","ocean_disable_margins":"enable","ocean_add_body_class":"","ocean_shortcode_before_top_bar":"","ocean_shortcode_after_top_bar":"","ocean_shortcode_before_header":"","ocean_shortcode_after_header":"","ocean_has_shortcode":"","ocean_shortcode_after_title":"","ocean_shortcode_before_footer_widgets":"","ocean_shortcode_after_footer_widgets":"","ocean_shortcode_before_footer_bottom":"","ocean_shortcode_after_footer_bottom":"","ocean_display_top_bar":"default","ocean_display_header":"default","ocean_header_style":"","ocean_center_header_left_menu":"0","ocean_custom_header_template":"0","ocean_custom_logo":0,"ocean_custom_retina_logo":0,"ocean_custom_logo_max_width":0,"ocean_custom_logo_tablet_max_width":0,"ocean_custom_logo_mobile_max_width":0,"ocean_custom_logo_max_height":0,"ocean_custom_logo_tablet_max_height":0,"ocean_custom_logo_mobile_max_height":0,"ocean_header_custom_menu":"0","ocean_menu_typo_font_family":"0","ocean_menu_typo_font_subset":"","ocean_menu_typo_font_size":0,"ocean_menu_typo_font_size_tablet":0,"ocean_menu_typo_font_size_mobile":0,"ocean_menu_typo_font_size_unit":"px","ocean_menu_typo_font_weight":"","ocean_menu_typo_font_weight_tablet":"","ocean_menu_typo_font_weight_mobile":"","ocean_menu_typo_transform":"","ocean_menu_typo_transform_tablet":"","ocean_menu_typo_transform_mobile":"","ocean_menu_typo_line_height":0,"ocean_menu_typo_line_height_tablet":0,"ocean_menu_typo_line_height_mobile":0,"ocean_menu_typo_line_height_unit":"","ocean_menu_typo_spacing":0,"ocean_menu_typo_spacing_tablet":0,"ocean_menu_typo_spacing_mobile":0,"ocean_menu_typo_spacing_unit":"","ocean_menu_link_color":"","ocean_menu_link_color_hover":"","ocean_menu_link_color_active":"","ocean_menu_link_background":"","ocean_menu_link_hover_background":"","ocean_menu_link_active_background":"","ocean_menu_social_links_bg":"","ocean_menu_social_hover_links_bg":"","ocean_menu_social_links_color":"","ocean_menu_social_hover_links_color":"","ocean_disable_title":"default","ocean_disable_heading":"default","ocean_post_title":"","ocean_post_subheading":"","ocean_post_title_style":"","ocean_post_title_background_color":"","ocean_post_title_background":0,"ocean_post_title_bg_image_position":"","ocean_post_title_bg_image_attachment":"","ocean_post_title_bg_image_repeat":"","ocean_post_title_bg_image_size":"","ocean_post_title_height":0,"ocean_post_title_bg_overlay":0.5,"ocean_post_title_bg_overlay_color":"","ocean_disable_breadcrumbs":"default","ocean_breadcrumbs_color":"","ocean_breadcrumbs_separator_color":"","ocean_breadcrumbs_links_color":"","ocean_breadcrumbs_links_hover_color":"","ocean_display_footer_widgets":"default","ocean_display_footer_bottom":"default","ocean_custom_footer_template":"0","ocean_post_oembed":"","ocean_post_self_hosted_media":"","ocean_post_video_embed":"","ocean_link_format":"","ocean_link_format_target":"self","ocean_quote_format":"","ocean_quote_format_link":"post","ocean_gallery_link_images":"off","ocean_gallery_id":[],"footnotes":""},"categories":[106],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-971","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-yazarlar-yemuz-nevzat-tarakci","entry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/971","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=971"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/971\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":972,"href":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/971\/revisions\/972"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=971"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=971"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.circassiancenter.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=971"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}